I'm Not a Substitute

Episodes 174

Agatha's words continued to ring in Michelle's ears even as Michelle reached the home of her parents. Michelle was not sorry or changed her mind after seeing Dion's state. Michelle was simply not expecting Agatha who could not even understand her circumstances in the slightest. Agatha already knew of all of Dion's mistreatment of Michelle. But Agatha was still trying to get Michelle to sympathize with Dion. Agatha never once thought about what it was like to be Michelle, who during her introductions to Dion was made a slave to lust. Agatha thought only of herself and Dion without caring about the feelings of those around her.

“Michelle.”

Michelle undoes her intention of stepping up the stairs as soon as she hears Cindy calling out to her. Michelle turned her head and smiled as Cindy stepped closer to him.

“Mamah.” Michelle Smile.

“Where are you from, baby? How come telephone is not lifted anyway?” Cindy asked as she gently touched Sechil's shoulder.

Michelle was silent for a moment. Michelle thinks it's impossible for her to be honest with the mental hospital to see Dion and meet Agatha. Cindy would be mad at him.

“Eem.. It's a coincidence Michelle forgot to bring her a phone. The power is behind in the room.” His smile meant not to answer Cindy's initial question.

Cindy nodded her head understanding.

“Where are you from? Why not the same driver?” Ask Cindy again.

Michelle raised both eyebrows. Cindy seemed dissatisfied with Michelle's answer about her missed phone.

“Michelle.. Where are you from, nak?” Cindy repeated her question to Michelle who did not answer her question.

Michelle took a breath. Although honestly will make Cindy angry, but lying will also make Cindy angry if Cindy knows the truth.

“Sorry mah.. Michelle from hospital.” Michelle said slowly.

Cindy frowning.

“Hospital? who is sick? Temen you?” Ask Cindy who still can't catch Michelle's point.

Michelle shook her head slowly.

“Michelle abis to mah mental hospital.. Michelle was just wondering how Dion was doing. And also Michelle wants to meet with mamah Agatha.” Michelle answered him.

Cindy sighed then folded her hands under her chest. Cindy looked at Michelle with a different expression than before. If his expression had been so gentle and looked at him attentively, now his expression had turned flat and cold.

“What are you doing there, Michelle? Mamah has already said cut off all ties with the Agatha family. Mom doesn't want you to be influenced by Agatha's talk. You don't want that bad thing back you feel Michelle. Please understand mama's intent.”

Michelle lowered her head. Michelle knows Cindy's angry now. But Michelle also could not forget Agatha's concern for him. Michelle admitted Agatha was very nice to her first. Agatha was so considerate she did not even hesitate to scold Dion even though Michelle never complained about how bad Dion's attitude and treatment was to her.

“Sorry mah.. Michelle just wanted to talk to Mom Agatha about all of Michelle's thoughts on getting divorced with Dion. That's it.”

“That doesn't need Michelle. You don't have to be so respectful to people who never think about your feelings.” Sela Cindy with a slightly raised tone of voice.

Michelle swallowed her saliva with both eyes closed. Michelle is aware and understanding, Cindy's attitude changes to Agatha because of Cindy's great affection for her.

Seeing Michelle who lowered her head in front of him Cindy again sighed. Cindy regretted talking in a high tone to her beloved daughter. But Cindy couldn't help her emotions hearing Michelle was still seeing Agatha without her permission.

“OK, this time please forgive you Michelle. But not in front of him. Now you better eat after that you just rest. Mom wait at dinner table.” He said it then passed from in front of Michelle.

Michelle took a breath. This afternoon Michelle managed to make Cindy angry at him. Slowly Michelle raised her head. Michelle looked at Cindy's back away from her. Slowly a smile began to be engraved on Michelle's lips. Michelle knew Cindy loved her. Cindy is not going to Michelle again be hurt by Dion and Agatha.

“Michelle very dear same mom. Michelle is sorry that Michelle used to lie to you.” Michelle's mumbling is smirking.

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Alana looked at Rayan who was so focused on her drive. 2 today Robin continues to contact Rayan and tell about Caterine's condition that has improved physically but not mentally. Robin said Caterine did not stop screaming even at midnight, making Robin have trouble sleeping for the past 2 nights. While this afternoon, the two of them along with Sari and the others were already on their way to Rayan's childhood home.

“Why you?” Rayan asked who turned out to be aware of Alana's gaze.

Alana exhaled slowly. Alana does not know how Rayan thinks now so did not visit Caterine at all even though Robin kept contacting her.

“You have no joy for mommy?” Ask Alana directly at what she wants to know.

Rayan smiled.

“For now let mommy first like that dear. You do not have to worry and think too much about mommy now. I want you to think well. I want mommy to be able to realize all her deeds.” Answer Rayan calmly.

“But what about Robin? she must be uncomfortable with mommy's behavior now.”

Rayan sighed. Robin did contact him often and complained about Caterine which made him unable to calm his eyes.

“For that I talked to Robin yesterday. I told him not to always be in front of mommy's cell what else if it's night.”

“But what if mommy hurts herself again?”

“I'm sure mommy can still feel pain and won't repeat the deed again.” Reply Rayan.

“How about Sechil? Does he know about mommy's situation now?” Ask Alana again.

“Of course, I told her. But didn't say anything. Looks like he is focusing on himself in improving himself.”

Alana nodded slowly. Rayan did not let Caterine just like that. Rayan always monitors Caterine's situation through Robin. Rayan even told people to coat the walls and iron of Caterine cells with something soft so that Caterine would no longer hurt herself. But there is one thing that makes Alana surprised, Caterine never did a hunger strike. Caterine always regularly ate every dish given to her by the officers there. Perhaps it is also what makes Rayan calm and convinced that everything Caterine does by hurting herself is only a way for Rayan to feel pity and then release him.

Without feeling the car Rayan until right in front of the high gate towering family residence. Rayan smiled looking at her childhood residence.

“Sayang.” He looked at Alana.

“Ya.” Saut Alana smiled sweetly returning her gaze.

“Can I ask you something?” Rayan's question made Alana frown.

“What is it?”

Rayan grabs Alana's hand and holds it while wiping Alana's ring of wedding rings.

“In front of him please don't think about anything else. We live what we should live and we enjoy everything without feeling any burden. Because I just want us both to be happy together.”

Alana's speechless. Rayan was asking that Alana not discuss anything more about Caterine indirectly. Alana sighed then nodded her head with a smile that re-adorned her pink lips.

“Yes.. We will always be happy together.” Reply Alana.

Rayan smiled at him then kissed the back of Alana's hand long ago with both eyes closed.