I'm Not a Substitute

Episode 23

Rayan invited Alana to lie on a hairy carpet in front of the single sofa that had become her seat.

“As long as you know Rayan, I have absolutely no taste for Dion. I just hate it.”

“Then?” Rayan asked who made his hands as a buffer for his head.

Alana clucking. Tonight Rayan managed to make him cry so upset.

“You still don't believe it? You still jealous?”

“Ahem.” Nodding Rayan looked at Alana.

Alana clucking. Rayan really made her anxious too fed up.

“Ya already then I just sleep.”

Just as Alana was about to get up, Rayan grabbed her waist holding her back to keep Alana lying next to her.

“You will know the consequences if you wake up now Alana.”

Alana looked at Rayan annoyed. He always threatened and forced her.

“So what do you really want sir?” Alana asked in a annoyed tone.

Rayan plays the end of Alana's long unravelled hair then kisses her with both eyes closed.

“Continue.” Said.

Alana stared inexplicably at Rayan.

“What to continue? your jealousy? Don't be silly Rayan.”

Rayan laughed softly hearing that.

“Tell me all about Dion and you in the past.”

“What?”

“Why be surprised like that? You don't want to?” Rayan's question raised next to his eyebrows staring at Alana.

“Eem.. It's not. I'm just.. Feel no need to bring up about the past.”

Rayan grabbed Alana's waist again pulling her slowly making Alana lie on her side facing her.

“It's not about prying. But about openness to the pair.”

Alana breathed a sigh. Alana no longer had any reason to refuse. Alana looked at Rayan then looked down at the chest of the man's field. Alana's hand touched and played a smooth cloth white plain shirt that Rayan wore on the chest. Alana begins to tell her story in the past with Dion and Michelle. Starting from their introduction until finally they both have a love affair.

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“Dion.”

Dion took a quick glance at Michelle who entered her study. Michelle brought a cup of hot coffee on top of which billowed smoke with a very distinctive aroma. Coffee is one of Dion's favorite drinks.

“I'm positive.” Michelle said as she sat herself in the front seat of Dion's desk.

Dion remained silent. Her voice that had been dancing on the keyboard immediately stopped. Dion raised his head looking at Michelle who was staring at him with a sparkling look.

“It's been 2 months. I went to the doctor this afternoon.”

Dion closes his laptop then grabs a cup of hot coffee made by Michelle sipping it a little.

“Doctor also said I should reduce my strenuous activity. I can't think too much of maybe also angry angry including.” Michelle continued with a sweet smile.

Dion looked at Michelle. His face was so flat there was no streak of happiness at all.

“Dion me..”

Michelle was silent. His heart ached at the question that Dion asked him.

“What do you mean Dion?”

Michelle's eyes started to heat up. His heart felt like it was in a verse using a dull knife. Dion's question really hurt him.

“I asked whose child?” Dion again leaned his back against the back of his great chair.

Michelle swallowed her saliva, her breathing began to hunt with both hands clenched tightly. Dion asked as if Michelle was a lazy woman who could sleep with just any man.

“You're outrageous Dion.”

Dion clucking. His face looked very lazy looking at Michelle who started to shed tears.

“I just asked, is it hard for you to answer honestly Michelle?”

Michelle shook her head. Somehow Dion changed so much after they got married. Dion was sorry for preferring him over Alana.

“You still love Alana?” Michelle asked with a trembling voice.

Dion folded his hands under his chest staring at Michelle with a stare that kept flat.

“From first Michelle. You know I love Alana.” very much

Michelle started sobbing. His head looked down at his still flat stomach. Michelle is very sure that the fetus she is carrying is now the fruit of her love for Dion. Only Dion touched it. From they started to go to high school until now. Dion knew the inside even though Dion never gave her certainty. Dion even dated Alana even though almost every night he came to her and struggled hot in Michelle's bed.

“You know who I really hoped to be my companion for? Not you Michelle, but Alana. And one more thing, I never loved you as deeply as I loved Alana.”

Hearing that Michelle's hand clenched even more tightly. Michelle felt very hurt hearing what Dion said. Dion touched her passionately but said she didn't love him.

“Why do you always come to me if you love Alana? Why do you always spend the night in my room if it is only Alana you hope to be your companion?” Michelle said with a trembling voice. Michelle tried to keep her head up staring at Dion who had been from childhood in her love.

“Simple it's Michelle, Alana nice lady good.” Answer Dion lightly.

“I feel like no one harmed Michelle with what we did. We just like to do it. I'm not angry you're walking with the others. I'm even generous to take you with me while I'm with Alana. That is to show you that Alana is indeed a woman worth fighting for. You get it.”

Michelle's chest is getting kempis. Dion considers her an indirect woman.

“I just did it with you Dion. I'm pregnant with your child.”

“Oh yes? Then with Randy, Stefan, and Malik? What along the way you guys didn't do what? I doubt Michelle. You are very active so it seems impossible not to do that.”

Michelle shook her head. Michelle had indeed walked by the name called Dion earlier. But that's all Michelle did to make Dion jealous. Michelle never did anything with them, not even holding hands.

“I'm not that kind of woman Dion. I just did it with you.”

“Then why are you pregnant now? why not from High School? why not from before I met and dated Alana?”

Michelle was increasingly clueless about what Dion was saying. Obviously Dion had once told her love. You could even say Alana is the third person between the two. Alana was present when they entered college.

“I always take Dion's medicine. But that day I intentionally did not consume it. I..”

“You deliberately wanted to destroy my relationship with Alana didn't you? Or don't don't don't get pregnant this is also just your wits.”

BRAKKK !!

“Enough Dion.”

Michelle got up from her seat while pounding on Dion's desk because she could no longer hold back her emotions. With a face reddened and wet by tears Michelle stared intently at Dion who remained looking relaxed sitting in her chair.

“I will prove to you that Dion the fetus I bear is your flesh and blood. He's your son.”

Michelle passed after saying. When she reached the door, Michelle stopped.

“Originally you know Dion, god is very good because it keeps Alana away from jerk men like you.” Said.