Seabadi Edelwai..

Chapter 30 Mama is right

There was a claustrophobic, a sense of regret for choosing silence and waiting, cursing myself for a feeling I could not express.

Along the way home, it did not feel these eyes wet, considering all that has passed the last 3 years, there are doubts and big question marks hanging, he said, and I don't know when I can get answers to all the questions.

2 More stops before I reached the stop where I got home, I took out a tissue from the bag, wiped the wet eyes and patted the cheeks that had been flooded with tears.

I still have a piece of Dirga candy.

There are many meanings that I catch from the caption on the candy wrapper, is it possible that Dirga feels the same, loves and longs as I feel? Or just miss being together as a friend and nothing more.

"Ah.. Dirga, is it hard for you to tell the truth about us?"

I slipped and kept the candy back on my shirt.

Trying to sigh at ease, tidying up my appearance before I got off the Bus.

I don't want Mama to see my current situation as messy and very chaotic.

"Oh. my God, I'm still not mature enough to taste her sweet sour feeling of love, this is just a taste of like and I'm sure, this will soon pass fine"

I murmured in my heart.

The stop is in sight, I'm getting ready to get off.

Stepping gontai and slowly, I was like losing my spirit, considering the days ahead I would no longer see Dirga in my new school.

"Assynoltom..."

I said as soon as I entered the door.

My return was welcomed by Mama and Papa who turned out to be home.

"Lohs... Pa, how come you're home?"

"Yes donk... special, today Papa came home quickly, because Papa's favorite daughter graduated with the best grades, want what gift??"

Ask Papa enthusiastically.

"Ehm... What yeah?? later on Pa, don't think about what, can you?"

"Ohh yes of course... What is it that doesn't make you dear"

"Yes, you took a shower, in the afternoon.. "

Excited Mama who returned to sit with Papa in front of the television.

I nodded and rushed into the room.

But it turns out that a mother's feelings are very sensitive, I was jolted so out of the bathroom saw Mama sitting on the edge of the bed waiting for me.

"Ma... Why is Mama here?"

I wonder at being confused.

Mama smiled knotfully,

"You get changed, baby, Mama wants to talk"

Glacier!!!

I gulped, for a moment I thought about what Mama was going to talk about, it seemed like something important.

"Do you know that I was alone with Dirga?"

I guessed in my heart.

"What do you want to talk to?"

I asked slowly and very carefully.

"Darling... You healthy?"

Ask Mama.

I who do not understand just nod.

"Mama notice, when you came home earlier your face was moody, your eyes were also a bit puffy, you have a problem?"

Mama rubbed my shoulder.

I'm down, I'm down,

"No Ma, Vina is fine, just tired"

"Vin, don't lie... Mama knows you, what's the matter, the story, consider Mama your friend, not papa really"

Mama looks at me clingy.

I smiled bitterly, between happiness and shame if I had to be honest.

"Honey, Mama understands very well, at your age there will be a lot of problems faced, and you know Nak. You must have a place to pour out what is your burden, and you will have a place, and Mama's ready to be the most comfortable place for you to tell stories"

Mama stroked my head, and quickly without warning I hugged Mama's body.

"Vina was just sad Ma, had to separate from Vina's friend, never to meet again, not together again, not to mention.."

I heard Mama breathing.

"Who Son? Nina??"

Ask Mama.

I'm silent not answering.

"Ehm... Boy friend huh?"

Ask Mama again.

I looked down, my face was warm, maybe Mama saw it go pink.

"Vin, gini. dengerin Mama, your journey is still long, at the age now there will be a lot of friends who come and go, never regretted, you remember, when you graduated Elementary School, you know, you also lose close friends because you have to be different from them in school, but what happens in Junior High, you get new friends who are also no less good, while your SD friends are still friends forever.. Aye right?

Likewise, in High School, you also must find new friends, new people, new teachers, new environments, never fear and worry, dear"

Mama's explanation does make sense, I believe, as time goes on... Dirga and I must also forget each other, especially later in High School, Dirga met a friend of the Girl who is much prettier for sure she will also lupain Me, as well as Me.

Mama's right, what I need to worry about, will all pass and be fine.

I took off Mama's embrace.

"Yes Ma.. Vina understands. thanks Ma..."

My answer is to wipe away the tears.

"Yes, don't be sad anymore, let's eat."

I nodded, though,

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