Monster Labile

Ordinary Only

Every Friday morning I always go to the market to buy necessities in the kitchen. In the house only me, my grandmother and my sister again. My sister is married and lives in our original home that was originally made into a contracted home. Well it's been a while since my sister was in the house my role is still the same as it is now. This Friday morning was heavy as my body was still adjusting its new biological clock. Because I came home at 12 pm and prayed Isya. Heavy but I have to force it.

Today Yahya back to the place of college again kah. kasian once I friends of the group "agents know round" has been back in college all, all, though yesterday fun playing dota with Yahya has won 6 times in a row. I miss. But how else would I have to sacrifice.

In this market, I have been used to shopping for groceries. Already accustomed in the sense of being recognized by many people, it is a shame that there are young people who buy food to the market every week anyway and not in college, it is shameful that there are young people who buy food to the market every week anyway and do not go to college, accustomed to hearing the criticism of people yah~ even though only my feelings he heard the voice. Perhaps that is why there is a prayer to enter the market to be protected by various negative things. Don't ask me I haven't adopted it😑.

In the market or on the road sometimes I hang out with my ushu wife. I wanted to smile but was thrown away. I once said that Beater mode is like a double-edged sword. Ushu and his wife dumped me, maybe his wife told me about my bad habits to another family who lived near my original home. The family there looked at me with a different view. I got into Beater's character to respond to the target because they didn't realize that I had been hurt by their bad habits. My mentality is weak and very sensitive to changes in the behavior of someone I know. That's why I can notice the smallest difference.

Oh yes my view can widen 160 degrees so I can notice a lot of maximum movement of 7 points at once. The added knowledge of personality makes it easy for me to look for the mistakes of others. It's very overcrowded. The hardest test for a thinker like me. Choose silence or find a solution between the whispers of the devil. A little emotion can plunge my mind into the negative. Silence is good but finding out and taking positive steps is much better so that the mind is used to thinking well. Not suudzon exactly. Responding to this is a natural, negative impact of Beater. Avoiding the trials that cannot be solved. Not really, should who live much longer certainly understand what the young man is experiencing now, namely the unstable conditions to choose his goals. Ah I began to think there again, it could be ushu I did not take these pieces to be used as a basic view of addressing young people. Remember the fidz who understands it is you and then you who act as well.

Bore~😑.

Today I use my own vehicle to go to prayer faster. I feel bad every time I enter this cafe. I don't know how vaguely I can't be sure, I hope it's not a big thing, a big thing? am I gonna break the plate? or cups? uwah a-or blow up the cafe!?? ahh I have to be very careful.

"hey Mel is cured?"

"lumayan kak"

Heats the chicken seasoning and also makes it the first task of the day. A little help Meli cut carrots. He cut it fast like a good cook. She learned to cook when she was 8 years old. And also advised me if you find a Javanese wife only because she is good at cooking. Huh! somehow less fitting with his proposal, less sreekk that maybe our different way of view.

"mel's replacement learned to cut"

Meli assented she wanted me. I cut it very slowly, sometimes the knife slips the piece so curved. Seen easy but fitting try it feels pretty hard my hands are still stiff. It's just a matter of the amount of experience will get used to like Meli.

"Kakobain dong blackpaper chicken seasoningnya"

I tasted a little with a little spoon but it's still hot.

"ahaha kaka was blown first"

"hmm good enough"

"heh seriously?" speechless

Wellh I don't know what to answer the problem this time I tried this chicken season so the standard taste measure does not know.

"just two people including kaka who said my cooking was good"

I appreciate that there is someone cooking for me.

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The night customers start to increase rather than overnight. I went into a panic. Right now I have not used any of my characters. It's not time yet. I'm still adjusting. Uh my head hurts. I learned a lot about cooking here. I've been able to cook Fried Potatoes, Crispy Tofu and Cheese Bananas.

Yei! applause for cave 😂. Level up to become a teri-class chef.

In these two days it's all I can do to make the rest a helper, help out in everything else but deliver the order to the table. I don't have that much energy every time I have to blend in with people my aura will adjust to their aura. Maybe to the introvert side. Want to know what size of energy I use? it is the same as running with full power in 10 seconds. The tired is not physical but DJIWAA. When blending my mind will change the pattern of habits so that no other so that they are not disappointed. Yes, I still want to be a good person for that I live. The obstacles we go through do lead us to be a good person. No matter how far you fall, there is still hope to return. Follow the small light slowly, do not rush to run. If in my case the light is already side by side with me it's just that the light is there to guard it, who? he is my dark side. I've been bonyok many times after fighting him.

 *ghenhhh

Back to the story.

Saturday! and tonight is Sunday night. The night of the teenage boy who is kasmaran. I got anxious. I need to focus and pay attention to the details. Don't get carried away. But today Diyan and Herry are not feeling well. When I asked Herry he was fine, he could still hold on even when he wasn't feeling well. I can't replace it either because I'm focusing on the kitchen. The owner of the cafe helped as well as his mother the owner of the cafe. I swear a lot of my customers are freaking out. But I was told to focus on the order of fries and tofu crispy. I don't want to be this relaxed waiting for orders to come. I helped Meli who was back and forth making orders. He was very focused and spoke as necessary. I felt an aura of seriousness. I helped make piscors and toast. I made the first mistake when I broke the egg, ah geez my rhythm was further broken when I made the second mistake and so on. The cafe owner scolded me. Damn I was blank.

When the customer reduced Meli encouraged me, she said it was not my fault because it was only three days of work here and also new cooking experience. He said I could still be more serious than this. I started to sink into guilt. Meli's spirit does give me a little energy. Doubt is in my heart. I brushed it off with this fact just a matter of time and calm down. I still haven't shown my abilities.

"When I stop, don't you?"

"no papa, if you are not present immediately replaced"

I expressed doubt in myself to Meli, at this time she is the only one who can be spoken to. Decreased customers. I want to see the clock why? I feel bad about my mistakes. The mood turned silent. Others felt exhausted including Herry and Diyan. I still have Beater's powers. I saw the clock was at 11, just in a minute. I'd better wash the dishes and stuff.

I wish I could have been more focused, but somehow it feels so hard to focus. Though my part is just frying potatoes and know crispy even so go along to make fried rice. I got carried away with emotions to do what I shouldn't have done. Not good with the others. I feel so clumsy after making so many mistakes. It's my weakness so there are other characters to cover up every one of my biggest flaws but I don't wear them. Whether there are too many lessons for today, there is no time to think about it I must focus on sanctifying. The owner of the cafe passed by me immediately reflexively asked to ask permission to stop. Shit again I give up easily. The cafe owner's answer surprised me even more.

"mom didn't ask you to stop?"

"i know myself kok bu haha" while smiling maksa

It felt like I was given the green light to stop after seeing the mistake I made. I feel so relieved. Yeah somehow all the weight on the shoulders lifted all. Deep down I think it's better to stop now. Suppose I don't stop how much time it takes to be good at cooking. Two days is impossible unless you can cook. This may result in less work intention. I have to say goodbye to others politely.

The cold of the night wind and the sound of protest from the stomach.

"you're nothing yes you're nothing.what a talented huh!" Ah I'm starting to stress. Find some food first ah.

If you see the results are fortunately 40% possible. The biggest loss in my opinion is the opportunity to fast 6 days after the month of Ramadan lost on Thursday yesterday, I think the last day of the month of Shawwal can still fast and apparently I miscalculated, I wasted that opportunity. Fortunately I was more confident and some of my weaknesses were slightly overcome, it only took dozens more experiences to perfect my character. Until here I fought. I don't want to hurt more 😑.

Staying calm, failure hurts, I already know that. All right, fill your stomach first.