Monster Labile

I Understand

6 More months??..

It feels so slow..

An uncertain estimate..

“oi stop in time to rest” exclaimed brother Yadi while walking, I looked towards the wall clock, only at 11:31 “seventually, I looked at the wall clock, again funnya me-las” said me with a happy tone. The more I age, the more my experience, lately I began to understand many things, not all can be expressed with writing, not all can be expressed with words or actions. As a result I only keep my thoughts in mind, all that has been 

I went through so much..

It's been a long time since I've washed the dishes this time I'm going to help my grandmother, even though my grandmother rarely smokes, like a grandmother's mother I will be more excited if I get better again, well there are just some things I don't like from grandma, Grandma, my observation would be very good if someone serig appeared in my life, I could analyze it well I mean nature and path of mind. I also use this way to connect with the workshop sister when work looks when they need something I know right away. But for Aulia, I could not read her way of thinking at all, what she was or how, just as confusing, maybe because this is why I still keep the taste to her. When Helda invited me to group Ten One and IPA 3 I accepted but rarely had any chatter. The first time when entering the IPA 3 group many ask who is this account called Zheill, said Amal Hafizh, the son of IPS?? , sorry I wrote wrong but Hafidz said Amal once again. Then they recognized me and all of a sudden he came out, said Aulia, is that Hafidz?? Then in reply Amal said yes.Actually I do not really hope that Aulia has a sense of my limitations especially Amal used to like Aulia.

I was amazed by Aulia, she often shared about anime in the line, so that the sentence in her post contained euphemisms I mean like making a baper man but there are also others that are not related. As usual he was hard to guess, I tried to digest the meaning of the message and ventured to the conclusion, I tried to make the first chat with him in line, he said, I sent a message “Au there is an exciting anime not ?” the message that seems to have met often and stored the sense behind the message, our chat was smooth until 9am I sent an apology message because the beginning of Ramadan, but it is not reciprocated but it has been read, it does not understand whether he is busy, then I try to send a sticker well the result is nil, tomorrow it is the same, it means something is wrong maybe I am too confident. If apologizing alone is not reciprocated means hoping something is impossible, after all I let go I also realize the thing, someone she expected, someone she expected, I was also small after leisure time “odd why I did not realize it from the beginning” of course I feel tightness even though unstable I can still feel the pain, but I still feel the pain, in this way I re-strengthen my stance “once again do not be easily confident”, in order to facilitate communication with Abdi and friends so I download the line, if not possible.

Losing someone is natural, moving on is normal for me, maybe an advantage I can love someone with my own will and consider a loved one to be the usual person when I met, maybe a little bit more, sometimes there are limits too but now it's okay because I have Beater and Zheill haha..

Being a backward human being is not as easy as learning, it looks from the outside of me is often bullied because of silly behavior and others and sometimes I show my actions without me knowing, it is because my life destiny is still running, and sometimes I do not know it, one's destiny can be eroded by hard work, I believe in it because it is a natural thing in human nature, hmm confusing obviously my theory is not enough I need experience again and also now I do not know the purpose anymore, “do I need to be in the forefront??” impossible and I don't like it either..