Monster Labile

Disrupters

I don't really understand family genealogy and what it's called. Moreover, using the native language of the region he added I do not understand. I also often ignore people, easily forget, need dozens of meetings so I can remember the person. My basic nature if I want to establish a relationship requires a long process of observation and recognition. Determine if he'll be good for me or not. If it's fixed its ugly nature I will slowly stay away. Old or young are unforgiving. If a family member? just the same, my Ushu I just dumped, even other families to come back to attack me. Why do you act like that? I did not act recklessly.

My family is dead, Irfan's grandmother. The week before, my grandmother and I had visited her when she was sick. Seeing his condition skinny and old everyone knew that his age would not be long. Surprisingly I felt nothing. My feelings are calm and deep. This is not Zheill's ability but Beater's ability. Back in the episode of Wisdom I tried to control my emotions when I saw my apprentice friend was seriously ill. Sad feeling wanted me to overflow but when my friend asked

"why is your face like that fidz?"

I easily interpreted the question if I should not make a sad expression in front of him because right now I should make him comfortable with my presence. Forced in the depths of my heart to feel sad, I dimmed with other emotions. Being unmoved. The dead feeling.

I don't know. Had I been ill and my friends or neighbors come to visit, what expression would I expect from them? pity? oh yes when I was sick the family even suspected me so this problem is very sensitive for me.

My hopes and the expectations of others..

My actions and the actions of others against me..

It was as if I was looking at the vast abyss splitting between me and everyone else. The absolute difference of views and experiences in processing information.

Who is more important?

Of course the person I'm dealing with. So I'm trying to make what he expects my way? with a dead feeling? to control emotions? that's supposed. Fortunately, when my emotions are dead, my action-taking will be more efficient, and the defense radar will not be compromised. The typical way of a Beater's personality is..

hurt himself.

I helped with the funeral except for the grave. The first time I picked up a body. With Irfan and Saleh. Somehow even we have to take care of the body instead of me objecting it's just that the other neighbors are questionable existence. Is it because of fear? and the other problem is that the mother who can take care of the corpse, no matter what her name is just one person. What if in the future no one can take care of the body? ahh I have to study too.

After bathing. Disfranchised. The rest stay buried after Dzuhur later. About 30 minutes. I asked my grandmother to come home later. My grandmother accepted my request. I went to the yard to sit down and eat cake. Not strong to see the cake. Nyam.

Long story short after fardhu kifayah prayer I was late to the funeral because I went to the mosque just walk. When I arrived, seeing that there were already many people gathered around, I sped up my pace. Join and watch the funeral. Long standing and feeling something awkward. I tried to investigate by getting closer to the tomb. Apparently the body box doesn't fit with the grave. My grandfather was also made in a large wooden box because his tomb was watery. Grave excavator trying to spread the burrow. But why only the top doang the result remains the same.

*whispers two people near me

One of them said it was the punishment of the grave. The grave narrows the style he said, when viewed from the appearance of belonging to the pious, beard as well but why immediately draw the conclusion that this is seen is the doom of the grave. Sir your thoughts are too negative. That's why I hate this village. My mother used to be accused by one of the villagers here. The faint aura I felt from each person was the same. Then I have to pretend to make up with this guy, is that it? Who remembers me? her son from my mother? maybe I can get to know someone who hates my mom by seeing her reaction.

Ahh put that aside. I'd better clear my mind to the problems in front of this so as not to misunderstand. Religion teaches us not to think negatively.

According to my observation this was a communication error and a lack of experience for the grave digger. The first pass came I saw the length of the tomb size was not too wide compared to its side. Maybe the grave digger thought the head and toe did not need to take up much space, meaning just a few inches of empty space between the wall and each end of the body. So that the length of the tomb does not correspond to the addition of the mortuary room. A little longer the length of his grave was dug. But even just over it doang at the bottom is still not. What surprised me more was that the body boxes were forced into the weight of some of the people who were riding them. Still can not, even aggravate, the box stuck in the middle into the tomb. If the gini will be very difficult to raise it again. And the worse the digger resigned already. Geez I don't have any information on whether the body should be buried like that. Can use the corpse buried with the inside so as to cover the smell of decay in the corpse. If not in a bad smell will be smelled. It was trampled earlier. Uhh dizzy ah.

The funeral is over. I'm so exhausted. For a moment I rested in my vehicle, btw his grandmother Irfan buried near Irfan's house so there is my vehicle here.

"uy" someone called me from behind

I looked up and asked in my heart who was he?

"this is what you do when you're unemployed?" he means he likes to dream.

"get the job there!" rather tall

Well come again trouble.

"or not BLK?"

"no" hold emotions

"on Kupang street, you know what?"

"no" trying to ignore

Until finally people left me.

Who the hell? make emotions just fit again tired gini anyway. You know what the cave is doing. Looks like I'm not unemployed not looking for money but I-ah dizzy ah. I screamed in my heart. If the cave has been able to work, it will be better than you. Keep what you expect from the cave after I get a job. Hedehhh patiently..

Such a face and his reaction forced the will of others according to his way.One look, I immediately knew what his heart wanted. Why is it so clearly visible? many times I have seen people like him, many times. Family, relatives, neighbors, friends, people on the streets.

Excessive reactions, the way he looks at others, a troubled heart. All those flaws say he wants to be saved..

Too bad..

Ignorance of his own identity, strengths, weaknesses and expectations make him too attached to the circle of instincts and his screaming heart is an act of protest against him. As a result, everything he does without realizing it wants something or things that he thinks can make him calm. With cara?

Looking for fun here and there..

Judge people..

Seeking lovers..

Expose feelings excessively..

Talk about someone else..

All he did was go around repeating the same thing. Until finally a big problem came slapping hard on his cheek. The determining test is whether he chooses to be good or to become worse. Similar to what I have experienced so far, and that is the answer why I can immediately understand what problems are being faced. It won't be that easy to finish. Even with the ability of charisma, the hapis will remain the same. His charisma is only a small aid to thrill the rest of the self-dependent. Introspection reaches its roots.

Btw cave males nolongin her reaction aja so :v

Hapis and Zheill: That's the lack of it!