I'm Not a Substitute

Episode 181's

Later that night Rayan recounted her activities together with Sechil on Alana. And beyond a doubt. Alana sulks and says Rayan is kind because she did not invite him and when walking with Sechil this afternoon.

“I didn't know you were going to be like Alana. I just feel like I haven't taken the time to Sechil.” in a long time

Alana squinted both her eyes hearing what Rayan said.

“I just feel sorry for him for being home alone. That's aja.” Raman Rayan.

Alana pursed her lips. Alana understood Rayan's explanation. But Alana still felt Rayan chose love because it did not invite her to walk together.

“Pokonya I want to walk the same way.” Assertive Alana who does not want her will denied by Rayan.

Rayan smiled thinly. The man then pulled Alana who was standing in front of the bed that Rayan had gently occupied.

“I'll set the time later yes.. Don't get angry.” Said Rayan slowly.

Alana sighed then nodded her head. When Rayan was about to reach her lips Alana closed the lips of Rayan who almost stuck to her lips.

“I want to tell you something.” Said.

Rayan groaned in annoyance. Alana disperse the romantic atmosphere that Rayan just wanted to create.

“It's about Michelle and Aunt Cindy. Mom Michelle.”

Rayan frowning.

“What happened to the two of them? They bother you?”

Alana shook her head answering Rayan's question.

“They both came here and Michelle arrived to apologize to me and want to return good friends.” Alana.

Rayan's silent. Arriving Rayan remembered the condition of Caterine that Rayan had hidden from Alana. Not wanting to be honest or open, Rayan just does not want if Alana feels constantly blamed by Caterine. But now Alana even told me something that Alana could have been reluctant to tell her. Something that Rayan thinks is not very important may also be for Alana.

“Michelle also told me everything about what they both did behind me first. Michelle was honest that the two of them were hiding a relationship that had even been established before I was present in their midst.”

Rayan smiled. The man looked at Alana attentively, listening intently to what Alana was telling him.

“But you know Rayan? It turns out Michelle was just taken advantage of. Michelle is enslaved by her own feelings. Feelings that can be said to be wrong.” Connect Alana.

Rayan laughed softly.

“No false feelings Alana.” Rayan responds to Alana's story.

“You mean?” Tanya Alana did not understand what Rayan said.

“Every human has a saturation point of Alana even on their own feelings. What Michelle used to feel might be so beautiful that she forgot you were between them. But the two of them also did not realize that gradually the feeling began to meet saturation point. And that saturation point appears when you are present in the middle of them. But they were unconscious and continued to carry on, forcing them to stay together which ended in a catastrophe like what they both feel now.”

Alana looked at the handsome face of Rayan who was so close to her face. Rayan's crest that is usually neatly combed back now looks messy and slightly elongated to almost touch Alana's forehead.

“They both?” Alana asks because Rayan mimicked the names of the two of them for Dion and Michelle.

“Do I need to call her your ex-boyfriend dear?” Ledek Rayan asked making Alana pursed her lips back.

“You suck.” Sebal.

Rayan smiled then landed her kiss on Alana's lips. Rayan kissed him with a friendly, sweet taste that makes Rayan always feel opium and reluctant to let go of the chewy lips Alana.

Rayan releases her kiss because she does not want Alana to be out of breath because of her kiss. Rayan then laid her body beside Alana. His gaze stared straight at the sky of their room.

“I also want to tell you something Alana. It's about mommy.” Said Rayan slowly.

Alana frowning. Alana tilted her body to look at Rayan who was beside her.

“Mommy why?” Alana began to wonder.

Rayan sighed. Rayan believes Alana is not a pessimistic woman even though Rayan says everything about Caterine who always blames her.

Slowly Rayan began to tell Alana everything. About Caterine's strange behavior even up to what Caterine said about Alana and Sari who were thought to be targeting Rayan's property. In reality, it is inverted. Caterine who is after all Rayan's property and intends to master it himself.

Alana who heard that was silent. Whatever Caterine says about her and Sari, Alana doesn't care. Because the reality of Alana and Sari is not like that. They didn't use Rayan. They are just grateful for the blessings God gives by trying to take good care of them.

“I'm sorry for putting you in such a wrong position, baby. But I never stop hoping mommy will change and can accept you and bu Sari well.” Rayan looked at Alana with a guilty look.

Rayan felt that maybe it happened because of his mistake which from the beginning was less firm on Caterine so Caterine continued to be bad to Alana, his own wife. No responsibility Caterine even intends to get rid of Alana and the fetus in her womb by sending poisonous food that makes her have to languish in prison as now.

“You are not wrong. Maybe this is the way God taught me not to be big head what's more arrogant. God gave me a favor and I should try to keep it as a form of gratitude.” Sweet Alana smile.

Rayan smiled. Though sometimes stubborn, Alana has a wise heart. Alana is able to think clearly even though circumstances continue to corner her. Rayan knows it's an attitude that not everyone has. Not everyone can be calm if in the position of Alana who is always scapegoated by Caterine, her own father-in-law.

“You don't feel revenge for what mommy did?” Tanya Rayan fondly stroked Alana's cheeks.

“Mothers and school teachers even the lecturers who taught at my college used to never teach me the theory of revenge.” Alana answered making Rayan laugh. Revenge is not in the lessons of attitude and grammar. Revenge arises because of anger and a heart that feels hurt. Revenge can also be done without being taught. And the word revenge can only be avoided with a calm heart and a positive mind on the destiny that God has set.

“But it seems you once asked me to help avenge the pain of your ex-lover dear.” The word Rayan reminded Alana of her intentions first.

“Oh okay.. Let's just say I was a khilaf. I'm not gonna be like that anymore. I don't want my son to imitate that bad attitude.” Alana's reply made Rayan laugh again.

“Yah's.. Let's be a good mirror for our children.” Rayan's smile then pulled Alana and again grabbed Alana's lips, kissing her affectionately.