Monster Labile

Anger Peak

Today's chemistry lesson huh, why should a teacher like him, am I angry? The answer is not, only I wonder, I have not been able to read his mind, plus this drastic change makes it difficult for my brain to work. Now all I can do is blame myself, why I'm so stupid, why I can't master chemistry. Teacher who said my friends are beautiful, special, how to explain it clearly, just wishful thinking for me, his gaze and cynical speech in my opinion that makes me dizzy looking at the future. I'm not cheerful anymore, I'm tired of school, I'm bored of it, of course everyone who's bored is tucked into the thing that makes him like that. Since then I have often intended to drop out of school, but never arrived. I am tired of anything else to go to school. I began to get carried away, my head began to fill with things that were not easy. That strong determination was already paralyzed crushed by the cruel problems. Even when the friends of the X-1 alumni gathered to sit down and cheerfully and Rama called me, apparently he lied to me on the grounds that he wanted to make me laugh, but I had no response, I just showed my indifferent expression and stepped away from them, should I?..

Now that I'm alone, school just makes me sick of seeing everyone. I've been deceived by the cruelty of the problem. Malicious.

When I was in school I used to hear rumors about myself and the way they looked at me. I started to get angry and just kept it. Until in the end I found something very valuable to me, I found a book that fits perfectly with my obsession and also a book about angels, reading it I gained new knowledge even though no one could believe it, except someone like me. I began to try to recognize the attitude of everyone who is very interesting to learn, yes that's all I can do, everyone began to observe well and try to imitate which is best, which is best, looking cheerful but looking sad, it was me who was so weak. Wearing a mask every day really made me unable to bear, this was the peak of my destruction, I began to stray. Like clear water in a glass if it continues to be filled with waste water and drink it, poisoning every organ of the body.

After the completion of the repetition came the distribution of rapots to parents or guardians, but again my parents are not here so I was with my brother and came early because my brother wanted to work, because my brother wanted to work, but the result is that none of my homeroom teachers will come home. Then I intend to take the rapot myself, I'm ready to do anything with my homeroom teacher. Upon arrival at school I saw many people, many, why did I realize?, many of the students who were with their parents, this reminded me of my mother, my steps stopped to go to my class and turned to leave school, on the way my anger began to peak considering the person who had hurt my mother. I went to a quiet place to calm down. I can't get carried away, I texted Boby as necessary to find out from there. But I can't go back there, I'd rather stay quiet and quiet, I should not care about school. Here I began to remember everything, from my plunge into trouble until now, I was too rash and always felt confident, even though I myself am not ready and have no ability, you are weak.

The night I wanted to shop at the store because the supply of groceries at home ran out, I stepped into the store, I walked to the store, I saw my brother's comrades sitting on a big tire and calling me my brother and asking where your brother is, this they've done so many times and it makes me sick, I answered him "where do I know" but instead of being, making fun of me. The same time his own friend did not know the news, even asking me, less what try. This kind of thing is repeated again and this time it's worse because before I had a problem with the members who have the title of Etet.

Now who's to blame?? Me, them, or trouble??

I tried to find the answer by bringing everything up and I found out who was wrong??

That's wrong with me, right? I never tried to change my weak attitude? If only I were stronger and more able to try because I was stronger, this kind of thing would not dare to approach me, now all I have to do is change my attitude like I answered earlier. It's just that to be strong I need grudges and sensitivities in all circumstances. I also have to stay away from the name of fun and have to force myself even though I am sick.

Thank you for making me determine my path, more clearly a goal.