Seabadi Edelwai..

Chapter 82 Space?

The day keeps changing, though,

Almost 3 months since the departure of Agung out of the City to take care of his new cafe business loadinging a new branch.

I never felt he was far away, every time Great always reply messages with me just asking what I was, where and how I was, how I was,

Agung also always took the time to call me every morning just to give me the spirit to live the day, and Agung also never absent to make Vidio calls at night before going to bed, which he said just to make sure I'm okay, and also release longs for a day of work as well as a mood booster to undergo activities tomorrow morning.

It feels different indeed with the Great who used to be just a friend.

Now Agung is more attentive and feels very loving to me even though I sometimes still think of Dirga.

I don't understand why up to this second Dirga couldn't really disappear from my heart, though,, Sometimes I think that I love Dirga so dead that the reality is now that He is the husband of a person and the father of a baby.

That is how I until this moment still think of Dirga who may not think of Me at all because he has been happy with his son and wife.

I don't know, I don't understand the contents of my brain and heart that no longer seem sane.

Though clearly, here Agung has desperately given me a sincere heart.

Next week Agung will be back, he said he was very impatient to wait for that day when he called me this morning.

Aunt Ruri and Mama also from last week have been very busy taking care of the needs for the engagement next week which will be held at my house.

Starting from the engagement ring, catering, decor, even family uniforms have all been taken care of by Mama and Aunt Ruri who are so enthusiastic and compact.

This will be a very harmonious portrait of Besan.

While I alone, still fighting against the longing of the past, and learning to make peace with the future.

sometimes sure to want to start a new story and forget the past, but not infrequently these eyes are wet because the heart feels bombarded with longings and memories.

Cantor, dikantor,

Sitting behind a computer screen that was on, I played a pen on my finger with a mind that floated and a view that was actually not on the computer flame in front of me.

Lunch time is soon, but there is no appetite for lunch.

The ringing of the cell phone resuscitated me,

Nina called.

My smile expanded, I quickly pressed the accept button, and,

"Hello Mimi gemoyyyy. kangen yes ma Aunty Vina.hehheh"

my broom as soon as I call.

"The Vin.... I have news, Nich...."

Nina's answer sounded tense and full of seriousness.

"Oh my goodness, that's why my greeting is being interrupted! what's Nin doing??"

"No, forget it...! sorry, I miss you, but this is more important than just kangen-kenan!!"

"Ihh, I'm afraid, what is siiihhhh???"

"Nich, you heard me all right... I found a social media account whose photo looks like Dirga!!!"

The deg!

My heart was beating hearing that name called Nina.

"Hello.... Mr.. haloo!! you still listening?? haloo...duhh, passed out this time yes ni child, halooo Vin!!!!''

Call Nina many times.

"Eh.. yes... Yes Nin, I heard, I was just shocked, you're sure it was Dirga??"

Many doubt.

"It's sure sich not too yes because it's been a long time did not see Him, but try dech you check yourself, that I get from Friendship in social media Dance the old,,"

"Huh?? Dance?? how can??!"

confused and astonished, I can't wait to hear Nina's answer.

"Yes, so gini I was just open-open sosmed, mengeliatin photos of us at High School, trus so inget Dance right, because I miss, so I open the profile.. Well there I saw Dance comment on a photo that ngetag Her Name, and then because I was curious I saw the Account of the owner of the photo, I was shocked,, I was surprised,, the profile of the owner of the photo commented Dance is similar and exactly Dirga, try to see for yourself.. Account Name.. SPACE "

"Force??"

My card,

"Yes, Space... "

"Sorry Nin, what are the photos of Tari?"

"The volleyball team photo is like that"

Again I was surprised because, I remember, the dance told me about the Volleyball team at his house whose members included Dirga, the first time I saw a photo of Dirga on his phone.

"Yes, I want to feed the twins first, baby..."

"OK Nin... I'm matiin ya..."

I put my phone down, though,

With a pounding heart, and a trembling hand I opened my social media Account, typing the name of Angkasa on the search,

Out dozens of names of Space there,

One by one I researched, though,

And my eyes were fixed on an Angkasa name that said to have one friend in common,

I breathe with my heart beating fast.

Immediately I clicked on the name, a photo of Dance emblazoned as one friend in common,

I opened my eyes wide to make sure that it was really Dirga when the profile picture was enlarged.

Yep... I'm not wrong, it's Dirga.

A few minutes looking at the photo, my heart began to ask about why Dance had been keeping Dirga's Account a secret?

I remember when I asked you about this, Tari replied that Dirga wasn't playing sosmed,

What was?? Why would Dance lie to me, when there are and He is friends, even when I scroll down, I know this is not the new Me.. there are posts from years old and I also see comments of Dance there, it clearly means that Dirga and Tari have been friends for a long time, and deliberately lied to me.

There was resentment, anger and indignation in my heart about the dishonest attitude of Dance.

I sighed, then tried to think clearly to cool my heart.

After a moment of thought, I decided to ask for a friendship with Dirga.

After the message is sent,

I closed my eyes while biting my lips, waiting for Dirga's response.

5 Minutes, 10 minutes, up to 15 minutes..

No response and message that my request has been received, many times back and forth I check still sent request.

I lay face down on the table, is it wrong I am God, who is still finding out about Dirga? I just want to know the reason and clarity, if indeed after this we do have to forget each other maybe I will just be really sincere to start a new life with Agung.

"Vin, aren't you out eating??"

Greet one of my office colleagues who will be out for lunch when passing in front of my desk.

"Eh... Um... Later, not yet laper.."

"You sick?"

Ask again.

"Ehm... No, just want to be here first"

"Oh. yeah, yes....."

"okay... "

I'm back on the Space Account, scrolling back post after post.

Not too much, it looks like Dirga is not an active person surfing social media.

However, I was interested in a quote he wrote a few months ago,

**Coffee candy! sweet and bitter, but now there is only bitter taste, after you can no longer ask in prayer,,**

"Copper?? not long ago, when it was still in Junior High, when between me and him there was a misunderstanding, Dirga also had time to give me a coffee candy and a piece of paper with almost the same writing, Dirga also had given me a piece of coffee candy and a piece of paper with the same writing, does that mean the person he refers to in the quote is Me?"

Ahhe... I don't want to guess, I'm continuing my scroll, none of it I've seen with his son and his wife, not even a single photo of a woman there, not a single one,

My heart was pounding more and more, possibility after possibility flashed through my head about Dirga.

But.. wait, I'm back to curious about the coffee candy post earlier,

I went back upstairs, opened the comment field, and jreng!!! my eyes widened when I saw that Dance was in one of the comments there, she wrote,

*dir spirit, forgetting the past is the key to the tranquility of living the future, let Him by his choice, reorganize the heart with a new prayer*

Dirga did not reply, only gave a thumbs up for Dance's reply.

Oh my God, what is this?? what happened, what I don't know, actually,,

As my chest tightened, my head contained all sorts of questions and possibilities that made me even more unable to conclude.

I closed my social media and walked to the cafeteria to drink some juice to cool my heart and head.

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