Monster Labile

Disarray

Huh..

Everything's so fucked up.

Drowning in the darkness, I threw everything away. Nothing to expect from them all. I became a loner.

When we are injured, we will find a place to heal the wounds. So it is for me. I remember anyone I could call. But a little and doubtful. I can only send messages in a bad mood.

Little friends were the choice of my decision to deal with the labile impact. Choosing the best choice of course I must be able to survive the decision so as not to be unstable anymore, so as not to easily change my mind.

Now who can help?

Who else if not the Supreme Creator.

At first I realized that this ordeal was just a play to get better. But emotions are so hard to control when close to them. My body trembled from the mental attack while emotions wanted to keep me away from them. Ignoring. Being someone who doesn't care.

The mind went awry comparing the good and the bad choices I was about to make. So dizzy.

Why do they always blame me? Is it true that the path I chose was wrong?

I also want to blame their mistakes and demand the way they do.

This step is wrong too.

My body can't do good anymore even though my heart refuses to do it. I knew if I broke off the relationship again it would only add to the sin.

Whose fault? They asked me to stay away through the actions they had done.

Unconscious?

I realize the situation. I could see the whole scheme of events that happened and the possibilities that would come with reading their personalities then taking a step. Only for a solution to maintain the choice and make peace. Unfortunately, the only way to make peace is to build a relationship with them. How to express the contents of the heart and then be reviled, then become despicable by following their advice. And finally fell again by mistake.

Of peace? Ahaha.no. The end will remain the same.

After last week and so on I was cold to them except for my sister. The food they usually bring to people in this house I do not eat. I don't want to get energy from people who hate me. My brother knew a little about my expression when he was angry so he kept his distance. Imel, my sister's wife, was affected as well. Not out of hate but I want him not to get involved with our problems. Imel was not wrong, he had ethics, at the time of the commotion he was just silent.

This is the last lesson of family-related experience.

I want them to apologize to me themselves.

Until that happens I will continue to act far away from anything they have ever known.

Before that worst week happened my grandmother wanted to ignore the previous family. At first I was happy to help and to suggest many things. But the wrong move made me have to act cold. About a word or two I can say like "yes" and "don't know". If you ask for advice, I'll say whatever. Referring to the meaning that I no longer care is not my right to interfere anymore.

If she wasn't my grandmother from a long time ago, I would have stayed away.

This is a response to action. I wasn't expecting it either. The heart feels pain doing rough but on the other hand the heart also hurts with their treatment. Intercede for the desire of the heart. I don't want to get rid of the heart feeling completely. I still leave a little feeling because I do not want to be abandoned by the Creator Almighty through heartless actions. I can still think. I have sense.

Adversity.

I stayed indifferent for a while until there was really no way.

Soon I wanted a reply until my heart could shake my grandmother's attitude. Back to being yourself again. But only for my grandmother. Those who are left cannot.

The next week they came. The day before the afternoon they came I already had a feeling that they would come. My body was cold and a little trembling. Was it trauma? I laugh at myself.

I want to run away, but my clothesline has not been neatened. Well how else. I rest for a while. After the Ashar prayer, then I tidied the clothesline.

They came too.

Greetings I did not reply.

They passed by and praised me for tidying up my clothes.

Camel warts..

The last lesson of the compliment from such people is just a trick. If you repay them, they will be even more disgusted with you. Being ignored is getting more wrong. So the answer is let us ignore, because they will never be content to mock. Think that God is closer to us, more understanding, more forgiving and more compassionate. Do not hesitate to rely on God Who created this universe. That way you will be someone who will never fear His Creation.

New characters are formed again from the original character mix and Beater. Beater is dominant.

Beasters

Orange color.

The ferocious facial expression. Aura pressing. Physical increases are balanced with speed.

The fearless savage character had finished, completing his refinement.

But I still remember a lot of life messages and lessons from teachers that I can't be arrogant. Fearless I intend to defeat mental attacks. It's a little hard anyway😑 sometimes I step like vibrating around, widening the pressure.

Each character also has its own characteristics as well as how to move the legs. I use Zheill's way more often because it's quieter.

Uhh.. at this time it feels very difficult to calm down😑 I am on fire! Burning spirit of determination felt stronger. Ahh that's arrogant too.