Monster Labile

Expressing Doubt

I have focused on resolving my doubts about the meaning of love that I have been looking for. It doesn't take a lot of experience to complete, the most important thing is that I just need to be aware of it. Enough relief. So now I can focus on looking for doubt and everything else. You know I'm a volatile monster who has a problem with his personality. Sometimes I can be angry for no apparent reason, sometimes I can be sad over and other bad habits. There must be a cause or I've realized it. This will make it clear who I am.

Okay it's time. Let's jump..

Intentional or plain? I was angry with my sister who was heating her clutch vehicle. My house with the neighbors very close, between the two vehicles my brother live let out a noise and polosi from burning fuel. I was angry at my sister's actions that disturbed the neighbors. I said that dong matiin to my kaka and made him angry. Huh huh? why are you mad at me? I don't understand why I scolded her. He's always been a fool around him, I'm not looking down on him, I just want him to understand. Had my leg warmed up his vehicle in the yard and his exhaust hole into the road, there would have been no reason for me to get angry.

Another fact that my brother's vehicle just bought a few days ago. Just make me dizzy, why am I the only one thinking about this?

Why do I always doubt? is this a way to survive?

Every time I was offered a job by my family and others I became worried. From the past it has often been family or other people offer a job but I refused it because of doubt.

The uncertainty that always haunts me.

Reminds me of the old pretentious apprenticeship experience! once you want to fix everything, the end even worsens the situation. Want to be a hero, huh? what nonsense am I thinking. I always make everything runyam. I will only work when I am ready. It sounds like I'm doubting the future

Aye!

That's how I look at it. Dealing with something I don't know will only make me doubt it.

Doubt is a form of fear.

Thinking about how I work, thinking about my attitude, thinking about how I work with others, it's all about how I respond to problems.

I don't want to disappoint others.

That's cause?

I filled out my grandfather's alm biodata form which my grandmother would serve. I clearly remember all of what happened. I wrote my grandfather's name after I showed him to make sure everything. My grandmother said it was true that there was nothing wrong but when the report appeared after being presented my mother said that her name was wrong. Ahaha! this is what I hated most when I was always blamed by my family.

I could feel their aura being very disturbing.

The lesson I can take is

"stop wishing for me and stop building a relationship with me"

Whoever he is..

I became a closed person. All I can do is avoid questions or pitfalls that will reveal who I am. I hate people who try to dig up information about me. The average of their goals that I always catch must be their gossip material. That's very disturbing.

I hate them.

I want to live comfortably.

I have my own way.

Am I wrong?

All the problems just center on the "relationship" of everyone and myself. All problems start with us. All problems start with our mistakes. Mistakes in taking action.

If all of this is true, I doubt it because it will be bothered by problems.

I am always serious about thinking. Can't be careless. I am afraid of the problems that will happen to me, I always complain. Irreverence of heart in accepting trials.

I can't stay focused forever. Some of the problems I faced and went through were unresolved due to a lack of time for me to think. I was too far away thinking was also the cause of the doubt in me. I have to simplify my mind. Throw away the unimportant points.