Monster Labile

Destroy the Walls of Selfishness

My name Hafidz Rachmadana can be called Hafiz, I was born in a simple family and a simple place to live. My life began when SMA which at that time I reached “standard awareness level” through the site secret .. can be interpreted logical desire that covers 20 percent of brain capacity, well every human must experience it ..  although I was hesitant at first but thanks to many things including that I found my purpose, my true purpose .. yes, but my goal has nothing to do with school lessons so I want to be serious when I graduate High School.

April is the month of my birth not during Ramadan, most people think that I was born in Ramadan because my last name is “Rachmadana”, then the person who asked replied “eh is not yes?” that's like a little bored, it would be better if no one knew my birthday .. ah so remember something I can tell you? maybe a little useful. It's about my birthday, when I was sitting in class was still first class High School suddenly two friends of mine love me birthday gift, birthday gift, I was really shocked and numb because of embarrassment, the two people named Fidya and Rusda we knew at the time of registration to enter High School, actually I wanted to refuse but because I have already accepted it, the contents did not make me interested to be replaced with 1 kg of agate .. absolutely did not interest me. You could say I'm weird .. so weird . but it was my first gift and also the one that gave my best friend, really thank you .. but still I don't want a second time.Why do I say that because I'm the kind of freak who rarely takes things seriously, that's how my brain thinks ..

I don't really like big things ..

As time goes by finally the day of farewell, guess what you think I will come or not, as a reference I do not like to hang out with people who like the side of the world, yap ! .. I will not come even though there is someone who dared to invite me to go to the farewell event and I will reason “oh yes I forgot to buy sasirangan” clothes that is. As a human who likes to play war games .. magic that only a little can be achieved for the player .. why .. because there are things to note in playing the game .. first the strength, the power, is not, both strategy and last skill .. hem did I forget anything else? the point is you just have to study the situation and try to calm down or maybe you enjoy it. If you can understand it then I'll explain the problem ..

Before the end of school exams my friends often come to my house none other than to play games, actually I was happy to get to know a lot of friends and also I was a little helped by their presence *personal problems* I did not tell them to come but those who came by themselves .. I do not mind but my sister and also my grandmother still do not know what their experiments .. but like . fine fine fine aja, okelah may come.

As I said earlier I was fine but over time I also felt burdened especially with the presence of Daniel so that I sought opinions and facts for a reason as well as my sister who started disturbed by the presence of my friends, I will explain my friends who often come, first Novan comedian, second Daniel, Agung . ah he mah rarely come and also can not play games but the person is good, then there is Yahya .. people usually like to follow the season *he means like to follow things that are ngetrend*, etc*, lastly there is Abdi .. well the person can be a little joking but his voice if the talk is slow might be similar to me. This way I can explain the situation.

Next we will be versus 3 versus 3, I can group Radiant with Abdi and Fiqri and our enemies are Yahya, Novan and Daniel from Dire team .. the end of this fight I can guess clearly we lost, seen from the type to the team, team comp, our team is ugly because I can not concentrate on hearing Abdi diomelin continue to be the same Fiqri they both look like fighting but how is not so clear and on the other hand Yahya .. he enjoyed it so much every word he sent so happy and chatty that's what I know when listening to it especially when conflicts like this, hem instead of this is common, it's not that this is normal, then I smile while saying “ah this game just need not be serious” like that is my action until the fight is over, the game is just not necessary, starting that day when I want to sms Abdi to come to my house playing games I feel not comfortable even he replied or replied to my text “your friend came also not?” it was obvious that he was hesitant to come to play because I knew him from childhood.

“oi already want six o'clock how do we pray?” said I urge others, it is common sometimes we play until want magrib, I doubt they I mean my friends .what they often pray at home or in a place of worship, I mean my friends, we had too much fun including me. Unconsciously I always did wrong . pleasure for my own sake.

There came a new conflict between me and Daniel this time I was being homed in for taking the wrong character, I was really angry but this is my chance. “ahh I am tired of playing this game already” correct reason will always cause problems this way is very effective to end their suffering, because I doubt them .. do they pray after going home every time, otherwise I'm the one who caused them so because they lend a place to play and forget the prayer time even though the ashar prayer only, but not only, like a miracle when playing this opportunity strategy game will be very useful but the risk for me because they are used to present and bring in my house this time I have to lose it, similarly, I would have trouble talking to Daniel or maybe we would not be friends anymore because of this conflict .. “yah up to” I say so does not mean I have many friends instead I always lose many friends. In the end, they no longer visit my house.

The selfish reality is still me . .