I'm Not a Substitute

Episode 22

Alana could not close her eyes until midnight. Alana turned her body right and left trying to find a comfortable position but both eyes still could not be closed.

Alana sighed violently then rose from her lying down. Alana turned to her side where Rayan usually lay. The man inexplicably kept silent from returning home after seeing Dion's residence. Alana even felt Rayan was silencing her. They had just kissed in the car. Rayan even said she would love him very much.

“Why hasn't he gone to bed yet? Is it so much work?” Alana asked herself. Rayan was still at home in her study until late at night. Really a workaholic Alana thought.

Curious what Rayan was doing now, Alana got out of bed and stepped out of her room. With a slow step Alana down one by one stairs to the 2nd floor where Rayan's workspace is located.

Arriving in front of the door of Rayan's workroom, Alana immediately entered. His forehead frowned as soon as he found Rayan was not there.

“Cok no?” Alana Mumbles.

Alana stepped inside Rayan's study. No one's there. Alana approaches Rayan's desk and no longer sees Sakura's picture frame there. Rayan really got rid of him.

Alana glanced at Rayan's phone lying next to her laptop. The man is not sure where he is now.

“What is possible in the reading room?” Alana asked herself.

Alana stepped out of Rayan's study room then stepped towards the reading room. And as soon as Alana came in, it turned out that Rayan was there. The man was sitting on a single sofa by reading a thick book in his hand.

“Rayan..” Call Alana while you get closer.

Rayan only glanced at Alana and then refocused staring at the thick book she was holding.

“Why stay here once? Aren't you sleepy?”

Silent.

Rayan simply sighed without intending to answer Alana's question. Rayan is still upset because she thinks Alana still has a taste for Dion.

“Em.. I'm waiting for you from earlier.” Alana said again.

Rayan still does not scowl. His eyes continued to be fixed on the thick book he was reading.

“Rayan.” Call Alana trying to get Rayan's attention. But alas, Rayan did not glance at him at all.

Alana then sat on the edge of the single sofa that Rayan sat on. Alana looked at her head wanting to know what Rayan was reading. Alana clucked, an ancient literary book with a language that Alana did not understand at all.

“It looks like the book is very interesting.”

Rayan remained silent. The man reluctantly turned to look at Alana who kept trying to find her attention.

Alana narrowed her eyes staring dislike at Rayan who kept ignoring her. I don't know where to pull the book until Rayan doesn't listen.

Alana was upset that she had taken the book. Alana immediately got up and hid the book on her back as Rayan turned to her.

“Restore the book.” Said Rayan with a commanding tone.

“I don't want.” Alana's bell refused Rayan's orders.

“Alana.”

“This book makes you ignore me. I'll burn this book.” Alana Strictly.

Rayan frowning. Alana's attitude made her a little upset this time.

“You why the hell put me on? You kissed me this afternoon, and you said you would love me so much. But take a look now, you even keep ignoring me.”

Rayan stood up from her seat. His gaze continued to be fixed on Alana who slowly stepped back.

“Alana, return the book.”

“No need !” Alana was stubborn.

Rayan closed a moment both of her eyes. The man tried to endure his misery. Rayan did not want to make Alana again consider him a cruel man.

“You.. What do you want?” Alana started to panic. Rayan's face was so flat that Alana could not guess what Rayan wanted to do to her. But Alana felt that Rayan would definitely do something to her.

“Rayan stop! don't come any closer.”

Rayan did not listen to what Alana said. The man continued to approach without even listening to Alana who kept retreating dodging from him.

Alana stopped as her back hit the wall. Alana could no longer escape. Alana's been cornered.

“Rayan..”

“Books..” Rayan lifted one hand into the air and asked for the thick book from Alana.

Alana swallowed her saliva. By gathering the rest of her courage Alana raised her chin boldly. Alana looked up at Rayan who was standing tall in front of her.

“What is the importance of this book? What's more important than me?”

Rayan hissing quietly. Alana is really stubborn.

“Did I make a mistake? just say it frankly. Don't shut up and ignore me like this.”

For some reason, both of Alana's eyes felt hot. His chest felt tight because Rayan continued to ignore him.

“If I'm wrong you should scold me. You ingetin me. Not even put me this way.”

Alana's voice suddenly shook and the next second tears dripped down her cheeks. Alana was crying because Rayan ignored her.

Seeing Alana crying Rayan could only sigh. The handsome man then grabbed Alana's body and gently hugged her. Rayan gently rubbed Alana's arms and back which began to sob in her arms.

“Sstt.. Don't cry already. I don't silence you.” Rayan feels guilty now. Alana was crying because of it.

Alana dropped the thick book she had taken from Rayan. Her plight hit the chest of Rayan's field that became her hostage now.

“You are evil know not. I hate you. Huhu.” Alana is crying harder. For some reason being silenced by Rayan made Alana feel sick.

“Sorry.” Lirih Rayan while briefly peeping the top of Alana's head.

Rayan didn't mean to make Alana cry. Rayan is only upset because she thinks Alana still has a taste for Dion. Simply Rayan feels jealous because Alana is still taking care of Dion who incidentally has become Alana's ex-lover.

Rayan lifted the body of Alana who was still crying towards the single sofa she was sitting on. The man settled himself there so Alana was in his lap now.

“Yeah.. I'm sorry.. I was wrong.”

Notya stop crying, Alana even more sobbing hearing Rayan's confession. The woman with the knee-length maroon sleeping dress wrapped her hand tightly around Rayan's sturdy shoulder.

Alana cried for a long time until she was silent. A silent atmosphere enveloped the two of them. Alana still sobbing occasionally leaning her head on the chest of Rayan's field.

“About your feelings for Dion, is it really gone?”

Alana frowning. Soon Alana released her hand link on Rayan's strapping shoulder. Alana straightened her body looking at Rayan who was also staring at her.

“You got me because of Dion?” Ask Alana.

Rayan sighed softly then nodded her head slowly.

“I don't like you remembering Dion.” Said.

“You're jealous?”

Rayan was silent for a moment then nodded her head again.

“Ya, I'm jealous.” Honest answer.