I'm Not a Substitute

Episode 167's

Ramon invited Sechil to dinner at a food stall that was crowded by buyers. It makes Ramon feel scared to order food for Sechil what else after seeing the menu list of food in the stall that is not like the food menu at a luxury restaurant. Ramon is afraid Sechil won't eat him.

“Why you?” Sechil asked looking at Ramon confusedly.

Ramon scratched his non-itchy nape. Ramon is confused as to how it should be now.

“Rammon. You why the hell?” Sechil's confused expression instantly turned into an annoyed expression because Ramon looked like a fool in front of him right now.

Ramon remained silent with all his confusion. The menu book she held in her hands was very tightly frightened if Sechil took it.

Sechil clucked then grabbed roughly the menu book held by Ramon.

“Sechil me.”

“By the way, I'm laper.” Sela Sechil will not be denied.

Ramon could only sigh. Ramon felt insecure this time. Sechil is not used to eating the food in the menu that he is now reading.

“How does jengkol stew taste?” Sechil asked without looking at Ramon who was getting confused.

“This too... It seems like it's just rendang that I know how it feels. Ramons. Can I not order much? I want to try everything.”

“hah?” Ramon surprised. All the food menus listed in the menu book are delicious according to him. But Ramon doesn't know what Sechil thinks.

Regardless of Ramon's expression, Sechil immediately called the waiter in the stall and ordered all the food he wanted to try. Sechil ordered quite a lot even to the point of filling their tables.

Ramon who saw it could only gulp. All the food that Sechil ordered was a simple menu that Sechil might have never tasted.

“Sechil you.”

“I know all these foods. But I've never tried it.” Sechil was so enthusiastic. Sechil grabbed one of the menus he ordered and then tasted it.

“This tidy kale is very tasty Ramon.” Said smiling.

Ramon was silent for a moment. Ramon stared again at all the dishes in front of him ranging from sambal tempeh, fried tofu, and all the food that was very far from the word luxury. But of all the food that stole Ramon's most attention was the jengkol stew that Sechil ordered. Ramon wasn't sure Sechil would like it. Because Ramon itself is also very resistant to the distinctive aroma of the food.

“You why the hell from earlier diem continue? The food here is not good for you? Or am I messing with too much?”

Sechil's question and expression made Ramon react immediately. Ramon shook his head quickly.

“Not, not so dear.. I'm just afraid you don't like food here.” Answer Ramon honestly.

Sechil narrowed both his eyes. Sechil is not used to eating all the dishes in front of him. But Sechil believes he will get used to it and can accept it.

“Hh.. Come on, I'm laper. I want to eat all of this. You don't have to eat this. This is bad food.” Ketus Sechil then began to saturate the rice in the container in front of him and began to enjoy all the dishes in front of him.

Ramon was silent. The man looked at Sechil who was so voraciously eating all the dishes he ordered. Ramon really did not expect Sechil could easily accept changes that may never be in his mind for a while.

After Sechil finished his meal, Ramon also invited Sechil to leave the stall of course after paying for everything Sechil had spent including jengkol stew.

“I just ate this much Ramon. It feels unique and delicious. What else is the jengkolnya stew. Smell but tasteful. hahaha.” Said Sechil with his laugh.

Ramon smiled hearing that. Now Ramon is increasingly convinced that Sechil can compensate.

“Sechil.”

“Hhmm.” Saut Sechil who leaned his head again on Ramon's back shoulder. They were already on their way to another place that Ramon wanted to visit.

Sechil. Sechil feels his and Ramon's relationship over the past few months has been fine. They are even rare and almost never seem to fight because indeed Ramon can always understand and understand Sechil.

“What's wrong with our relationship?” Sechil asked confusedly.

Ramon sighed. At that time the bike stopped because Ramon and Sechil had reached the place that was the destination of Ramon.

Sechil immediately descended from Ramon's bonds. The woman frowned when she looked around.

“Taman?” He looked at Ramon as if asking for an explanation.

Ramon smiled then got off his bike. Ramon took off his jacket and put it on Sechil, who tonight wears a knee-length dress with short sleeves.

“We sit yuk?” Take Ramon.

Sechil nodded his head slowly. Confused, but Sechil follows Ramon.

Ramon invited Sechil to sit in a long chair painted white in the garden which was quite crowded that night. But Ramon did not immediately express what was controlling his mind. Ramon kept silent making Sechil start to worry. Sechil even felt afraid because Ramon suddenly touched on their relationship.

“What's with our relationship actually Ramon?” Ask Sechil who feels he can no longer wait.

Ramon sighed. Ramon remembered his lie to Claudia this afternoon. Ramon said the provisions he brought were supplies made by his mother, not his wife. That's what Ramon did because Sechil did not want their friend's friend to be told about the wedding that they were silent to hold.

“Based what you brought me this morning. That's very tasty.” Said Ramon quietly.

“I asked our relationship Ramon. Not good this morning or not.” Firmly Sechil who began to carry emotions.

Ramon smile. His lies were created because of the provisions that Sechil brought for him.

“Until when will we cover our relationship with friends in the campus?” Ramon asked looking at Sechil who looked surprised.

Sechil is silent a thousand languages. The woman did not want her college friends to know about her marriage to Ramon because she did not want Ramon to be ashamed of what else if he got ridiculed for marrying him who was pregnant out of wedlock.

“Ramon me.” Sechil doesn't know how to explain it now.

“Are you ashamed to marry me Sechil?” Ask Ramon again.

Sechil shook his head.

“Ramon.. I..” Again, Sechil's speech stopped. Sechil was confused as well fearing now.

Ramon looked at Sechil inside. His gaze implied a request for explanation to Sechil who never wanted others to know about their relationship.

“Tell me whatever the reason is Sechil.. I'll accept it even if you feel ashamed to have me married though.” Lirih Ramon who made Sechil's breath immediately hunt.

Sechil now feels in his chest.

“Not.. Not like that.” Nod again.

Unbearable to see Sechil who started crying, Ramon immediately pulled Sechil and hugged him gently. Ramon regretted asking that and made Sechil cry. Ramon should be able to understand and understand how Sechil feels. Ramon is now aware that Sechil is ashamed to marry him. Of course because Ramon has nothing.

“Sorry.. I'll try to understand now.” His whisper to the crying Sechil sobbed in his arms.

Ramon closed both eyes. There was a pain like an incision in his heart. But Ramon can't do anything. Ramon can only hope that one day he can prove to everyone including Sechil that he deserves to be with Sechil.