Monster Labile

Always Me

If and if.

Too much dreaming is also useless. Though I know the most about the test of life but when the problem comes I am blinded by emotions. How to think clearly if the wrong is them. No family members are just as intrusive. I wish I had my own home, my own life away from the crowds.

Maybe this is my goal haha!!

Emmm. I did it again..

It's hard to get out of this big deal. I know how to get out, I know how to win and change people but my body can't do what I'm supposed to do.

Conditions like this.

My sister, I just need to teach her a lot of things.

My grandmother, I can use my charisma to remind her to be more active in worship.

I could've gotten a job if I wanted a little effort to get out of the house.

I could be a rich man if I wanted to work.

I can forgive the person I hate the most if I'm sincere.

Beater: can't

Carpet: -___-;

Other families, I just need to be brave enough to accept their opinions and tell them what I'm going through.

All the problems I can solve, I just need a few steps. Religion has provided a way to solve problems well and perfectly. Unfortunately I couldn't move on to what I was supposed to do. The genie in my body I fixed, he could already whisper me to do a good thing, but still it was difficult. What is less than me?

You have a lot of eyy sins

*ww

I think it's true too.

The number of sins makes it difficult for my body to do good.

Revenge, pride, like to look for faults others, lazy, feel the highest, feel the most able to do everything. There are many diseases of my heart. And I also know how to wash away those sins. Again, my body is still hard to move.

But why should it always be me? Why should I do everything?

It was as if I was the only one who became the main character!!!!

Beater and Zheill: idih..

Grpr.. Inconveniencing.

Huhhhh..

If it continues like this, I'm always the best. Eh? Ahh again I did it, liver disease, feeling the most intense.

The stupid reason being the last

                               

Who feels at home when there is someone who always wants to impose his will on you. Through small gestures that look like loud innuendo. That's what my mother and other family did except for Yudhi.

I am very sensitive and can read the way other people think. For me to read the minds of the closest people like counting 1+99 is very easy. But I've learned not to think negatively about them. I trained often. Yet strangely the reply of my actions against them will never resuscitate the hardness of the wall of the heart. I also avoid them every time they come. If I've been exposed to black-lists I have to stay away from those who are affected. If not. My ears will feel pain every time they speak. Word by word that entered my ears instantly described their nature. It just flashed in the shadow of the mind. It hurt so much when I tried to pull it off.

Staying away is the best course of action.

Why do I help them. They don't like me either. Their actions were merely a sense of impingement to calm the heart. Not me. They don't know anything about me. I know more about them than anyone else. How ironic. Do I accept their opinion? who knows nothing of my shortcomings? act most understanding to bring me down as an experiment.

Is there still another way?

there's. but..

I have to give in to accepting their opinions. To fall again?

Why should I always give up? Wh why?

When I was sick. I know what my body wants most to heal. I rarely take medication. When sick I more often need food or drinks that can please the body. As an encouragement. Well, because the pain of our tongue is numb.

Which girlfriend is the girlfriend as the encouragement?  

lol dating sin eyy

*savage

The problem is fitting pain I must have trouble buying groceries. Just stand staggering. I asked my sister to buy it. But it's not as easy as I thought. He refused my request. Even angry at me.

Wh why? does he not understand my situation?

it hurts so much, I gave him what he wanted. If she's sick, I'll help her. My kaka too. What I do is never priceless? stupidly, I was too empathetic with them. Can you try a little better than me??

Usuhu me and the other family.

They should understand what is often experienced by young people. Personality labile. They should have been trying to persuade me to come to my senses. But why am I the one being bullied. I turned around chasing them bit by bit trying to greet them. But I was ignored. Should've. emm..

My grandmother.

Why enlarge the house? unfortunately the money is in waqf. If grandma dies I won't be able to take care of this house, my energy is not as strong as other people. My mom will not go home either. And I'll definitely leave the house.

I tried to explain the results of my efforts on religion. Practices of worship that might boast of me as his grandson. Then I tried to connect about special work so that my worship practices could not be separated. But my grandmother focused on work.

Didn't grandma hear my heart? I rarely get to talk directly to others. My expectations that I should have wanted were ignored.

I immediately left my nene.

It hurts, it always hurts.

Grandma.. Do I have to be rich to throw all the money in your face? that's not what you want from me. I don't need it for now either.

What the hell are you guys thinking? the money? the department? self-worth? arrogance to silence neighbors?

Why do I always have to do all that?

My mother gave me freedom.

I'm not afraid of falling I have my God. I ask Him for what I want, He is the Rich, the All-Powerful, the All-Powerful of the earth and the heavens.

But if I ask for something just to commit a sin where it might be fulfilled. Piqued.

I'm upset. I'm heartbroken. I always wanted to be alone. Stay away from you. I'm sick of seeing you guys.

I know. Life is just a stage play. Each plays his own role. So did I. This pain, this disappointment, this humiliation, everything I received was just fake. And other flavors too. God only judges our actions in response to a trial. Whether or not it is good depends on our struggle.

Ever see someone so happy after doing an action that is for him extraordinary but in our eyes, our point of view, the action is just ordinary. Is it because we've done it or just want to underestimate that we're so much better? No matter how many times we try to realize that the important point of a problem like this is not to focus on the results of his actions but on his efforts.

Once you realize it, you will smile sincerely like me.

Then should I just throw away all these weaknesses. Hoho is not that easy ferguso there will still be struggles and new tests waiting.