Monster Labile

Hati

Endeavours

Tonight I felt very unsure and not feeling well. Will I be okay tomorrow?

Maybe this feeling of worry is from the devil trying to keep me at home tomorrow. If I follow my instinct the answer is none. Feels neutral. No loss or balance. My laundry and my body don't feel good maybe that's the obstacle so I try not to leave tomorrow.

Tomorrow Haul Guru Sekumpul event.

I just left last year. For example tomorrow I'm throwing away that opportunity - but I want to make it clear.

Is it true that I really want to attend a big event tomorrow? on what basis?

I began to doubt.

Many of the village neighbors who have gone there even the priest in the hangar have also gone to attend.

There will be no priest.

A feeling of dislike arises when I think about the intentions of the other person's goals.

Is it just to get the title to be the same as the others? 

Especially last year, the president had a big break.

It's very confusing for me to want a clear goal.

The more I think about the more negative things I will receive later.

All right. I'm not going. After I decided my intention for tomorrow somehow my heart immediately felt empty. I'm drunk vehicles will be difficult later.

Tomorrow..

My brother and especially my sister tried to persuade me to come along. What are your intentions to persuade me?

I frowned at the sign that I was detecting the opposite.

It's a pity that I'm not present. The memories of last year were so good.

Asiatic? seeing volunteers handing out food and drinks made me change my mind about leaving. My intentions are not perfect because I am still not familiar with the figure of Sekumpul teacher, the teacher of Lake Master. I have never listened to his studies so I do not know what kind of teacher Sekumpul. Hopefully after I come tonight I can get a love for him.

I dreamt of the Lake Master. I feel so happy. In the dream I stood to see him sitting joking with others, maybe the teacher joked with his students, do not know also the problem is not so clear. I stared very warmly because of love. But at the end of the dream he looked at me like he was astonished. Maybe I caused it, about at the end of the dream it had crossed my mind that I was the one who despised it was worthy of love. I have many flaws, I thought. But when I woke up, I felt so happy, my eyes were teary..

The dream of the teacher alone has made me very happy especially when dreaming of the Prophet. Unimagined happiness.

But there is a little doubt.

After the Maghrib prayer I went to the Judge to ask him some questions about my dreams.

"kim, did you ever dream of a teacher? what was the background of his dream? white ones?"

yep I want to ask you this because the background of my dreams burem. The shadow that I get every time I hear the story of someone who had dreamed of the Aulia of God must be a glowing white. My imagination so whenever I hear the story of a good dream. One more thing, the night, when I dream, before going to bed I do not ablaze as usual.

"normal, why ask that? wahh dreamed of a teacher?" said.

What is the usual Emm? my brain can't digest because it's my first experience so I don't know what the ordinary is.

"yes last week I had a dream" precisely the night after the haulan Wali Allah Shaykh Muhammad Nafis. I grew more fond of the Lake teacher afterwards. Maybe it is true that someone who is on the throne of the heart will easily dream of it because of love.

The judge continued the story. Said I had a dream about Sekumpul teacher but it was a long time ago.

*uakh great! my heart is stirring

"old enough? when?" ask me and I continue.

"Maybe because you often hear his studies on the internetkan" I explained myself.

"no, he had never heard of his studies before" he explained

"uh? how can?" accelerates thinking.

Because of her photo? every house must have a photo of the teacher. Either maybe it's the most logical cause, just instinct.

But it's really great to be able to dream before you know Him.

*uhh I feel very far behind

The people who have been given the privilege will be very different. For me, the ordinary ones have to put in more effort. I know about it. I haven't fully struggled, I'm still chasing the world and it's hard to leave it. The main purpose for perfecting my character is the world I am pursuing so as to set aside the purpose of the afterlife. But I did not completely die the purpose of the afterlife. Maybe 6 to 4 difference.

4 To study in studies and implement practices the remaining 6 is worldly. I still have difficulty in straightening the intention to worship in each activity. Yes, because the various problems become my control. Slowly but accurately. I don't have so much energy to be always focused. Sometimes you forget that you are making decisions too quickly.

said teacher Bakhiet emang right in his study of Tasawuf science, before worship we must ask first to our hearts so as not to escape in determining the intention.