Monster Labile

Postpones

At that time I was buying fried food near my house, there were a lot of people relaxing ,I looked to the left apparently there was someone most valuable in my life he could call Ushu or my uncle ,he is the one who most considers my father like a helper in his life because my father used to help for his work until now success ,so what impressed me was that he always gave me pocket money every month after payday not only I have other families like thank you ,suddenly there was a conversation between Ushu and the old man sitting next to him.

“young people now want to go anywhere near me using vehicle”ucapnya 

my parents are insinuated to me

“yah hence bla.. blaa ..” ushu reply

Indeed, at that time I used a vehicle to go to the fried food stall when the distance was close, I began to respond to the satire is the reincarnation of war, I began to hate parents who do not know the name of the feeling.. it's appropriate that I was a little annoyed when I saw my parents except my mother, who taught us how to smoke?? A boyfriend?? If you can correct yourself before issuing an opinion. In the utterance of the words it will have its own taste “stupid !” “sial !” caught by the ears and interpreted through the brain for those who have a sensitive heart like me. will be angry .. his opinion snapped if they see us in a negative way I will also see them in a negative aspect ,the words that have entered one's heart can be retracted if they realize that the narrowness of your vision, but I said nothing at that time.

Even if they do not say that they are wrong, I should not be rash to conclude that I could be wrong. This will be a long debate.Inner war that determines who is wrong through some of the most accurate information that I can during this time, I always discuss it in my mind. If the inner war does not show results it means I only need to test it, this unusual action I often do if I do not get the real answer. Why is it so long ?? ..

I began to show my dissatisfaction to ushu, I was given money again but the glance I saw on his face was like a flat rhythmic and less pleasant , “oh so you want to receive money that the giver is not satisfied , such as not sincere” said side of dark me ,logical once .. about dramatic return ,I do not like it if there is such a person even though his heart is sincere but the look on the face shows otherwise certainly cause anxiety in someone, smile back or whatever let people be sure to see it. Same with me. My classmates accidentally stepped on the shoes I was wearing

“ah no papa gak” flat

“ah step on fidz because I'm dirtying your shoes”

“ah no papa kok” start little smile

Until I finally stepped on it , the worry will not let you sleep soundly haunting you to do something. Little can I read the situation through the sense that someone shows anger, disappointment, sadness, fun and others .. so what I got when I tested it was well I guess a little disappointed why I just realized it now. Starting from that incident I did not depend on ushu anymore, I refused to be given money. Problems get bigger when I get angry at me “why are you the same Ushu you??” kaka I don't know anything about my problems because I am “solo player” I hide all my problems only little known by my family .. mah this is not so important also ,if there's a problem I can't solve I'll ask it to the person I trust the most, but that person is now gone instead of dead but not here with me ,well that's not papa either.

The top of the problem is that I started ngeselin .. jerking me .. indeed I'm a child ,my attitude towards family is very different when compared to my friends arguably the adjustment of the environment so to end a problem like this I will behave differently than imagined. Disconnecting is not the end of a story, the story will continue until it finds its true position .. I just postpone it.

I do not know what to say from the end of this story, judging from the current situation I still keep a distance with my uncle, not hate but just disappointed ,indeed, I intend to change someone's life for the better, but I really want to change my lifestyle from this and so ,too soon to draw conclusions to be able to set someone's life wrong to turn fatal, if anyone asks me I will struggle as best as possible to give the right answer.