Monster Labile

Replying My Feelings

I told you about my ex Linda in a previous post. This time I will remember more about me with him because it is related in the search for the meaning of love that I have been looking for. After the loss of my feelings with Nadia I had an approach with Linda. Is it because of her that I lost my feelings for Nadia? The answer is no, I started an approach with Linda a year after her previous experience. Is that distance necessary? I'm not a crocodile man who likes to change partners, uh crocodiles are loyal to their partners..

Even though he lost his partner..

At first I realized that I liked Linda when we were partying at the night market we should have thrown each other mockery at once changed to throw each other through our gestures that began to be embarrassed to look at. Damn this feeling is really love. I expressed my feelings through the middleman Erpan who happened to be his classmate. I'm very shy but in my heart I like it, how else. There are no bold actions that I will do, all almost through intermediaries even embarrassing things.

You know when we wanted to meet I suggested to meet here Loyang street near the cafe that we often go to. I was very surprised that he really came on foot, far away when he got here. There I realized he was enthusiastic. Love monkey. We brought each other escorts here. I did not pay much attention to her at that time she was very beautiful with an umbrella that she carried to cover her face, feminine once she was usually fierce like a lion, the ridicule I always uttered when I met her.

Unfortunately, I am not very good at love relationships. The messages I sent were always messed up in timekeeping, well this feeling of pleasure was unstoppable. I also texted his friend Desy a lot. Maybe it's her fault that our relationship ended, not that our relationship ended because I don't know what caused me to like Linda. At the beginning of Desy sending a message, he said "why do you like Linda?" It made me lose my step. Not once did Desy send such a message, I knew that Linda told him to.

What made me fall in love?

Once I replied to the question with "because she is beautiful and others," when I doubt myself at that time. The last thing before our relationship ended was Linda meeting who wanted it.

We immediately went to the location in my elementary school if I did not get my memory wrong began to faint. Whether before or after I saw a couple walking beside the school building, this shame was even greater.

I still can't answer that question..

If I evaluate the feelings of like and love it is similar but if love is definitely liked. After the break up I had a hard time moving on with the feeling of unwarranted love. The song Nano - Sebatas Mimpi is very suitable to describe my feelings.

"Bring me into your dreams.."

"I won't let you down.."

But I let her down..

Gossip is spreading, apparently a lot of people know that we have been in a relationship. First time for me. I also realized that Linda was a village flower girl at that time. Of course it doesn't matter. The throne is not important in my eyes. Whoever he is as long as good I'm good too. Rich or lacking. So why do I like it and if it was when I still like Nadia because basically I do not love so that the feeling is quickly gone.

So what exactly does love mean?