Monster Labile

Unconsciously

Today my grandmother returned from the holy land of Mecca. Family members and neighbors are ready to prepare a welcoming celebration, it has become a tradition. I was called by my Acil (then my mother) to move my kaka vehicle to the yard. I was confused because the vehicle was heavy, with forced me to try as much as possible. Real hard.

*uh

I leaned over his vehicle and accidentally missed to the side about his mother Bibah's thigh. Everyone in the kitchen was shocked by me. I haven't had time to apologize immediately pulled by Acilku to be scolded. But I didn't feel anything, this morning my brain went blank.

"take a meal first fidz." said Kaka Rida next door neighbor.

It's true that I haven't eaten so recklessly. It's nice for someone to pay attention like this. But from dulukan Kaka Rida is that guy.

The show began, many were also present. I sat down near my cousin's sister. Eating food again seems to me really hungry. Haha naturally from childhood I did forget the meal hours so this thin body is dry, but there are a few muscles kok wkwkwkw.

A few minutes later my mother finally came home. Pleasantly. My mom got out of the car that I don't know the name of the car, hehe I don't like to remember useless things. The atmosphere became quiet, making me realize there was an awkwardness. I saw the faces of the fathers who were looking at my mother.

Huh uh?!

What does that mean?! everyone was looking at my mother.

Beater is active

*brak!

I hit the wooden wall of my house. Not too loud but the sound is enough to resuscitate creatures who can not keep their eyes and curiosity.

"knapa fidz haha knpa you fidz." my cousin's sister half laughed

"no papa" I said as I continued eating.

Pissed. My body is trembling. If you already know that my mother does not need to be looked at for long dong. Is it that hard to keep your eyes on?

Complaining about my mother means having to deal with me first. For a moment I could forget who I was and switch to full Beater mode.

Ah shit! I was too deep to absorb the character of Beater. Characters that come from anger and revenge. The intention to kill is also difficult to control. This is no good. For example, I am too easy emotion can-can this power release as it pleases. The importance of self-control so that this power is not misdirected. This power can only come off when someone I love is hurt. I have to keep it. I have to hide it. For trivial problems like this can still be tolerated. But for some reason I should really try to unleash this power for the sake of important information. For example, both of my characters have never shown their true strength or have never exercised full control without tucked into other properties then when the merging of characters..

"The result will not be perfect"

Wh why?

Because there are still things I don't know. Instincts will also be active as a marker of doubtful hearts. The division of my personality traits is aimed at simplifying problems, resolving doubts of the heart, awakening pent-up talents and tidying up a messy life. I am so good at doing everything without me knowing

*even his blog title was also made unwittingly

yeah, it's because I want to be better..

For the information I want to know about the true nature of my character, there may be times in the future where I will have difficulty controlling my emotions. Overflowing sadness and anger take full control of this body by super troublesome problems. I don't know.. Do I really have to do it? religion teaches me not to be angry and not to be sad

kan. I labile again. yesterday said want to perfect the real character is now worried again. Uhhh!! I was confused as to which inner voice was the voice of jin kamvret and which other mind consciousness.

I have learned to think clearly under any circumstances. If the problem is as weak as that I will remain calm hmm. ah dizzy. Let me in the future handle it.

The rest of my two new characters are the only ones who have never fully exercised their control if the original me has ever gone out of control. It is very painful to remember when this body does everything unnoticed or just moves following the word instinct.

The pride..

A smile that can lower the self-esteem of others..

And a drama game that easily gets what I want..

Guilt made me realize that I will continue to be careful about my turn.