I'm Not a Substitute

Episode 183

“Now you can explain everything the same I am Ramon.” Demand Claudia as soon as they arrive at a fairly quiet park that is not far from Ramon and Sechil's rented house.

Claudia has got off the bike and stands right next to Ramon who is still sitting on his bike.

Ramon sighed then laughed softly.

“Honestly Claudia, I feel like there's really nothing to explain to you. But fine if you want to know the truth about me and Sechil.”

Pause for a moment. Ramon looked at Claudia who was standing next to him with both eyes glazed over.

“I and Sechil are husband and wife. We are married.” Ramon.

Claudia's eyes were perfectly rounded. Claudia did not expect Ramon's slight confession to her.

“Ramon you.”

“Claudia please don't make assumptions as if we have more relationships than friends. I don't want my wife to misunderstand me. You know she's pregnant?” Sela Ramon slowly.

Claudia shook her head. All students and students in the campus know who Sechil is. Even the news of Sechil's pregnancy has spread all the ears of their friends in the campus. From senior to junior. Everyone already knows.

“He's pregnant not the same you Ramon. You should not have married her. Sechil is not a good woman either.” Claudia said with a trembling voice from crying. That pain he was feeling right now.

“I don't care. The important thing is I love him.” Reply Ramon firmly.

Claudia feels her heart is really broken right now. His feelings were broken and it was because of Ramon. The silent man loved him from a long time ago.

“Ramon you.”

“Why are you crying Claudia?” Ramon asked.

Claudia directly lowered her head. His kindness and concern for Ramon is not without reason. Claudia considers their closeness during this time not just the closeness of a friend. And because of that closeness Claudia put considerable hope on Ramon.

Claudia sobbed sobbing making Ramon feel even more unbearable. But Ramon is aware of his position now. There was no way Ramon would calm Claudia down and hug her, it would make Claudia even Sechil misunderstand her.

“Why can't you understand how I feel Ramon? Why?”

Ramon was silent. Ramon did not understand what Claudia was asking him.

“We are always close to the campus. You never denied my existence beside you even almost every day. Others even think we're dating. But why are you such a fool who doesn't know what?”

Ramon closed both eyes. Ramon never once felt his closeness to Claudia was special. Ramon only considers Claudia an ordinary friend.

“Am I still less beautiful? or is it because I'm not as wild as Sechil?”

Ramon narrowed his eyes staring dislike at Claudia who compared him to Sechil.

“Forg your mouth Claudia. Sechil my wife now. She has changed and she is a good wife to me.” Ramon again said firmly to Claudia.

Claudia's getting sobbing. Her body slowly decayed until Claudia finally sat on the ground. Claudia cried without the slightest bit of embarrassment to Ramon who was beside her.

“I love you Ramon. Why you never want to understand.” Reveal it while sobbing.

Ramon swallowed his saliva. If his closeness makes Claudia misinterpret his intentions, from the beginning Ramon will not want to talk a lot even assigned a team by a lecturer with Claudia.

“Thanks Claudia for your love. Thank you for never looking me one eye. But sorry, my love is only for my wife.” Reply Ramon slowly.

“From now on I ask you Claudia, please erase your love for me. And it would be even better if we no longer talk to each other until you can forget me completely.”

After saying that, Ramon revived the engine of his meticulous motor then passed leaving Claudia alone at the park. Although actually not the heart, but Ramon must still do it for the sake of the integrity of his household and Sechil.

When Ramon arrived at his contract, heavy rain came down. Ramon who did not want to get wet immediately ran into the house.

Sechil, who was still waiting, came closer to Ramon.

“How's Claudia?” Sechil asked Ramon who was instantly speechless.

It doesn't feel possible if Ramon tells us everything. About Claudia crying on the ground.

“What is it. I've made it clear everything and Claudia knows.” Ramon replied, this time he had to lie to Sechil.

Sechil couldn't believe it. Claudia had indeed long harbored a taste for Ramon. And maybe the chance of Sechil's absence being packed makes Claudia feel like she has a gap again to get close to Ramon.

“Don't lie Ramon. I know who and how Claudia.” is

Ramon sighed.

“Sorry, I just don't want you to think of something you shouldn't have thought of.”

“But that doesn't mean you should lie Ramon.” Reply Sechil quickly.

Ramon nodded his head understanding.

“Claudia, she cried when I was honest about our relationship. He also said love me.” Said Ramon quietly.

Sechil closed his eyes for a moment.

“Then why don't you take her home?” Ask.

Ramon stared uncomprehendedly at Sechil. Taking Claudia home will of course make Claudia increasingly misinterpret Ramon's feelings for her.

“I'm not that hypocritical as Sechil. I won't think of anything else now but you. You're the first person I have to make sure is always okay now.” Ramon said in a stern tone making Sechil stare in disbelief at him.

“Listen Sechil.” Ramon grabbed both of Sechil's shoulders and gripped him gently.

“Whatever Claudia did there was none of my business anymore. You are the most important thing in my life now. You and our son.”

Sechil couldn't say what now. But Sechil can't just forget how Claudia is now. Sechil was afraid Claudia would do anything else now it was raining heavily.

“Please understand me Sechil. So please.” Lirih Ramon later.

Sechil looked at Ramon who was also staring at him. Ramon's gaze was so deep on her. And from that gaze Sechil could clearly see Ramon's plea for Sechil to be able to understand his feelings now.

“I love you Sechil. Only you.”

Slowly Sechil smiled. Compared to Claudia, Sechil is nothing. Claudia was an exemplary student long ago. Claudia is smart, beautiful, meek, also Diligent. Claudia had always been one rank behind Ramon. But in reality all the advantages that Claudia has can not make Ramon love her. Instead, Ramon chose Sechil with all the flaws that Sechil had.

“Thanks Ramon. I love you too.” Reply Sechil.

Ramon smiles at her and gently pulls Sechil's body into his warm embrace. Ramon hopes that after this Claudia can understand everything.