I'm Not a Substitute

Episode 35's

This morning Rayan and Alana made a pilgrimage to Sakura's grave. Alana sprinkles flowers on top of the so-groomed Sakura navel. Alana's smile puffed up staring at Sakura's headstone. Alana still feels very real to the beautiful figure Sakura whom she met in a dream.

Alana glanced at Rayan who looked calm sitting next to her. The man refused when Alana took him on a pilgrimage to Sakura's tomb.

“Rayan..” Call Alana.

“About how you feel about Sakura now, how?”

Rayan took off the black glasses she was wearing. Sakura is a figure who managed to make Rayan feel perfect as well as special. Her graceful figure is also patient making Rayan always feel calm when near her first.

“I won't forget that feeling to you Sakura. You're the great thing I ever had.”

Alana lowered her head. Alana felt she had no right to be angry at anything else being jealous. In fact, Sakura is indeed the first figure present in the heart of Rayan's life. While Alana, Alana is just a Sakura-like figure who happens to be seen in Rayan's sight and immediately forced to enter without prior approval from Alana herself.

The gentle touch and grip of Rayan's large hand in Alana's hand made Alana again raise her head. Rayan clasped her hand so tightly and gently with a gaze that kept on Sakura's headstone as if she was showing something to Sakura.

“We met by accident Sakura. Don't take him as my heart's usurper. Carnally.. Because I forced him to stay by my side. I married her forcibly.”

Alana quiet. Rayan is confessing her unflattering deeds in front of Sakura's navel.

“Maybe I thought of her as you at the beginning of our marriage. But not anymore. She's my wife, really my wife. The woman who until anytime during my breath still blows will always be taken care of with all my soul as well as my body.”

Alana really did not expect. Rayan admitted everything.

“Rayan.. You..”

Rayan turned to hear Alana's voice. Slowly Rayan brought his face closer to Alana's face until finally a soft and brief kiss landed on Alana's forehead.

“We'll be together forever, Alana.” Rayan Whisper.

Alana felt her heart warm. Alana thought that Rayan would not dare to admit such a thing in front of Sakura's grave. Alana thought also Rayan will be very guarding the feelings of her late lover even though it is gone.

“Sakura, Thanks for everything.”

About 30 minutes in front of Sakura's grave, Rayan invited Alana to come home. Rayan also had to go to her company.

“Rayan, can I go to mom's house later at noon?”

Rayan frowning. Not directly answering Rayan seemed to think.

“I.. It seems like I haven't seen my mother in a long time. I want to see it, make sure it's always okay.” Added Alana.

“What can not be by phone or maybe ask Mr Lim to pick him up here.”

This time it was Alana who was frowning. Alana felt like Rayan was not trusting her.

“You doubt me?”

Rayan.

“Not so I mean.”

“Em?” Alana looked at Rayan full of question marks.

“Ya you have hearted later on the road. Later I will ask Mr. Lim for help to take you.”

Alana shook her head.

“I can drive.” Said.

Rayan sighed then nodded her head. There is no harm in entrusting something to his own wife.

“Let me continue.” His smile gently rubbed Alana's shoulders.

“I leave.”

Rayan then got into her car. The man immediately told Mr. Lim to immediately drive his car because Rayan had a little misfortune to go to the company.

On the way to the company, Rayan contacts Luky. The man requested that Luky immediately prepare all the necessities for his meeting with his Client this morning.

His lunch.

Alana stopped her self-driving car right in front of the gate of her mother's residence. Alana was silent for a moment. Not only has his life changed. But also her mother's life. Sari has what she needs without having to work again.

Alana sighed then immediately sounded the horn making the gate guard guards immediately swiftly open the gate.

“Siang mistress.” Greet the security guard as Alana lowers her car windshield.

“Ya, noon sir. Oh yes sir, mom is home?”

“There is a mistress, Mrs Sari is at home.” Answer the security guard.

“Ya already, thank you sir.”

“Same as mistress.”

Alana returns her car to her mother's house. Alana immediately went down and rushed in to see her mother who was very missed. Alana didn't tell me it was coming. Alana wants to surprise her mother who may also be missing her.

“Dion complained like that to mom? Then you believe that?”

Alana was really surprised. Dion complained about what he did yesterday to Sari. Alana does not expect Dion to even lower her self-esteem as a man by complaining and adding what Alana really does not say.

“Bu.. I have a reason why I did that. I'm upset with her mom.. He's already hurt me. She is married to Michelle.” Alana explained.

Sari smiled. Alana will not do anything for no apparent reason.

“Nak.” Sari grabbed Alana's hand and held it gently.

Currently they are both sitting in a long chair behind the house of Sari which is indeed a small garden that is used as a field of various vegetables so that it looks cool green to the eye.

“Do you still love Dion?” Ask slowly.

Alana stared at her mother. Sari smiled gently at him.

“No bu. I hate it now.” Reply Alana sure.

Once again Sari sighed. Sari finds out how the love story of Alana and Dion goes. The two of them were indeed long enough to have a relationship that was so sweet according to Sari. Dion often invites Alana if Alana wants to go to college or work.

“Honestly, I once wished Dion more first. I thought Dion would be a good life partner for you son. But god says something else. You met Mr. Rayan and were married immediately without your consent... Mother..”

“Didn't mom approve?” Cut Alana asked slowly looking at her mother's aging face.

Sari lowered her head for a while then shook her head. Sari never agreed. Sari could not stop thinking about Alana's fate then. Alana is stubborn if forced. While Rayan, the man can become very violent if he is angry.

“Mom never agreed to it son. But Mr. Rayan, he suddenly gave a certificate of land and house on behalf of his mother. He even sealed our house.”

“What?” Both of Alana's eyes widened hearing that. Rayan not only forced her but also forced her mother.

“Mother is sorry for not being able to protect you from Mr. Rayan. But son.. I really mean Mr. Rayan is a good person. Not because she's rich mom says this. But because I've been following him for a long time. Even since you were in elementary school, mom has been working for her.”

Alana silently listened. After the relationship and Rayan improved indeed all the good things about Rayan began to be seen. Although the man was often pushy with the attitude of his feet but Rayan did not hurt him.

“What does that mean mom also knows all about Sakura?”