I'm Not a Substitute

Episode 103's

Alana spilled everything she felt on Sari that night. The woman was crying as she pleased no matter what, even though after this Sari would mock her weakly. Alana really needs a backrest and an outpouring of her heart at that time.

After being satisfied to spill the taste, Alana went home to Rayan's residence. Although Sari had forbidden and told him to stay overnight, but Alana still felt she had to go home. Alana still thinks maybe Rayan will worry about looking for her who suddenly disappeared in the hospital.

After Caterine gets a blood donation from Rayan, her condition begins to improve. Rayan and Sechil felt very relieved after that.

Towards the morning Rayan only realized Alana's absence there. It was because Ramon said that Alana was not found where.

Rayan tried to contact Alana all day but her number continued to be inactive. Rayan also look for Alana where even to the city center and some places that became Alana's favorite place until finally Rayan called aunty and can only feel calm once Alana has been home since overnight. Like a dazed person Rayan just realized that he can anytime and anywhere check CCTV at home. Rayan watched the silent Alana who had fallen asleep on the bed. Guilt began to take hold of his heart. Rayan let Alana go home by herself.

“Alana is home. You no longer need to look for Ramon.” He looked at Ramon and Sechil in turn.

“Thank God that Alana's sister is already at home.. I'm very worried because my brother Alana disappeared since last night.”

Rayan nodded slowly. Rayan felt very grateful to Ramon who had wanted to find Alana.

“Then brother comes home first. Ramon, please take care of Sechil and mommy yes.”

“Good sister.” Angguk Ramon responded to Rayan's request for help.

After getting a nod from Ramon, Rayan passed. Rayan could not wait to hug Alana who she had ignored that night because she was too worried about Caterine who was critically losing a lot of blood due to an incision on her wrist.

Rayan drives his car at a moderate speed. Rayan is afraid that Alana misunderstands and thinks that she does not care.

In a short time Rayan's car arrived in front of his luxury residence. Rayan immediately went down and entered the house with quick steps. Rayan even ignored the greetings of some servants who had not slept that night.

Once in her room and Alana, Rayan immediately hit Alana's body hugging and kissing her makes Alana feel disturbed until finally woke up from her deep sleep.

“Rayan...” Alana voiced out with her hoarse voice. The woman looked at Rayan confusedly as the man continued to apologize in a trembling voice.

“You've eaten?” Rayan asked stared intently at Alana who was still hugging him.

Alana shook her head. His appetite suddenly disappeared. Maybe because think about what Caterine really wants to do next.

“Why?” Rayan asked as she gently stroked Alana's cheek.

“I'm waiting for you.” Alana's real answer is not the answer that comes from her heart and mind. Because actually in Alana's heart and mind at this time continues to be filled with questions about what Caterine will do again.

“Yes lord.” Lirih Rayan while kissing Alana's forehead full of regret.

Rayan then immediately called her aunt and asked to be prepared for dinner. Indeed, his request was very disturbing to the aunt and other servants considering the day was already night. But for Alana Rayan doesn't care about anything.

Rayan cleans herself first while waiting for food for her and Alana is ready. While Alana, she contemplated sitting on the bed. Alana thought about how Caterine was doing right now.

After finishing cleaning himself Rayan immediately invited Alana down to the first floor by using the elevator. Just as they arrived at the table, her aunt and other servants had just finished arranging the dishes on the table.

“Master, mistress.. Please.” Said the aunt politely.

Rayan smiled faintly and slightly nodded her head.

“Thanks.” The reply.

Alana took a breath. To be honest, Alana was very curious about Caterine's situation now. Because when Rayan was about to donate her blood Alana chose to leave.

Alana just smiled. Although he had felt heartache but Alana finally realized that after all Caterine she was still Rayan's biological mother.

“Neither papa. How's mommy doing?”

Rayan sighed softly then smiled while thrusting a spoonful of rice and side dishes at Alana.

“Open his mouth new I answer your question.” Rayan Smile.

Alana nodded then opened her mouth receiving a bribe from Rayan.

“Mommy's condition has started to improve from morning. Lucky my blood matches mommy so mommy can be helped.”

Alana just kept quiet. Alana felt relieved but also felt was was was. If Caterine improves again Caterine will definitely remain unkind to her.

“You why go not tell me first last night?” Rayan asked looking at Alana attentively.

“Sorry.. I arrived to miss mom last night.” Alana's answer again is not the answer that comes from her heart.

Rayan nodded slowly. Maybe because seeing Caterine who is in a bad state is fine to make Alana remember the figure of her own mother.

“How's mom? Did he ask me too?” Rayan asked again while returning to thrust a spoonful of rice and side dishes at Alana.

“He'em.. Mother asked you. Good news mom is fine.”

Just when Alana wanted to say back, Rayan's phone rang. Rayan took off the spoon she was holding and then grabbed her cellphone which was beside the plate in front of her.

“Sechil.” Gumam Rayan told Alana.

Rayan picked up the phone from Sechil. The man talked to Sechil over the phone by occasionally staring at Alana in front of him.

“What's up?” Alana asked as soon as Rayan ended her call with Sechil.

“Mommy, he said he wanted to meet you. He wants it now but I don't want it. It's already night. It's time you rest.” Rayan replied with a slow breath.

Alana smiled hearing that. It feels good because Rayan is very concerned about his health.

“I can go to the hospital tomorrow morning.” Alana.

“Of course. And you should go with me there.”

Alana laughed softly. Rayan is a smart man. Alana believes Rayan can definitely judge correctly what Caterine is planning.

“About our plan to move, how?” Alana asks who thinks maybe Rayan changed her mind after the suicide attempt that Caterine did.

“We will keep moving. Maybe it's time to be pushed back again. At least until mommy really healed and recovered back to how it was.”

Alana agreed. Rayan did not change her mind even though Caterine was in the hospital.

“It's late, let's finish the food after that we rest.”

“OK..” Nod Alana answered.