Monster Labile

Hapis and Pride

Everyone has been praised for doing extraordinary things. It feels that after being praised it is very ordinary, sometimes we can express it excessively. Wanna explode!! maybe that's how it feels. Living and walking with a pride is what I used to experience.

My old friends still call me Hapis when my first name Hafidz is not Hapis. Being used to being called a Hapis feels awkward when someone calls my name correctly.

Does Hafidz mean to memorize the Quran? yep I feel guilty with my own name which is the opposite of his behavior. So if anyone calls me the better hapis, yahh is kind of light.

Not really, even I like my own name especially in the "Rach" section.

I think the meaning of my last name is not towards Ramadan but towards property or economy. Rach is neither Rich(rich) nor poor and "Fund" is a treasure I have. The connection between the two "ma" I don't know. But my instincts tell me the whole meaning of my last name is simplicity and balance. From my name alone is unique especially the person. But yes of course I understand that in this world I am not only unique. Everyone has into their own union. What I want to mean is every story I write based on the feelings of the moment that I experienced. I was arrogant, angry, happy, cheerful.then these experiences I took when I was in the character of my Hapis.

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I am very childish and often buy toys. My pocket money always runs out after I spend it on toys and when I get home after school I'm starving. Toys like magic that tease me let alone miniature toys robot Gundam with all kinds of weapons. At home I always play it according to my imagination, which guys must understand what I mean. My mom and my grandmother said I was dancing (skin puppet). Not only playing robot-robot game unloading pairs I also play. Unmitigated I made a castle for my cats. Puzzle toys obtained from baby milk gifts are not too much so if I want to make another shape must be dismantled. The clothespin I also made a robot shape. I neatly arranged all the toys like the city and the rest of the living room. Who made sprains when my cat came to play. It's like it's on the river. Ruin' scenery!. I had to rearrange again.

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The first experience I learned to read other people's intentions was while playing alone, while my other friend was engrossed in joking. I don't know if I'm straight away I think that my friend Ardi who is sitting near the others is talking about me, whispering to the next friend and looking at me. Not talking about a good thing that's what I catch from seeing it. I don't know what got into me, not if there was a mistake we have to apologize. I got up and went to him to apologize. But he said "apologize about what?" nanda is like making fun. It's not good why I acted like that. I casually returned to my place and played again. Then I forget what happened. I know that's why I don't keep arguing. I'm not good at tongue-licking because I'm a shy person.

My mom bought a neighbor's bike for me

at a low price. I've wanted to have a bike for a long time and finally make it. Why happy I am. Even though I was still happy, I immediately used it to go to school. I am shy but if I am with friends I can release cheerful and maybe some will think of me as a bully.

I went to school with friends who were racing each other. I don't really remember who I came home to but the one person I remember most is the Judge. Half way back home, after coming down the bridge suddenly my brakes jammed making me fall by the side of the road. I feel like there's liquid coming out on my lips and it hurts.

Uh bleed..

I only saw the figure of the Judge accompanying me, the others had already disappeared from my sight. Actually I want to cry but not because there are still people who care about me. I'm sending the judge first. Strangely I was not angry with them when they left me, too soon I forgot.

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My new life began to feel when I went to school at SMP Negeri 1 Tanjung. I have a lot of new friends. My mother was worried about me, I couldn't sleep all night thinking about whether I would be accepted into this school. I convinced my mother that the registration exam was easy. I got 80 marks on the written exam. Yey I graduated while just carelessly join the list at this school😅.

At first I left school after no more Nadia followed me I enjoyed it until I met my cousin, Irfan, different a year from me at the same school. It became a habit of every leaving they waited for me. Ah the troops increased starting from Irfan, Ilham his friend, Sharif departing from me and also Ramlan. If Ramlan rarely went with us. We became very familiar and definitely went and went to school together.

In a friendship relationship must have been a delay in expressing themselves. Once Irfan made fun of me, I don't remember what he said but it must have been very cruel and my heart was very hurt. You know I'm mental tempe. He doesn't usually say that. Humiliating or mocking with harsh language and spoken directly is a sign of dislike, right? if someone doesn't like it, the best option is to stay away? that's what I understand and do.

I saw them waiting for me from behind the glass window. Wait until they get tired of waiting. If the iron is not with them I immediately cus aja, only he should be avoided. The clock shows the number 7 in a few minutes.

Why is it still waiting for me?😡

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You know what I don't like about Friday? the eskul clock. I joined Eskul English Day for following Bayu. I am still a shy creature. Though there is the intention of wanting to join eskul silat, seeing them kick to and fro and other unique movements make me captivated. Wanted anyway. I was too shy and afraid to be alone. So yeah this is how it became. I once wanted to get out of eskul ED but I was terrified when I faced the guidance teacher. Serem auranya. I'm afraid to talk. Alaram danger from instinct makes rowdy. Uahh. I had to live it.

I heard that Bayu is dating Citra, the child of acceleration. Never accidentally saw the contents of his hp message Bayu. It's true they're dating. Acceleration class is always used for eskul ED. So is it because this Bayu follow-ah ngibul you pis, do not think the non-existent.

Every time you enter the class the acceleration of the aura is so heavy😫. i-this is the throne of the best students in this school. Arrgghhh I asphyxiate😨. Especially if eskul is here. To be honest, nothing has changed from SD until now. I was always depressed by my weakness.

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Uah hurry!!

Almost all of the classmates were amazed at my running speed. I felt that my body was very light while running earlier and also the wind felt split so. Waw. This incident is similar to when we went to the forest first. Accidentally met a crazy person carrying a racket and strange items that he carried in a sack. Responding to the weirdness of my body instantly moved itself as fast as lightning take a thousand steps. Less than 3 seconds was halfway through and stopped when I heard someone call me. Oh my sustenance forgetfulness.

"quickly pis" gasped

"heh time?" casual tone

I always casually respond to compliments from people. Feeling bad then I look for other topics to divert the conversation about myself, for example praising him who had praised me so that not only I was the center of attention. This is my skill that has been programmed since birth. Unchangeable.

I also have a sincere smile. Another class once said that my smile was funny but I doubt if it was true, I ran to class and looked at it. He said honestly I could feel his calm aura.

Rezeki or my cousin's sister also asked for a picture of me who again smiled to show it to a girl friend in her class. It is crazy to go home from school 5 incoming messages from different numbers and the contents are the same as want to ask for acquaintances. Uahh I also replied to one of them.

Many things have been experienced..

The wheel of life slowly rotated..

Trouble started coming. Soon up to 2nd grade High School. I have a good friend in class called Dayat. He's my first boy friend I've told you about in the episode A Question. With him I can be the real me, Hapis. I feel she's the most likely to be my venting place. I asked her opinion on how to deal with a fractured family relationship. The answer is I don't remember much but my heart remembers how it feels. I'm sure I can deal with it, trouble to come.

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Then I met them both..

Zheill who was slumped in the corner of the room and Beater who was regretting his weakness.

Oi..