Monster Labile

Loving Without a Reason

I'm still looking for the true meaning of love, experience after experience. I don't want to love for no reason because I need it, to get to the stage of true love. I once told whoever he was if it was worth it to be a couple I would accept. I also know that people like me but I purposely cover it up by switching topics. I made up stories but not everything was fake. I appreciate that feeling.

Is it because you deserve it or because you chose it?

Why can I like them, is it because she is smart, or beautiful, or white, or is she good?. I do not understand what Love is but I will find her.

Occupying high school I again made the experience. You know this X1 class was my dream class. I am very happy with my friends in this class especially with Raga. I don't know since when we were so familiar, he's a guy and I'm not a rainbow guy. I love being near Raga. It was so strange that I didn't realize it until Gania told me I liked her. It was too big he said. Whats? I was shocked and disgusted, maybe that's what Gania thought. The statement made me have to keep my distance from Raga. No responsibility super wide distance. If so many think it is better to stay away. I was confused when I liked Puput again why they think so.

So the feeling of liking is just liking..

So why do I often think about my friends because I like them?..

I love the night wind so much, seeing a flickering star makes me want to sharpen my sense of sight in order to see distant stars of planets and cosmic dust but that is impossible. I rarely look up into the sky. Now the night clouds and star clusters are very difficult to distinguish. Looking at the stars can make me focus, the right time to think of the best solution.

Someone once said that loving someone is because of their lack. I'd imagine if I loved someone for his merits. Suppose the face.means I'll just be proud of it. Arrogant?. emm. It sounds less harmonious. Emm I have always liked women who look beautiful but I consider it just a coincidence, because I-I feel like it.

I'm normal, you know..

In the class there is also Mitha who faces similar to the movie player Succeed the former Ern Raga. But strangely in my eyes is also not so alluring. I'm not mocking them. Nobody told us that we should be able to lure everyone. I'm not talking about them. Many misunderstand me because I'm an unpredictable unstable monster. I can read people's minds because their gestures are nothing special.

The cut!! The cut!!

So far I have understood a little why I like someone. We take the word "type" because type is a causal determinant of someone loving their partner. There are many reasons why they like. Okay the next step is the average value.I mean I will flatten the nature and attitude of those I once liked. Hmm. okay. uh. uh. uh. okay. So I like someone because he is good.not much to say.the attitude that I can not predict.paras not include the nature or attitude.emm a sincere smile.right! That part of the smile is different from them because I've seen their sincere smiles. You know I used to love Sophia for her smile.

Not enough I want more information, we start from their shortcomings..what because they have the same fate as me? Not really..what because they have a lot of problems? Not really. so. do I see anything special in them while I don't see it myself??!! How strange..

Loving for no reason?? Just be right..