Monster Labile

Hati

Persistence

I'm finally coming too.

There is no way to escape anymore.

-__- labile..

Me, my brother, my sister's wife, my sister, a family of 2 and 2 outsiders. My family used to live near my father's house. Laxative call for my grandmother's sister and her son Adi kaka.

Kaka Adi is driving.

*Uhh

I guess I'm not ready to be asked a lot of questions about my situation right now.

*hoekkkk

Not 5 minutes I've been nauseous. Thank goodness I bought antimo!

"haha hafidz drunk vehicle huh" lulakku

"hhaha" kaka Adi chuckled

"hafidz is like his mother who was drunk with a vehicle" my brother added.

*I gulped the antimony

This is the first time I have ever taken antimo.

Seriously? if not wrong, haha..

After a few minutes there was a reaction in my stomach. Kinda warm. Could it? poisoning because I finished praying earlier I drank coffee?! uhhh..

A few hours drive Imel or my sister's wife wants to pee. I'd rather call Imel than you because he's still young under me. Yes I like it, I was reprimanded by my mother if I had to call her kaka. Imel doesn't mind if I call him that.

We stopped at the mosque.

"wait a minute I'll come down too" I said

"oh yes, hafidz wants to pray for a while" my brother remembered what I said before leaving if I wanted to pray Dhuha for a while.

Kaah! asemm should not be made clear because there are other reasons to get out of the car.

"worship what?" said temen my brother

-___-;

"sunnah Dhuha" kaka reply

My heart immediately raged because it was whispered by a demon.

*cie overproud

*cie cie alim's son

grrr.. if the devil looks like it has been a tabok cave from the past..

Straighten intentions. Straighten intentions. Straighten it. and ignore it..

All I do is ordinary, not great.

After the other sunnah prayers at the meal, uhh. I even spit-cepet earlier prayersnya.

Almost every village along the road to the destination there must be volunteers who provide food, drink and rest for the group of haul.

Cool..

Maybe they have much more of a reward than us. The reason I don't need to explain, you can definitely count it.

When Dzuhur almost arrived, we were stuck in traffic.

My heart is getting restless. Prayers that respect time when traveling I have never tried it. It's hard with circumstances like this. Being close to others. If I was alone, I would probably do it.

The decision lies with the driver and it was a fatal mistake I made. 

I also corrected myself.

Where is the mistake of the choice I made.

Before leaving.. Or am I slow to give the will..

Adi's decision depends on his mother. Julak can not go far, the age factor. Forced to find a mosque or mosque close to the road.

Forced?..

Gawat. I began to think negatively.segitunya mengepelekan prayer on time. I don't want my fighting will to be weak. The priority of my duty is to uphold even if it will hurt myself. Until the new choice I give up.

Shit.I'm starting to get emotional..

Got it! we finally found the right place. Adi sister was worried about being stuck in traffic again if it was too late. I've come down with a sturdy shirt. I quickly crossed over to the mosque.

When I wait to queue for ablution, I say that I do not pray here. Duh why else this I said in my heart. The reason is because laxatives can not walk far.

Huh huh?

Forced that. Already pray sunnah before dhuzur lag behind, mandatory prayers are late too. I started to get emotional. Active beer.

Because of his decision as soon as I went shopping for a while buying cold drinks continued to wait near the car.

Sitting for a long time waiting I felt my vision blur. At the beginning, I was not feeling well.

My drink ran out but the others never came.

Asemm, he said not so, even not back and forth. I looked for them in the mosque I didn't meet. Food in the rest area?

Cihh. if gini mending I pray only.

After the prayer I sat down again waiting near the car and finally they came back.

My brother scolded me for confusion where I was from he said. They had trouble finding me.

"he said it wasn't? that's why I've been waiting here a long time" I said angrily

"don't part, we had food at the rest area" my brother replied

In my heart, I had not eaten. What stomach is far more important than prayer. Angry I'm angry. My sister also warms me up.

"is it a picnic? it's a haul event, not a picnic"

I doubt why I wrote that phrase.

Is this for me or them? but there was little sense that my statement was referring to my laxative.

Ahh I'm tired of too easy emotions.

"now eat said my brother" my brother gave me rice wrap.

The only thing I want on this journey is to keep up the obligation, so I can be a cheerful Hypis. My heart will be very restless if I pray late. If it is too late to pray, the other sunnahs will loosen because they underestimate the obligation.

Even if I will sacrifice a lot I still require myself to carry out obligations.

Arrive at the destination or rather the mosque that will be used for the event. The reason is the same because my laxatives are not strong way so yes just like this continue.

Ashar's time is coming. There was a recording of teaching from the mosque. It's still the same what I should do in situations like this. My brother persuaded me to stay in the group.

I'm mutinous. Would she want to? responsibility if in the afterlife the reason I pray late because it remains in the group so as not to be rude.

My chest's warm. The energy from Beater gathered by an unstoppable determination, overcame the shadow of the risk I was about to face.

Stray and the others will dump me.

Even if all are hostile towards me I will still be firm with my stance because this is the only reason why I exist.

"wait in the post later when I'm done"

even if I am gone, I will be abandoned.

Keep moving forward and forget about the world for a moment. What good would it do if I let go of the constancy I had been training all this time for such a reason? I will continue to lose by repeating the same incident.

Maybe this is the answer to my hunch last night.

The load decreases after prayer.

Huahh. I was more relieved and thank goodness I still had time to pray together, considering the queue at wc so much, really. If you decide late the choice is definitely missed.

Now just wait for Maghrib.

Going around looking for others, I met my brother in front of the mosque. We decided to pray outside because I wanted to see the screen broadcast from there.

Maghrib arrives..

I realized we were almost surrounded by women. My brother complained about praying in the mosque. In my heart, I laughed. I can't stand haha.

*psst look next to you it's a pretty girl.. 3:>

Oh. ohh!

The gravity is strong! I almost turned my face away.

-__-

If I immediately turn curious to see who someone is meant automatically I lose the same lust for not thinking 2 times.

It's testing..

Active reminder light..

I stand up to pray. The girl beside me stood up.

*cie cie your body is tall, it seems to fit her shoulder-height.. 3:>

-___-

hamm. kamvret..

Focus, focus!! *what I'm shouting

Enter Zheill mode, eliminate emotions, narrowed view.

Throughout the maghrib prayer I kept trying to ignore my surroundings including those beside me. I also did not expect it would be as difficult as it feels, praying mixed with the opposite sex.

Curiosity arises about them.

I who have become accustomed to learning every new experience make this curiosity as a trap from the whisper of the devil. I can also fix it but I can still focus.

The last part of the prayer, "greetings", I deliberately slowed down the movement so that we - uh not but for him who was beside me did not look at me as regards.

Second, my intention must be really subtle and natural so that the curiosity does not appear.

Not a love story in a movie. I don't want to sin and I don't want to make sinners. I must be firm.

Even so, women are still interesting creatures. If I loosen the defense just a little maybe I'll get stuck again.

He talked to his next-door friend. His voice can be heard clearly.

The habit of a girl always wants to be noticed through movements or behavior that she herself does not realize.

Who for?

Emm I don't know why I caught the intention that was referring to me.

T_T haha I miss the old me, who was very good at ignoring the situation around.

But again, because I don't care about my surroundings so free to act and make others like me.

It was wrong haha.

Habsyi..

Apparently he memorized the poem Habsyi. His voice that intends to be heard by others or is it sincere because of love, both still amaze me. Putting aside negative thoughts. He could be an example so I'm motivated to memorize.

I also love the Messenger and can memorize it.

In the prayer beads subhanallah before our assyraqal duet pronounce it. Ahh!!! just our two loud voices as if we were a couple!!! other times no one has memorized!!?..

*the *cie cie couple.. 3:>

runyam~

Am I the wrong step? but but ah yes..

Going home. The intention of knowing him. Again, I consider it lust.

I'm standing. My brother was looking for Imel then I accidentally stared et-in the direction of the mosque. Almost aja!

But after the end of the event I just took a quick look at it for me as learning material.

Eh!? he saw me too. I caught a curious look on his face.

I've guessed..

We also went home..

That was, what I meant as a learning material was to look in the mirror with him would such be the figure of my future partner?..

Yep always starts with a question.

If he, who was next to me is a picture of my prospective partner, it means I still have many shortcomings that I have to fix.

Can I get married later? work has not yet..

No good reason to deny someone's offer.

Hehe..