Monster Labile

Stupid Dude

Right now I'm an unemployed man with no job and no purpose, all I think about now is helping my grandmother at home like doing the dishes, doing the laundry and other necessities. I always thought I would do my best but what a power there was nothing that made me proud even I planned to not be friends with my schoolmates anymore .. I don't know where the intention came from, which must have been a particular purpose, not forgetting memories .. It's just that every moment of every day I can be someone I want to be. evil .. all I see of all my deeds is only good profit and it occurred to me “th away your friend for your friend” so..

I don't have a best friend who can trust me, not , I just haven't got it “how with Nisa ,he was always kind to you” sorry I messed up now he doesn't trust me “how with Abdi, he was your childhood friend” hm he has his own way, he has his own way, he is a bit quiet not to talk but extraordinary in holding back emotions if about friendship he does not think too much about it “then what about Yahya, he is always good to his friend” hm I think it will be difficult because he always has a job .. well it can be said that the job he thinks is fun, “so why not like them”

Back when I was in Elementary School I was the dumbest of my classmates, got low grades , zero, three and still a lot of my bad job sheets, I didn't care, all I knew at the time was having fun no matter how much my job was worth, and then I was lucky. SMP registration, yup I registered at SMP 1 Tanjung, I was surprised to see so many students from all schools enrolling here seeing Nadia also enrolling here made me quite surprised maybe because here there is an acceleration class, I think that smart is necessary as well, not like I'm just concerned with pleasure. Surprised me when my mom was worried that I didn't pass the registration, then I went to my mother and said “quiet me ma I must have passed kok” but unfortunately I only passed at Junior High 1 Cape and got 80 marks for the written exam, he said, I am proud to show off to my mother.

But I still do not care about the lesson even I was forced to enter eskul “English day” because I followed my SD friend Bayu well want how else I do not have a purpose. I thought my life would be fatal ended because half the English day members of the acceleration student, hehe fatal dah, all I noticed at that time was Bayu how he could communicate with the acceleration student, how great, well maybe this place is only for smart people only .. then I just focus on myself “how to go home” I don't care to learn what I am here.

Entering High School I was a bit different I started to care a little about the lesson, well it was just a task, more importantly I met a lot of people here who are different nature, but I was very interested in the class, I remained less concerned about the lessons until one day I joined the karate club I got my focus, remember I became strong because karate taught me things .. then I started to try to study hard before the class exam and the day came even my daily repetitions improved like chemistry, math and more. When the repetition there is a time to help friends who have difficulty do not think he is smart or not, yup even I help friends who got a rank above me, but I got a rank of 12 .. I lost to my friend, I was thinking why I got this rank just an insatiable taste “ah let” said me in my heart anyway from the first I never seriously in learning.

When the report sharing I don't care how much I just try “s-e a-d-a-n-y-a” without much thought. “eh fidz you get a high value how can you get a value so” I'm surprised someone said that they should be higher than me, yup it's not long since I've known it because I'm rarely serious even when someone likes me, so what makes me survive I want to know what the answer is ? ..

I was a stupid human being, always nervous, not fluent in communication, a hobby of playing games and planning to throw away his own friend, hmm the light that I saw when I closed my eyes is now fading between the darkness of this self, unlike the light in general which is so beautiful she shines among the darkness without disturbing who sees it, he said, she shines without dazzling like the stars, I see 5 colors white, purple, blue, black and my favorite color green they look like stars in general, which is more often white and black, even black can emit light .. whether this is a hallucination or what but I have seen it often .. maybe it's part of me huh. haha.

Maybe I should just improve my character, I think it would be easier to imagine that this is the beginning of my journey, like my dream girl in the anime, stupid, kind, kind, always excited and cheerful, if there is such a girl present in my life maybe my life will change completely haha I am really stupid huh where might I meet her .for sure, my life will change completely haha, more importantly I need to improve my nature because I don't want to waste anyone else leaving because of me, I will be serious !!

no need to be like them but be the thou they can need . then don't forget .. this stupid man .. sorry yes everything . . I always mess it up ..