Monster Labile

Fasting and Trouble

The month of fasting has come, but somehow my heart is very difficult to welcome his arrival. Every year that happiness fades. Taking a definite step, I will not allow this deflection of feeling to be so. Because if you ignore it and disappear without any guilt, it feels like losing something very valuable without knowing it really exists. A hunch that I have experienced most often from childhood until now.

I'm not giving up. I will try to find the cause and solution. There must be a lesson to be learned. More thoroughly self-correcting. More thorough.

While on the move my mind still works looking for my mistakes.

Why did I start to dislike the coming of Ramadan?..

When I was a kid I was so happy to welcome him. Different from now.

Is it because when I was a kid I could take a vacation and play? maybe that's the reason. Because now I have a lot of free time so. hmm not really. Right now I'm setting the time to move because my sleep hours are always less. That's why the moon r a madhan-oh! maybe because my schedule is disrupted. Ah I mean I have to rearrange the schedule like sleeping, eating, worship and more. Hedehhh apparently only because of such trivial things. If so, I just need to break it.

Many pious people are so enthusiastic about the arrival of this blessed month.

I did not look on the bright side because I felt I would bother to set the schedule again. These few days or this week I have a hard time resting, stamina down and of course the mind becomes exhausted. Want to fight but tired first will be hassles.

The solution I just need to instill love in this month so that my character will be better.

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>>> Ramadan full month of blessings <<<

The first night my condition was not in good condition plus the room was stuffy because the window was a little. The wind from the fans is useless. Even aggravating. I'm dizzy and sleepy. But I still have to fight again. After this we will hold a meeting.

Uhuhu should be strong again..

After tarawih I and his father Parid alone were sadarus. Before the month of fasting I had promised to do a padausan here, if the others? I don't know, I don't force just to invite, whether or not it's up to them, everyone has their rights.

I have not been fluent in teaching even though I can read with the law of tajwid. But whose name is limited to knowledge and looking for it yourself without a teacher there must still be mistakes. Yep, right. I only learn through the internet. Listening directly to the Arabic Hafidz Qur'an. I love and have learned from 2nd grade High School. But al-Baqarah was still poured out. Imagine the difficulty against the lazy self. Trapped in a comfort zone. The end will feel bothered by something that I think is a problem. The danger is again if I am currently sadarus with the intention of being forced to keep the promise of what I will get later?

I intend to study whatever the circumstances. Sick, happy, angry whatever it is.

I was rebuked by Parid's father for being so wrong. I'm nervous haha. Though I was fine at the beginning of juz but because I was nervous.

Active reminder light.

Self correction.

Ahh tucked in my heart I want to show off. It is also difficult to use a microphone. Dizziness. Dizziness. I'm so exhausted.

Tomorrow morning after Sahur I will go to prayer. There is adhan. But who is it? don't know me by his voice, new guy?

Thank goodness, at least no one wants to replace me berwirid before dawn because I still have difficulty intending to mix the feeling of pride.

Relax I walk without burden. I saw from the outside that many people were sitting. Hihi rame. As I went inside it turns out no one wants to berwirid, the person who was a friend of Adzan was my sister, ahh he has not memorized his wirid. After the prayer before dawn I offered it but yes he could not. Uhh forced to, my nait can't mix with pride.

My voice was a little excited because I was eating. A little nervous but still manageable, drowsiness makes me less sensitive to the circumstances around.

This month our enemy is only ourselves.

I have to be more careful to set the schedule and have to passionately go through the day.

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Break fast.

I don't know why it feels so ordinary