I'm Not a Substitute

Episode 16's

“Stop sir.” Alana told Lim.

Mr Lim according. The man who was no longer young stopped his car right in front of a tall gate towering the new residence of Michelle and Dion.

Alana took off the black glass she was wearing. The woman in a knee-length maroon red dress was smilingly staring at the luxurious residence of Dion and Michelle. Alana will not be afraid anymore. There is Rayan behind him, where he takes refuge if Dion and Michelle intend to retaliate for what he will do.

“Mistress, sorry before. Madam Sari advised me to take care of the madam and remind the mistress if the mistress stepped wrong.”

Alana's smile instantly faded. Alana took a breath. That's mother. His mother was too kind so many people underestimated and stepped on his pride. Maybe one of them is Rayan.

“Pak Lim, I just want to make them also feel what I feel. What is wrong.”

Mr. Lim smiled. Previously Mr Lim had known Alana because Alana often came to see her mother to make sure that the woman who is very meritorious in her life is fine.

“Let god reply madam.”

Alana clucking. Alana believes that God will not let a betrayed person be happy. But now Alana has a chance. And Alana didn't want to waste the opportunity.

“Pak Lim, I did it with my husband's permission.”

“But your husband is not god mistress. Mr. Rayan is also an ordinary human being. Indeed Mr. Rayan has everything but.”

“Pak Lim, I will not go too far. I just want the two of them to feel how painful it is to be betrayed. That's it.” Sela Alana made Lim silenced.

Mr. Lim nodded slowly. His job as an older person is just to remind. Whether you hear it or not, the most important thing is to remind you.

“Ya mistress.” Said slowly.

Alana looked back at the luxurious residence of Dion and Michelle. Dion and Michelle were out. The two of them walked towards Dion's car. The car that Dion used to drive Alana to find work.

“We're leaving now sir. To mom's house only.”

“Good mistress.”

Mr Lim immediately drove Rayan's luxury car before Dion and Michelle saw.

While on the way to her mother's residence, Alana again remembers her togetherness with Dion and Michelle. Alana has never once been suspicious of their relationship. They are always compact when giving birthday surprises to him. Although sometimes Alana feels strange on her own because Michelle is always stalking her and Dion but Alana never thinks like that. Alana believes the two were best friends since childhood. Michelle helped him unite with Dion while they were still at university.

Alana lowered her head staring at the pair of expensive shoes she was wearing. Luxury dress is also a bag that the price of Alana know not cheap. All that Rayan prepared. Alana never asked.

“Pak Lim.”

“Ya mistress.” Mr. Lim glanced at Alana from the car glass.

Alana was silent for a moment. Alana had never known Rayan before. All Alana knows is that Rayan is only her mother's employer. The employer who said his mother was a kind and generous person. But in fact, the one Alana met was another. Rayan is cruel and forced.

“Have arrived madam.” Tell Mr. Lim.

Alana's daydreams are crumbling. Alana rolled down the windshield and smiled when she realized she was already around her mother's house.

“I'll be down.” He said to Lim.

“I can open the car door myself sir.” Alana's smile then immediately went down and ran into her mother's new residence.

Mr. Lim, the old man just nodded and then came down and joined the security guard who was at the post next to the gate of Sari's house. Mr. Lim did not expect that his co-worker Sari was now an employer just because Alana was so similar to Sakura.

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Meanwhile in another place, Rayan was standing with Luky beside her. They were standing in line in front of Sakura's tomb.

“She is very similar even really the same as Sakura.” Lirih Rayan's.

Luky just sighed. Luky knows who Rayan is referring to.

“But they are different. Their personalities are not the same.” Rayan.

Luky can't say what. Luky is just trying to be a good listener. Luky knows that Rayan doesn't need a solution. Rayan just needs to be listened to.

“You know Luky.. I used to think after Sakura's departure I wouldn't be able to feel anything else. But when I saw Alana standing in front of the gate that day I felt Sakura coming back to life. Sakura back for me.”

Rayan gulped his saliva making his jakun move up and then down again.

“But now I realize, as similar and as any other they both Alana is still Alana. He's not Sakura. She's different, very different.”

Rayan stared at the headstone right at Sakura's long name. The shadow of Sakura's sweet smile instantly overshadowed her but it was only a few seconds since the shadow had instantly disappeared.

Luky stared briefly at Rayan then looked at Sakura's headstone.

“Master.. I'm sorry for not being able to come up with a solution. But mister, mistress Alana and mistress Sakura are indeed different. They are not the same sir.”

Rayan nodded her head slowly. The solution is needed by Rayan. But there are already those who listen to his grief Rayan already feel happy.

“Sakura.. I feel guilty for him Luky. But I also couldn't possibly continue to hope for a taste in a deceased person. Alana is now my wife. It would be very painful if I continued to think Alana was Sakura's replacement. Isn't that Luky?”

Luky swallowed his saliva. What Rayan said is true. But from the beginning Rayan married Alana is because Rayan considers Alana as a substitute for Sakura.

“Master if I may know, how do you feel about madam Alana?” Ask Luky slowly.

Rayan seemed to think. When compared to his feelings for Sakura and Alana is clearly different. Maybe because the two are different too.

“Sakura, she always managed to make me feel special. But Alana.. He is unique and can make me feel challenged. This morning he kissed my cheek. And my heart felt very pounding just because of it.”

Rayan laughed at the end he said. For the first time Rayan was so open to Luky, his personal assistant and best friend.

“If you want to laugh, just laugh. I won't be angry. This time I was stupid. I admit it.”

Luky smiled faintly then shook his head slowly. Luky never felt what Rayan felt. Being loved and loving is still taboo for Luky.

“Master, sometimes what we think is good is not necessarily according to God is also good. So I think living what is already there is the right choice. God never sleeps, sir. God will surely give his best to every servant.”