Monster Labile

Choices

*ghenh

This week I sleep less, pile up every day and I need to pay for it. If I don't know what will happen to me but there are still many activities that I have to do. Considering my body is low stamina below the standard of homework that a little bit already makes me tired. My sleeping hours are not like most people.

At 9pm I had to sleep. At 4 am I woke up. The morning cannot go to sleep until the time of Dhuha is over. If not busy I can get 2 hours of sleep after Dhuha time, Alaram is ready not to miss his sleep. If I go to sleep during prayer or there is a busy activity that interferes, I will not forgive myself. In prayer time I can no longer be disturbed. The afternoon after Dzuhur the opportunity to sleep a little. At my place during the day it was very hot, making sweaty and not good for prayer. Change clothes continue to make a hassle, if the bath is affected by a panuan disease and save water. Can't sleep if there's a lot of open air. The light also cannot sleep. The teacher said, sleeping in the afternoon makes us senile. He also could not sleep before the prayer time is over. You sleep between hours maghrib-isya. find out for yourself, the photo is bad habits.

Not to mention religious activities outside the house that can take my sleep.

I do not mind, because I live to worship, will I have the identity of the self if I get out of the purpose of cave life means kego*lokan me back again. I'll feel so despicable. I don't want that.

Weary..

I have to strengthen myself.

Tonight I made an appointment with Yahya to play Dota 2 together. It's been a long time since the day before so I have to keep it. If I knew I'd be busy, I wouldn't make a deal.

Hmm sometimes it is the choice of heart and lust that is difficult to distinguish. Both of course greatly affect our lives in response to a problem.

According to KBbi, lust is a strong taste, passion and desire. In my version to make it clear is a strong desire of self without thinking about the cause and effect of what will happen to him afterwards (according to the desire).

Sound negative? obviously, lust always leads to negativity. A desire that was too strong made his mind insane. A person who is always subject to his lust tends to have liver disease, doubts can be felt in him because of the guilt of the actions he has done.

In contrast to the choice of the heart that comes from the feeling of self by taking into account the causes and conditions that affect it. The choice of the heart is more concerned with the final result. The difference with lust, the choice of the heart is the mind of our intellect.

What is called the choice of heart? Good question Pis..

Why is it called the choice of heart? because the choice of the heart is part of the desire of self (lust).

Correction in lust is small or strong desire is the same. So consider passion or our intellect one of them will fall with a different meaning. And make it clear who we are. Whether they are intelligent people or not.

Sounds very rude. But that's it.

The end of our choices will always affect the outcome. So count our actions well by knowing ourselves.

Earlier..

Maybe I've forgotten something important that made me misstep. Eh? do you think that I who understand enough about human personality is always right in acting? of course not because the problem will always be above our ability but can still be affordable. It's just with a strong effort. If it can not be resolved now maybe later, later and later at the right time when our hearts are open to receive every lesson.

Now what I have to do even though I have missteps gives my best ability. I told you long ago that the Dota 2 game was very good for self-introduction. But of course I understand not everyone can play this game so only devoted to players who can be. The better he is at playing Dota 2 the more he looks at the best way he responds to a problem.

In Dota 2 there is a rank level for each player who has completed his Ranked Match.

10 games by yourself(solo)

10 Games with friends(team)

If one of them solo or team play has completed the test 10 times his best performance in his first Ranked Match will be out of Ranked Match points. Solo has its own points as well as team points. Well that point determines our ability what is great or not haha. So just want to play, the rank points are decisive so that we get a matching opponent later. I talk too much about the game. That's a happy reaction because I always want to play my best game, with all my strength and ability.

Okeh!!!

3 Hours later..

*glekkk

This is what irritates other players who are one team less strong. Huehh. Mending went home.

My head hurts so much. This is how the pain forced itself against sleepiness. Great experience, inspired me to improve my survival skills. Surely I don't want to do it again. I had to today.

Go home at 12. Sleeps. Wake up at 4. Prayer. Bathing. Go pray. To market. Prayer sunnah. Short sleep. At 11:30 Alaram sounded. Then wake.

Ah my body has a fever. Have you reached the limit? ugh.. If I don't pray Friday because I'm sick? what can?

Zheill: oiy oiy wrong who got sick

Seriously, my body doesn't feel good. Cold air let alone bath water in an ice-covered cave house. But..

ughh. okay, we use what's there. Last Breath!

Immediately I took a shower against the cold that bit the nerves of the body. Tiredness and nausea begin to feel.

Force.. again..

"i'm going with the bells again sick"

I also went to the mosque.

When I got there I could rest by leaning my body on the pole of the mosque. The backbone felt heavy so I leaned back. The wind blows through the skin of the body. Chilly. Makes me nauseous. Just in case before leaving, I had time to keep a plastic bag in my pocket.

Don't think about vomiting. Ahh. immune my body seems to run out. Defenseless. Maybe I'll get sick later.

And true. I'm ill.

This time it feels different. Medium level pain. If the usual pain mah 1 day can recover but this time is quite long. I tried my hardest to use Last Breath's ability but still couldn't. My body is asking for a refund for the use of Beater's powers. My head hurts. Cold hot body temperature. All day can lie down. Recovering what I have broken.

ughhhh..

Hmm am I going to die? when man is sick the first shadow he knows is death. If I die, I will not go to heaven and remember the many sins I have committed with people. Though I tried my best but their response always wanted to destroy me.

The more I imagined it the more I wanted to be called. All I know when it comes to dealing with people is TROUBLESome. Emotions are made so missteps. Yes yes mending glare from added sin again. I want to go back to what it is even though I redeem sin by being tortured. Yes, I am sure of my choice. I also pray to be called quickly. The rest I leave.

On the second day at midnight I went to the toilet to pee. Suddenly my vision was blurry. I had a panic.

"Don't pass out on the wc" I said inwardly. Finish peeing. I quickly walked towards the room with almost lost consciousness. Arriving at my room, I immediately fell. Wahh almost. If I passed out on the toilet earlier my body is not strong to withstand the cold and could be exposed to other diseases. Entar added fuss.

How could I have almost fainted? just woke up. Could it be because the blood circulation that suddenly changes as a result of oxygen distribution in the brain is disrupted.what is it that must have something to do with the body less fit and wake up immediately slackened to wc. Who said it? ahh I just used my instinct to understand the situation.

There are no signs my condition will improve. Clenching my fist was difficult, my energy was still a quarter of normal.

Huh.. In a weak situation like this. I can't do much. If there was a big problem coming over to me while I was useless, maybe I would be even more sorry.

Small carelessness that is considered trivial may have a greater impact if it is continuously done.