I'm Not a Substitute

Episode 121

In his room Sechil kept silent even as Ramon entered. The woman lay on her back to the entrance.

Ramon who saw his wife like that could only smile. Ramon approached slowly at Sechil who seemed unaware of his presence.

The gentle touch of Ramon's hand on his back made Sechil instantly turn his head. Sechil looked at Ramon with a look of regret. Guilt came back to him.

“Ramon.” Sluggishly.

“Sorry yes I was out for too long. I was talking to the security guards. They are very friendly and nice to chat with.” Ramon Smile.

Sechil just kept quiet. Her chest feels tight. Sechil has again incised wounds in Ramon's heart even though Ramon does not know. Sechil regretted following his ego. Sechil should have been able to hold back. Sechil was supposed to hug Ramon, not Bastian.

“Oh yes, I bought you a spicy cimol. I bought it in front of Indomaret. I think you'll like it.. Come on wake.”

Both of Sechil's eyes were warming. Ramon's a very nice guy. But Ramon was unlucky to have a wife like Sechil. Bad wives are selfish too.

Ramon helps Sechil to get up and gives him the cimol he bought.

“So when I bought it this cimol was still anget. But it's cold now. Sorry, I even talked to the security guards earlier.” Ramon continued to say very softly. Ramon put aside his hurt feelings.

Sechil shook his head. Tears began to pour down her cheeks. Sechil really isn't strong. Sechil could not hold back any more of his tears. Ramon is too good for him.

“Certify me.. Divorce me Ramon.”

Ramon smiled hearing that. Ramon knows Sechil must be feeling guilty about him. But Ramon won't blame Sechil before he knows the reason. Ever since she agreed to marry Sechil Ramon has promised herself. Ramon will accept whatever the consequences. Including the wound in his heart that re-opened because he saw Sechil hugging Bastian earlier.

“If someday you feel happy with someone else I will gladly let you go Sechil. But if no one else can make you happy then I will keep trying to make you happy.” Ramon's smile said very softly.

Ramon stabs the cimol he bought with his prick and then thrusts at Sechil who continues to cry. The man did not show an angry expression at all despite knowing what Sechil was doing behind him earlier.

“Ramon me..”

“Sstt.. No need to cry ah, later beautiful ilang loh.” Sela Ramon then forced the cimol into Sechil's mouth.

Ramon laughed softly. Ramon himself did not know why he could love Sechil so much. But Ramon has no regrets. Ramon is happy to see Sechil happy, what else if he makes Sechil smile and happy.

“Someone I want to talk to you about.” Sechil. Her tears kept dripping looking at Ramon who was so attentively feeding him the cimol.

“I'll listen later. But with one condition.” Ramon's smile retorted.

“What?”

Ramon gently wiped the tears that soaked Sechil's cheeks with his thumb. The man then brought his face closer to Sechil and briefly kissed Sechil's chuby cheeks.

“Later the bobby hugged me well..” Ramon's whisper made Sechil blush in shame. Yes, they both rarely sleep in one bed because Ramon always sleeps on the sofa.

After finishing his cimol, Sechil invited Ramon to sit together on the bed. The two of them sat side by side with their backs leaning on the bed's hadboard.

“I'm sorry..” Sechil begins to say what he just did when Ramon was not around.

“Tell me, whatever it is I'll listen. Don't hesitate.”

Sechil closed both his eyes. I don't know what teaching was taught by both parents Ramon when Ramon was little so that Ramon could be transformed into a man who was so good and wise.

“Ramon earlier I saw someone. Alana said her name was Bastian. He is one of the confidants sister.”

Pause for a moment. Sechil was trying to muster up his courage to be honest. Ramon has been very kind and considerate of him. And Sechil wants to be honest with Ramon.

“I don't know what that feeling is. But suddenly I'd love to hug Bastian.” With a brick stammered Sechil said everything he felt.

Ramon nodded his head. Ramon believes Sechil must not have lied.

“Then did you hug her?” Ask Ramon calmly.

Sechil closed his eyes again. Sechil nodded slowly. Sechil will accept if Ramon gets angry and leaves him. What he did was wrong. Sechil realized that.

“Thank God then.”

Sechil instantly reopened his two eyes hearing her. Sechil looked over in disbelief at Ramon who looked so calm and relaxed in response to what he said.

“You're not angry?” Sechil asked confusedly mixed in shock.

Ramon laughing. His hand grabbed Sechil's small hand grasping it very gently.

“I know you didn't intentionally do that, did you? You're just cravings. Parents said that pregnant women crave and not accepted cravings her child will be ileran. I don't want that to happen. My son should be handsome like me.”

Sechil laughed in his tears. Ramon continues to be wise even though what Sechil did by hugging Bastian was very wrong.

“Yes already.. Don't cry on. Don't make me keep feeling like a useless husband.” Ramon wiped back the tears that soaked Sechil's cheeks.

Sechil shook his head in rejecting what Ramon said.

“Do not do that. You're a very good husband. I'm very lucky to have you Ramon.” Sechil.

“You made me fly Sechil. Thanks for the compliment. I will keep trying to be the best for you.”

Sechil nodded his head with a smile on his lips. The woman then raised Ramon's big hand which was holding her hand. Sechil kissed the back of Ramon's hand sincerely and gratefully.

Ramon was very happy to hear Sechil's honesty. Although his heart was injured, Sechil's honesty was able to treat the wound.

“Keep being honest and kind wherever you are Sechil. Expand your patience.. Because a great mother is a mother who can teach kindness to her children.” Said Ramon staring at Sechil attentively.

Sechil nodded in agreement. All his deeds had been felt the consequences. Sechil does not want to repeat it again which will definitely make him back to losing money.

“Already night. We better sleep now.” Ramon said while laying down his body. His two hands he stretched out with a hopeful look at Sechil who was still sitting beside him.

“Bobonya while hugging mom.” Ramon's whisper made Sechil laugh and then immediately rushed into Ramon's warm embrace. Tonight they sleep in one bed hugging.