Seabadi Edelwai..

Chapter 200 Is Heavy....

Fathering.... Momuk, what are you doing there?

A week has passed since your sudden departure,

I was still struggling with grief, even tears were endlessly flowing every time I remembered that day,,

I'm not a whiny Dad... I'm not a soft boy either, it's just that my heart was broken, after you left... I'm fragile.. I kept trying to get stronger, but I failed. My soul was torn apart when I remembered now that I was alone walking in the gloom of reality.

How is this Dad...?? How I should strive to be the strong and tough Boy you would expect if that hope were your smile that a lifetime I would no longer be able to see.

I'm too weak to pretend to be strong,,

Fathering... Ibuk, next week I go to High School, even the gray white uniform that you promised you never had time to buy let alone to see me wearing it...

Fathering... Ibuk, tell me how I should live now, if to just step it feels like both of my legs are so limp.

I'm like a broken charcoal, lost direction and purpose...

Tok... !!

Abi....!

The call from outside the room awakened me from the lament of my solitude.

Get out of the chair and walk open the door of the room that has been locked since when.

I didn't even come out of the room just to eat and shower.

No matter how sticky my body was, and how hungry my stomach was, there was nothing more painful to me than the loss of two real angels in my life.

Clamps!

I turned back towards the bed after unlocking the room door.

Bik Umi and Uncle Usman came in and walked over to me slowly sitting beside me.

Bik Umi's hand rubbed my bowed head.

"Abi, until when are you like this, trust me your Father and Mother will be very sad and disappointed to see you like this, son, this sadness will not disappear if you continue to shut yourself,,, you know,, there you'll be sick, come out, son, take a shower, eat we all face together"

Elus Bik Umi once again on my shoulder.

Cold my heart.

"Your aunt is right Bi.... Your father wants to see you excited, there he must be proud to see you succeed, not like this, we are all saddened by this loss, but life doesn't stop here,, life must go on, your future is still long Bi. and you must prove it to your parents,, if you will continue to be Abi according to their expectations Abi who will be able to succeed like their dreams"

Uncle Usman's words made me raise my head, looking at him.

Uncle Usman gave me a spirited smile,

uncle Usman's words have a point, I can't keep going like this.. I want to make Dad and Mom proud.

"Come out, son, take a shower first, Bibik has warmed the water to take a bath, take a warm bath so it can be a little soothing, after that breakfast, later in the afternoon there will be a study"

Bik Umi.

I nodded, Bik Umi and Uncle Usman led me out of the room,,

Slightly staggered as I stepped, my head felt dizzy and my body felt extremely limp.

It's been a week, hardly any rice has come into my stomach, and I haven't had a bath in a week.

Bik Umi drove me to the bathroom, while Uncle Usman prepared a large bucket of warm water for me to take a bath.

"Get yourself clean, We wait at the Dining Table"

Say Bik Umi before the bathroom door I close.

Without waiting for long, I immediately drop warm water over my head to wet the entire body, feels warm flowing to the tip of the foot.

Instantly the fresh taste flowed all over my body, feeling delicious and warm.

10 Minutes passed, then,

coming out of the bathroom with a fresher body, walking towards the room at a glance I saw Uncle Usman, Bik Umi, Cia and Bella were waiting for me at the dinner table.

I hurried my way to the room, to change clothes,

in front of the mirror, I looked at my face, my eyes that look smelly with blackened eye bags and pale lips due to days of not sleeping.

"I have to be strong, I can't be like this.. I'm a man can't be a whiny!!"

I said softly, then went out to the dining table.

"Good morning Abiiiiiiiii!!!"

Cia and Bella welcome my arrival.

I didn't answer, just a smile and a small nod, then sat down next to Cia.

"Abi, don't be sad again.We all promise, Abi will never be lonely, there will be us..."

Bella comforted me.

Again I just nodded.

The breakfast was silent, without laughter as usual, there were only a few times Bella's speech was not welcomed making Bella finally choose a serious silence and noiseless.

The study for the deceased and the Almarhumah went well, one by one the guests left the residence of Uncle Usman and Bik Umi.

There are only a few neighbors who still live to help Bik Umi berberes.

I intend to go back into the room.

"Past....!"

Cia's call stopped my steps, though,

I'm turning.

"Abi, I hope you are sad... We miss a cheerful Aerospace Abinata like she used to, who always told me about all her heart, who was always a protector to Cia and Bella"

Cia was embracing me, and so was Bella who was running towards us.

I took a deep breath and tried to smile for my two brothers.

"Abi, said Father... Abi want to, right?"

Ask Bella.

I'm nodding.

By nightfall, by,

Lying on the bed with open eyes glaring deep through the ceiling of the room.

It was still like a dream that I should accept the fact that I now bear the status of an orphan.

I promise, starting tomorrow when Bagun from my sleep later... I need to be stronger, more energetic and more mature..

My eyes felt so heavy, my body was tired and somehow I finally fell asleep.

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