Seabadi Edelwai..

Chapter 105 Tired

Almost there,

"Ehm... Dir, by the way my car how are you?"

I asked for a moment considering the fate of the car that was parked in front of the cafe yesterday.

"Ohh, yes... Oh, my God, how's dong,,? I forgot, haduhh,, "

Dirga patted his eel.

"You can forget about Dir, right,,??"

I asked while continuing to look at his face that was still focused on the road in front of him.

"Well what else, his name is forgotten...."

Relaxed words.

"Yes, we're back!!"

My love.

"Reverse computer?? where you going??"

"Yes to the cafe... Take the car, let me take it home!!"

I nodded with a little annoyed tone.

"Well?? No need, notar tomorrow I can not pick you up again donk!!

Cebik Dirga, made my eyes glare.

"What is the fate of my car??, what are you!! you know, I'm asking the office security to take it!!"

Ocehku to Dirga.

"Are you angry??"

Dirga asked for a moment.

"It's not!! Yaah... I'm not angry, but you should be able to keep your promise, this is your idea!"

I snarled avoiding Dirga's gaze.

"Yes, I'm sorry, I was wrong... "

"Yes, turn around!"

my hardik.

The car suddenly pulled over, though,

"Why step aside and stop anyway??"

I wonder if you are mixed up in annoyance.

"Please.do not have to put back yaaahhh"

Dirga cupped his hands to me.

I just kept quiet, still with a feeling of annoyance.

"Why??"

Jutek.

"Let's go, 'cause I still want to be someone who means something to you, I still want to be someone you can count on, to be someone special, someone you're waiting for, I still want to be,, being someone serves you, even if it's all temporary, but I want to enjoy it"

Dirga touched my cheek with her index elbow, stroked it down to the chin, then her thumb rubbed gently on my lips.

Spontaneous Dirga-friendly treatment made my annoyance suddenly evaporate just like that. Along with the heart that felt shaking violently, my heart also shook, pounding erratically, fluttering erratically, my eyes did not blink looking at the shady eyes that were looking at me full of love.

"I am happy through the days with you, very happy...butiiiii.. you do not jutek-jutek ya...., ugly know!!!"

Dirga pinched my cheek angrily.

Blass!!!

The baper feeling that I just felt suddenly collapsed instantly.

I gulped and blinked, the eyes of which were barely blinking at all.

Ahh... Really I really look wrong.

"Emmm... So, what's the car problem??"

I was throwing away groggies.

"Car problem... ehmmm... Yes yes yes?"

Answer Dirga relax.

"Barin's cigarette? what the hell are you, Dir??"

I folded my hands on my chest with a sullen face.

"Yes, what was thought?? the car is safe in my house!"

Dirga snorting while smiling.

"Emmm... Howoooo!!!"

I hit his shoulder many times.

"I like it, if you're gini... Manjaa!!!"

Ledek Dirga, playing his eyebrows, made Dirga look even more sweet.

"What the hell, huh,,?"

I melengos avoid his naughty gaze that makes me more wrong and groggy.

"That's right.your face is red blushing that way, the more gemesss pengennn.... "

Dirga pointed at my face,,

I patted her shoulder hard enough....

"Come on what??"

"Aaww... Why was he hit by sighh??"

"Belinn!!!"

"Sakiit, sayangg!"

His whine was spoiled with a deathly gaze that made it difficult for me to be disfigured.

"Make it yourself!"

I pinched his shoulder.

"Aww.awww... It was hit, now it's pinched!! that should've....."

"What should???" cut me.

"It should be on elus cake, kissed cake, cuddled!! huh..."

Dirga wastes his breath.

I laughed at her no less adorable behavior.

The car drove back, and stopped not far from my house, deliberately I asked Dirga to stop not fit in front of my house.

I don't want Mama to recognize Dirga's car and be suspicious.

My pamphlets to Dirga.

A moment of silence, Dirga took a breath and threw it away slowly.

"If only, I could take you home not by stealth like now, holding your hand to make sure you're okay and deliver you to the front door, welcomed by both your parents,"

His words sounded full of regret.

I rubbed her shoulders and smiled as Dirga looked at me.

Dirga opened the Seat Belt, then grabbed my hand.

"I love you Vin... If I could change all our stories, I really wouldn't want to go this way"

Hearing that sentence, my heart ached, my eyes warmed.

"Lord, please strengthen me, please strengthen my heart"

My inner.

"I'm home...."

Pamit ulaku to Dirga who seemed to be in the middle of a wound.

Dirga nodded, then let go of my hand which he had previously held and kissed.

"You be careful. get some rest, tomorrow morning... I'm waiting at the front stop, "

My word.

Dirga nodded back.

I got out of the car and stepped out of the car without looking at him again.

Get home, then,

As soon as I opened the door, Mama was waiting in the living room,

I was surprised to see Mama putting on an unfriendly face.

"Good Ma!! surprised Vina.. why haven't you slept??"

I asked and then approached Mama.

"Waiting to wait for you!"

The deg!!

A bad feeling suddenly ambushed my heart.

Unlike usual, Mama spoke to me with a flat face like that.

"Do you know about me and Dirga? Or is Mama suspicious of my attitude?"

The question that is now in my head.

"Waituin Vina? wait, why Ma??"

Tense tofu.

"Here Vin, sit down first"

Invite Mama to pat the sofa next to her.

I clenched my lips, my heart wondered.

"So the Great called!"

Mama said, hearing that I took a slow breath with a big question mark in my heart about what words would come out of my mouth next.

"What did Ma call you?"

Tense tofu.

"Say, hape you can not be contacted from noon, keep Mama try to call you to prove, it was true until tonight even though you are still dead!

Glacier!!

I swallowed spit.

"What the hell are you doing, Vin?? these few days, it's always hard to contact, hape always dies, work always comes home late, what's up??"

I looked down, tried to think and find the best answer to tell Mama about the reason that made sense.

I really don't want to be like this, lying to cover up a lie that's already been created.

But to speak honestly seems very unlikely I do, I don't want Mama to be disappointed.

"Vin, why are you quiet??"

Urge Mama,

"So something's bothering you?? what's the same problem, Grand? you guys are okay, right??"

I lifted my head, took a breath and tried to wet my lips which suddenly felt dry.

"I'm sorry Vina Ma, it makes Mama Worried, and confused.. Vina doesn't have any problems, neither does Vina and Agung's relationship, we're fine"

"Then, what is the matter of the always-dead hape?? if your reason is that the battery runs out, can't it be charged in the office??"

"It was deliberately Vina matiin Ma, because Vina wanted to concentrate on work, finish all Vina's work on leave later and the problem of coming home late, Vina Ma overtime, and,, after that Vina played the same office children, tired Ma"

Hearing my answer, Mama sighed, then touched my shoulder.

"Mama is worried about you, because you're not usually like this, Mama just don't want your relationship to be equally damaged, and the Sunday event will be a mess"

Again I gulped at the words of Mama.

Looking into Mama's eyes looks so big Mama's hope for my relationship and Agung.

I can't imagine if this engagement is off, how many hearts I'm disappointed in.

Mama, Papa, Aunt Ruri, the Great, his brothers the Great.

That means this engagement must happen, can't not..

My relationship with Dirga did not get the blessing of the universe, although the universe always had a way to bring us together, as Alif said, but destiny was in line,,,, and,, that this engagement must happen and my story with Dirga must come to a standstill.

"Yes, get some rest... Have you eaten??"

Taya Mama's.

"Already Ma, Vina entered the room yes Ma..."

I stepped quickly into the room, sebak in my heart can no longer hold. After the bedroom door was closed and tightly locked, I leaned against the door and slowly sat on the floor leaning against the room door. The pain that I had been holding back from before managed to make my tears spill again, the burden on the heart that was increasingly stacked making my chest feel tight and narrowed, and narrowed,

I'm weary....

Trying to be strong and fine in front of Mama, despite having to constantly lie cover all the feelings and circumstances that I hate so much, he said, trying hard in front of Dirga even though I actually almost collapsed with all the flavors that were held back. Trying to be happy in front of Agung even though my heart is depressed constantly pretending to love him.

I squeezed my own hair, while biting my lips dampened the increasingly uncontrollable sound of crying.

I was so tired and so sorry that I ever happened, that I got stuck in a situation like this.

Risking the heart to keep the heart, leaving the feelings to appreciate the feelings.

I was forced to walk the path I had pointed at even though my heart believed that this would lead me astray into a prolonged wound.

If this were a battle, maybe waving a white flag I'd done since the first step.

I hugged both of my knees tightly by burrowing my head between them.

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