I'm Not a Substitute

Episode 100's

“Ramon reject the gift.”

Alana who was combing her long hair instantly stopped. The woman frowned at Rayan who was sitting beside the bed through the glass in front of her.

“Ramon says the reward is too much. Ramon even slightly objected to our intention to move and get out of this house.” The bright Rayan who understood his wife's wrenching gaze.

Alana swallowed her saliva. Alana also actually felt a little objection. But Alana refused to speak. Alana was just trying to appreciate what Rayan's decision was.

“Honestly I'm starting to worry. But I'm also not calm if you keep close to mommy.”

Alana smile. Everything that Rayan did including her obedience to invite her to move was for his good. For the safety of the fetus that is being contained, their prospective children.

Alana got up from her seat then stepped closer to Rayan and sat right beside Rayan.

“I don't think you need to think too long. Don't worry too much about me.”

Rayan frowned staring inexplicably at Alana. Rayan thinks Alana is very arrogant because she feels she can handle her own Caterine.

“Don't big head Alana. Mommy's not as stupid as you think. You can't always face your own mommy. You don't know what a real mommy is.”

Alana laughed softly. Rayan misinterpreted his words.

“OK okay.. I don't really understand how your mommy is. But Rayan, I don't think leaving mommy here alone is a good way out. We can still think of other ways.”

Rayan sighed. Many times Rayan put her hope in Caterine. From childhood to adulthood as it is now. But many times Rayan also felt disappointed and hurt. Caterine was indeed his mother, but Caterine was also the one who had previously scratched wounds in his mind as well.

“I can no longer think of any other way. My heart has hurt Alana. Please understand that.” Lirih Rayan with a slightly quivering voice recalled how Caterine had mistreated her long ago.

Alana nodded slowly. Getting bad treatment from the biological mother itself is indeed very unacceptable by the heart. Alana never felt it. But Alana knows what it's like to be Rayan. Alana understands.

“I understand. I follow all your decisions.” Alana's smile touched the back of Rayan's hand and massaged her slowly.

Rayan smiled.

“Do you have to? You're not comfortable with my will?” Rayan asked looking at Alana who was also staring at him.

Alana shook her head slowly.

“I follow you because you are my leader. I love you.” Alana answered making Rayan laugh at hearing that.

“Thanks.” Sincerely speaking.

“Same..” Reply Alana.

Rayan spread out her hands to make Alana understand. Rayan wanted to hug him.

Alana goes into Rayan's warm embrace. His two eyes closed, beginning to enjoy his comfort. Alana's sure everything's gonna be okay. The household relationship with Rayan will continue to be beautiful and the fetus in his womb will always be healthy and good until the time is born into the world later.

“Everything will be fine Rayan. I will always be beside you, accompanying you until our hair bleaches and our skin wrinkles later.”

“Already night. We sleep well.” Bisik Rayan who got the nod agreed from Alana.

The two of them climbed up onto the bed and then lay down facing each other.

“Goodnight.” Rayan's smile looked at Alana softly.

Alana smiled and nodded her head slowly. After that, Alana closed her eyes. While Rayan, the man rubbed a gentle swipe of Alana's waist sent the woman he loved so much into his beautiful dream.

Rayan sighed. Rayan did not know why her feelings could be so deeply attached to Alana. The figure that used to be only Rayan regarded as a substitute for Sakura. The figure that also Rayan had hurt accidentally. How not to hurt? Rayan makes Alana cry even touch her selfishly without the slightest thought of Alana's feelings that have not had a taste for her.

Slowly a smile was engraved on Rayan's lips. Alana is a great person according to him. A figure that can grow his love in his heart with what it is.

“You are mine Alana.”

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By 4 am Ramon was awake. The man so painstakingly cleaned Sechil's messy clothes on the sofa, hung up even on the floor. Although several times shook his head because the condition of his room like a ship broke but Ramon still cleaned it up. Finished picking up all Sechil's dirty clothes, Ramon immediately put him in the dirty laundry basket.

“What are you doing?”

Ramon turned his head when he heard Sechil's voice. The man smilingly looked at Sechil who started to get up and changed his position to sit on the bed.

“Your dirty clothes are a mess, I'm done so the room is clean.” Answer Ramon.

Sechil. Somehow educated how Ramon received since childhood so that Ramon can be so painstaking in everything.

“Sorry, I trouble you.” Sechil.

“No papa. Next time neat yes, let our beautiful child rich you.” Ramon's smile made both of Sechil's cheeks instantly meet red.

“Aaan anyway?” Sechil melengos was embarrassed by Ramon's words.

“Ya already mending now you shower. Udah morning.”

Without replying to Ramon's words, Sechil got out of his bed and then walked quickly to the bathroom with his head bowed. Sechil doesn't want Ramon to see a red hue on both of his chuby cheeks.

In the bathroom, Sechil laughed, feeling very happy. A second later, the laughter disappeared. Sechil should not feel blushed to hear Ramon mention about the fetus he is carrying. What else did Ramon say that the fetus was their child. Something that is clearly not real because Sechil himself does not even know who the father of the fetus he is carrying. Obviously, that man is not Ramon.

“Stupid.” Bumpat Sechil on himself. Sechil was sorry because he blushed embarrassed even to feel very happy. Sechil felt he was not sane because he was happy with the words thrown by Ramon.

Sechil looked down at his stomach which was beginning to be seen. The next few days his womb will turn 4 months of age.

“You don't know how to.. But mommy will love you very much son.” Lirih Sechil with a trembling voice.

Sechil closed his eyes for a moment. His hands touched and gently rubbed his stomach trying to feel the presence of his future son.

“Maybe someday our life will not be easy dear. But mamah promise, mamah will always be there for you.” Sechil shed his tears feeling bitter. The presence of a fetus that is currently growing in his heart managed to stir his feelings. Between sad and happy. Feeling sad but also moved because God entrusts great trust in him. That Sechil will soon be a mother at a very young age.