I'm Not a Substitute

Episode 32

Once at home, Alana immediately changed the dress, cleaned the makeup on her face and then slept. Alana does not know how to behave in front of Rayan tonight so Alana chose to avoid by sleeping first.

While Rayan, the man behaved as usual. Rayan did not think too much about what Sandi said earlier. Toh according to Rayan also after Sakura died her relationship and Sandi was not as common as when there was still Sakura.

“You've slept?”

Alana pretended to be asleep by closing her eyes. Alana also set her breath as calm as possible to convince Rayan that she was really asleep.

Rayan smiled knot. The man knew Alana was lying.

Rayan sighed then laid her body facing Alana who was on her back. Rayan affectionately wrapped one hand in Alana's stomach, rubbing it gently right at the bottom of the woman's stomach.

“I love you.” His whisper then closed his eyes.

“Alana !!”

Alana opened her eyes when she heard someone calling her name. Alana is confused not knowing where she is now. Though Alana still remembered earlier in the room fooled Rayan with the temple of sleeping. But now Alana is in a flower garden with a green meadow that is so beautiful. And also, his luxurious bed became the huge rock he now occupied to lie down on.

“I where?” Alana started asking. Slowly Alana got up and sat on the edge of the big rock. That beautiful place is completely foreign to Alana.

“Alana !!”

The cry was heard again making Alana again circulate her gaze in all directions.

“Whose voice is that? Rayans.. Where is she?” Alana started to panic.

Alana continued to circulate her gaze trying to find the figure of someone calling out her name.

“I'm here !! Come here !!”

Alana turned her head quickly to the right side and at that time Alana found a beautiful figure in a white dress that was so very similar to her. It's just that the figure is fronted and dressed while he is not.

“What is Sakura?” Alana asked in her heart.

The cute beautiful figure in white dress was smiling sweetly at Alana who was still confused. Her waving tang told Alana to get closer to him who was sitting between the colorful and blooming flower beds.

“Rayan is with me. Come.” Said again.

Alana immediately got up. Like hypnotized once heard the name Rayan called by the beautiful figure in the white dress.

That figure is Sakura, the woman who once loved Rayan very much.

“You.” Alana swallowed her saliva after approaching. That figure lied to him. There was no Rayan there.

“Hahahahah.. Sorry, I was just kidding. Sit.” Sakura laughed as she patted the place softly beside her.

Alana looked at Sakura who was also staring at her. Sakura is very beautiful and looks shiny. Surrounding him even seemed to emit light because of his beautiful figure.

“You Sakura.”

“Yes.. I'm Sakura. Come sit down, I have something to talk to you about. It's about Rayan.”

Alana was silent for a moment. Sakura was already dead. But now her beautiful figure was so real in front of her. Sakura sat in the middle of a flower bed in front of her.

“Ayolah Alana.” Sakura forced gently but Alana remained still standing with a gaze that did not know how to.

“I'm not like my papa, believe me.” Sakura's smile tries to convince Alana.

Alana took a breath. Everything feels so real. But if you think about it, it feels impossible. Sakura was dead but now being in front of her was even forcing her to sit down with her.

“I might love Rayan.” Said Alana later.

Sakura smiled wider.

“Sit down Alana.. Our conversation will be even more cool if you want to sit with me.”

Alana looked at Sakura. There is no anger in Sakura's pretty face even though Alana says “might love Rayan”.

“OK..” Nod Alana giving up.

Alana was sitting right beside Sakura in the middle of the flower bed. As soon as they lined up, they were like twin brothers.

“You're not mad I love Rayan?” Alana asked without looking at Sakura who was beside her.

Sakura chuckles.

Alana turned her head to look at Sakura who looked very relaxed as she said.

“But you.”

“Me and Rayan weren't meant to be with Alana. Our world is different. Maybe God did bring us together first, but God did not determine our destiny to be together. Rayan belongs to you now.”

Alana swallowed her saliva. Sakura is a graceful woman who is very kind according to her.

“For my papa, please you understand well. Sorry if he's too much. But Alana, my papa is a very good person. He's a hero for me.”

Alana nodded. A daughter is always proud and you want a father figure. Alana always remembers how her classmate in elementary school told her about her pride in their father.

“I love Rayan Alana very much. But that was before. Now I don't love him anymore.”

Alana frowned and looked back at Sakura.

“Why?” Alana asked confused.

“Of course because of Alana's destiny. I'm sincere with my destiny.”

Alana does not understand how she can chat with Sakura who is actually dead.

“Where is this actually?”

Sakura laughed at the question that Alana asked. But not because of the question Sakura laughed but because of the expression of Alana's face which Sakura said was very funny.

“You're at my place Alana. Hows it? You like?”

Alana shakes. Alana looked in all directions. The place is very beautiful and cool. But Alana felt uncomfortable being there.

“Alana.”

Sakura grabbed Alana's hand grasping her gently.

“We are not blood brothers but God has destined us to have the same appearance. We love the same man. But you are much luckier because you can be with Rayan.”

Alana looked at her hand that Sakura was holding. That soft hand was so very real grasping his hand.

“Blessed are you with Rayan Alana. He will love and take care of you. Trust me.” Sakura.

“But you how?”

Sakura laughed again.

“I told you my world and Rayan are different. God does not allow us to be together. You are the soul mate of Rayan.”

“Sakura me.”

“Alana.. Rayan is a little annoying. But he is a loyal man and certainly also good. Trust your heart on Rayan.”

Alana doesn't know what to say. Sakura was very full of gentleness as well as patience.

“Alana.”

Rayan's heavy voice made Alana flinch. The woman circulated her eyes again in all directions looking for the handsome figure of Rayan who called him not Sakura.

“Rayan..” Gumam Alana.

Sakura smiled sweetly. Slowly Sakura let go of Alana's hand.

“Go, Rayan is waiting for you. It's nice to talk to you, Alana. Although only briefly.”

“I..”

“I consider you a friend of Alana. Go, Rayan is waiting for you.” Sela Sakura with a smile that continues to be engraved on her lips.

“Alana.” Rayan's voice was heard again. In that instant, Alana opened her eyes. Alana glanced at the face of Rayan who was so close to her face.

“Rayan..”

“Hey.. You why?” Rayan patted softly on Alana's cheek which kept looking at her with both eyes widened. The man was astonished because Alana looked like a fool as soon as she woke up from her restless sleep.

“I met with Sakura.”