God's Choice of Mate

Hastings Rani

After performing the prayer Isya Wirda also helped me to rest again and go to her bed.

For a while Wirda came out briefly from his room carrying a tray filled with glasses of water and preparing a medicine that I should drink before going to bed at night.

"Ran you took the medicine first yes," said Wirda as he sat beside me and lifted the glass from the tray he had brought from the kitchen.

Slowly my hand reached a little and felt the existence of the glass that Wirda brought for me. But Wirda quickly pulled my hand and gave the glass from his hand to mine.

" This is Ran's medicine" Wirda said, giving me some medicine on my left hand.

" Yes, thank you very much Wir" I said.

" Yes Rani" replied Wirda.

" Bismilbornohmanirohim" I said slowly.

Then I carefully put the medicine that Wirda had given into my mouth and drank water from the glass that Wirda put on my right hand until it ran out.

Gleck...Gleck...Gleck...

The white water that I drank flowed down my esophagus and pushed the medicine you drank into my body.

"Alhamdulillah," I said softly while rubbing my lips wet from splashing water.

"Goddessa Ran, you are thirsty apparently," said Wirda, laughing at me a little.

" Hehehe, yes Air," I said with a slight grimacing smile.

" You why not tell me if Ran's thirsty? I can get you a drink" Wirda asked.

" It's okay Wir. My thirst came just now Wir," I replied.

" Yes is Ran. Whatever you need and need. I hope you never feel hesitant to ask for my help. You know what I mean by Ran," Wirda said to me.

" Yes Wirda, I have said many thanks to Wir. Because you always help me" I said slowly.

" Rani how many times have I told you.You don't keep saying thank you and sorry to me .I don't want to hear those words anymore from your mouth Ran. Anyway I'm happy if you're here in my house. At least I feel more at ease for your safety than you are at the Suprapto house" Wirda said.

"Yes Wirda, I understand your words. But still I can't cover my bad taste for you and your family. Because I have to trouble you guys. Moreover, I do not know until when I will settle in your house and depend on you and your family Wir. And for the feeling I feel. I feel so very bad for you as well as for your whole family, and for that I deeply apologize for really distressing and inconveniencing you, Wir," I said with a sad face and a voice that was so slow and heavy.

Hugh.. heard the sound of Wirda exhaling .She didn't want me to say that to her at all.Wirda looked at me while holding my fingers.

" Ran, I'm confused and have to explain to you how many times. That I and my whole family including my mom and dad did not mind accepting your presence in this house at all. Didn't my mama also tell you before.That you are like my sister like my real daughter Ran.And we are all sincere and sincere to take care of you and take care of you until you recover Dan. If not with me and my family .Where are you going, Ran?" asked Wirda while looking at me and I just silently listened to Wirda's words.

Wirda then held my cheeks slowly while saying to me, "I and my family actually did not do much for you Ran.It is precisely you who made a lot of sacrifices for everyone, especially my family Ran," wirda said with a slightly raucous voice.

"What do you mean Wir? I've never done anything for you and your family" I said slowly.

" That's what you think Ran is, but the reality is not .Don't you remember how when Brother Reno's family destroyed all of my papa's business and took away all the assets my papa had? Until my father had to be rushed to the hospital and had a heart attack .And at that time my mother and I were really confused because all the assets we had were gone and my papa was slandered for an accusation he never made. And all of that was caused by his family Brother Reno. But you without talking to me and my mama just received approval from Kak Reno's family just to save me, my mama and my papa.Thanks to you Ran,kak Reno's family gave us back the rights we had after they took them all away. And said you are also Ran, my papa's good name became clean again both regardless of the predicate of a corruptor. And if at that time you didn't do all that Ran. So at this time my papa will be gone.I will be an orphan and my mother will be a widow," Wirda said with tears in her eyes.

"Why are you saying that Wir?" I asked Wirda as she fumbled to hold her face.

Wirda then clasped my fingers tightly while crying.

"Hiks....Hicks ...Hix...if at that time you did not help my family Ran.I can not imagine what would happen to me and my mother.And if you did not help my family at that time.Surely now you will not experience this kind of suffering with loss of your vision Ran. Though at that time you also have the opportunity to be free from the shackles of the Reno family. But you didn't because you were more concerned with my life and my family than yourself. You sacrificed your freedom, you accepted the terms of them and continued to remain the wife of Sister Reno in order to save my papa's life and restore all the rights we have. And all your sacrifices will never be able for me and my family to pay or pay Ran.And for your situation now is also due to my family Ran.Hiks.Hiks....Hiks..," said Wirda with trembling lips and sobbing. "Have Wir not said that, for I have done nothing for your family" I replied gently, hugging Wirda.

Slowly my tears flowed. My heart was carried away by the sadness and the sound of the roaring sobs from Wirda.

"That is you Ran, you do not want to always be reminded of the good that you have done,hiks, I beg you not to say sorry for bothering me with my family" Wirda said softly in tears.

"Yes Wirda then forgive me for my words that may have hurt your heart yes" I said softly as I felt Wirda's face and wiped the tears on her cheek.

"You didn't hurt my heart Ran .I just don't want you to feel alone and like a burden to me and my family .I don't want you to have such thoughts Ran. To me you are my sister .I'm happy if you can live happily and through all these hardships" Wirda said, holding my hand.

" Yes Wir.Thank you, you are my best friend" said slowly.

" Yes Ran is the same and you are the best friend I have ever had" Wirda replied to me.

The two of us hugged for a moment to let go of the sadness and novelty that had previously enveloped our hearts .Wirda then rubbed the teardrop marks on my cheek and I also felt slowly wiping the tears on her cheek. I smiled a little and felt in the darkness of my vision Wirda also returned my smile that I felt from my fingers rubbing her cheeks gently. Not long after that Wirda also took water for both of us to drink after evaporating a sense of novelty that burst in our hearts.

Then Wirda corrected my sitting position so that I could sit half lying down.Then Wirda changed to sit up on the bed and sit next to me.

"Ran how are you feeling now?" Wirda asked me.

"Much more relieved and feeling looser Wir," I replied slowly.

" May I ask you something Ran?" Wirda asked me. "By ...Of course it can be Wir , just say Wit. What do you want to ask me?" I told Wirda.

And for a while I heard Wirda just being quiet and I felt like he was thinking about something.

" How do you shut up Wir?he said he wanted to ask me something .Just tell me what you want to ask. If indeed I can answer it then will I answer?," I said to Wirda.

" Alright Ran," Wirda said as she breathed.

"At that time we were at the Police Station.I saw and felt something different from you when I met with Reno. I see something in your heart and mind. Is what I feel that right Ran?," asked Wirda trying to pry her grief at me.

"Yes Wir. I don't know if I feel an unpleasant feeling .And I don't know what it is but my mind and heart feel raging and unsettled .But I myself do not know what disturbs the turmoil in my heart" I told Wirda.

"Does the restlessness of your heart have anything to do with Brother Reno and the divorce suit you filed for Brother Reno?" asked Wirda trying to guess my heart.

" I don't know Wir I don't know myself" I replied.

" Ran if I could tell you based on what I saw and saw when you and Reno spoke alone. I saw something strange about Brother Reno's attitude towards you" Wirda said to me.

"What do you mean Wir?" I asked Wirda.

"From what I saw Reno's sister it was like hiding something she was trying to cover up" Wirda replied.

" Why can you say that Wir?" I asked Wirda.

" Because I see the peculiarity of the attitude that Brother Reno has done to you. The attitude he has shown all along. It's as if it doesn't reflect what it looks like from her true self" Wirda explained.

"You mean what Wir is?" I asked not to understand.

" I saw his eyes Brother Reno from a distance.When he looked at you I could see the meaning of a different look in his eyes.The way Brother Reno looked at you was not the same as the attitude he showed all along from the look in his eyes.From the look in his eyes ...," said Wirda cut off and did not continue his words.

" From the look in his eyes, Reno, why Wir?" asked Wirda with curiosity about the continuation of his words.

" Right you want to know the continuation of my words Ran?," Wirda asked me. "Yes Wir" I replied curiously.

" But you're not angry if I say it" Wirda asked again .

"angry? why am I angry Wir.Kamu actually makes me curious about the words you want to convey to me, " said I to Wirda.

" Alright this Ran because you forced want to know the continuation of my words.Then I will convey to you. From the look in his eyes Brother Reno I can conclude. If she loves you, Ran" said Winda to me.

" Hahaha." I laughed at Wirda's words.

" How do you laugh Ran? Is that a funny thing for you?" asked Wirda

" Of course I am Wir. Because it's impossible and highly unlikely that Reno's sister loves me .Because as far as I can tell in his heart Brother Reno is only hateful and full of hatred for me. And how could a person like Reno's sister have more love in her heart than me" I doubted Wirda's views.

"But don't people often say Ran. Hate is the meaning of love because the greater a person hates another, the more he has begun the growth of a bud from the seeds of love. Because the difference between hate and love is that there are no clear boundaries" Wirda said.

"But it still can't be Wir ," I refute.

" Why are you so sure like that Ran? what cannot happen in this world. Everything is in the grasp of God's power.

Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala has the power to be able to turn a person's heart back as well as his heart Kak Reno Ran.

And it is also with God's permission that the heart of an evil and cruel person like Reno can suddenly turn good and be filled with love for you in an instant.

Sis Reno will love you so quickly.Yah because man as a creature of God Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala has a heart that is difficult to guess.

However, who would have thought that God could easily flip over Brother Reno to love you Ran," Wirda explained to me.

" Yes Wir I understand and understand your words .And I do not doubt the power that Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala has in changing one's attitude and heart .But to believe that Brother Reno likes me. I don't think my mind can handle that very well. My heart still has a hard time believing and accepting these things. For me it is an impossible thing without doubting the power that God has over Reno's heart" I replied softly.

" Why are you suddenly asking me like that Wit?" I asked.

" Yes because when I saw you and Brother Reno were talking alone at the police station. I see the attitude of the two of you looks different .Especially for Reno .He seems to try to cover his feelings for you by continuing to display scenes of bad attitude and as if he really hates you.But without him realizing that in the bottom of his heart actually he was already interested in you. But I don't know what makes him seem like he wants to hide his feelings to everyone, especially you Ran.And that's what I still think?" Wirda told me.

" Wirda you are just like a psychic" I said with a smile.

" No Ran. I meant to tell you this based on my intuition and vision that I saw Ran .Oh yes Ran you haven't answered my question. How do you feel about yourself to Reno?" asked Wirda again to me.

" Yes, my feelings are normal with Brother Reno .Nothing special" I said. "Is that really Ran?," asked Wirda hesitatingly.

" God willing I am Ran.I am sure" I replied to Wirda.

"Little bit. Do you not have any interest in Reno even if it is just a little?" asked Wirda again to try to convince her.

" I don't know Wir. Never mind Wir talking and talking about Reno. I don't want it" I asked Wirda.

" Why is it that when you talk about Reno you suddenly become upset with Ran?" Wirda said with a slight smile and poked at my waist.

"Stop Wir" I asked Wirda.

" Then are you really sure that you are going to separate and divorce Reno Ran?" Wirda asked me again.

" God willing Iya Wit.I think this is the best path for me and also Brother Reno .She can also be freed from forced marriage with me .And can continue his life without having to feel upset and continue to hold his hatred for me. And so will I who will start my new life" I replied.

"Hmm... You mean to continue a new life and marry Kak Roy so? ," said Wirda teasing me again.

" What are you talking about Wir" I said.

"Then how do you feel about Roy's own brother Ran? Didn't you know that Brother Roy has put his heart on you for a very long time .Even until now his feelings for you have never changed .And getting bigger in loving you. Do you also not have feelings for Brother Roy as well?" asked Wirda again to me.

"I can't answer your question Wit?" I told Wirda.

" Why Ran?" asked Wirda to me.

" For I do not understand my own feelings .So far my relationship with Kak Roy is only a friend who is so close," I replied.

" Is it because you are married to Reno that limits and blocks your feelings for Roy Ran?" Wirda asked me.

" I don't know Wir I can't interpret the picture of my heart to you. But so far I feel comfort and tranquility if Brother Roy is near me" I replied to Wirda.

"Then if really Kak Roy has divorced Rere and you have also separated from Kak Reno.After that Kak Roy came to propose to you as his wife. Would you accept it and marry her Ran?" asked Wirda.

" I haven't thought about it yet Wir " I replied.

"Actually what's stuck in your heart Ran right now?" asked Wirda.

" I don't know Wir I just felt something that made me riled up .Oh yes Wir.Will you get me a prayer bracelet I put in front of my little bag, "I told Wirda.

" All right Ran I'll get you.Before a while," Wirda said as he hurried to stand towards my little bag that Wirda had hung near her closet.

"It's Ran. Nice tasbih bracelet .Where did you get Ran?" said Winda, giving the bracelet and putting it in my right hand .

"This is a gift from Kak Roy," I said to Wirda.

"When did Brother Roy give it to you Ran?" asked Wirda .

"When you came to Reno's house and told her that Roy will move and settle in Switzerland.Kak Roy gave me this prayer beads as a reminder and memory of him," said Wirda.

"Oh means it's been a while with you and you still keep it well Ran. That means you really like the gift from Kak Roy.Means you like Kak Roy ," said Wirda again teasing me.

" What if we keep a gift that belongs to someone else and then describe that we also love the person who gave the item," I asked Wirda.

" I think it is Ran.Logikanya if we do not like the person we certainly will not accept the gift and return the gift. After all, why do we keep the things of people we do not want or do not like. Well if we have feelings for the person who gave the item to us must be the item he gave to us we will take care of and we take care of it as well as possible .So if I think you like Kak Roy too, right Ran?, "asked Wirda again.

However, before I could answer Wirda's question suddenly there was a thunderous rumbling sound that roared out.

DUARR....DUARR....DUARRRR

The first sound of lightning was heard.

" Athaghfirullahaladzim," said Wirda and I.

" Subhanallah, holy God" I said later.

" Why do you say Subhanallah Ran?" asked Wirda to me.

"I say Subhanallah when there is lightning to purify Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala or praise Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala in the midst of his greatness. Saying Subhanallah when there is lightning is also done to acknowledge that Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala is the only sacred substance in this world so that we can not expect protection other than Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala, "I told Wirda.

" Yes Ran, I understand. Thank you Ran for the explanation, "Wirda told me.

" Same as Wirda, "say me.

I also prayed to hear lightning.

"Allahumma la taqtulna bighodobika wala tuhlikna biadzabika waafina qobla dzalika.

(That is: O God, do not kill yourself with Your anger, and do not corrupt yourself with Your punishment, and forgive me before all that)," I said again, praying to God after hearing the first thunder.

Then the flash of light from the lightning made the atmosphere of the night increasingly gripping.

DUARR....DUARR....DUARRRR

The second sound of lightning was heard.

"Subhanal-ladzi yusabbihur ra'du bihamdihi walmala-ikatu min khifatihi.(It means: Most holy (God) The thundering One glorifies with praise of Him, (and so) angels for fear of Him)" I said, praying to God after hearing the second thunder.

"Yes Ran ,ayo we should sleep this night too," Wirda told me as he fixed the pillow and put a blanket on me.

" Yes Wir" I said slowly and nodded my head.

Tesss... Tesss... Tesss...

Not long after that came the rain that fell to the earth and the air slowly became cold. Then the raindrops that fall are getting longer, faster, firmer and thicker.

Byurr...... Byuuurr...... Byuurr.....

I immediately read the prayer after hearing the heavy rain.

"Allohumma innii as-aluka khoirohaa wa khoiro maa fiiha wa khoiro maa ursilat bih. Wa-a'uudzubika min syarriha wa syarri maa fiiha wa khoiro maa ursilat bih.(Meaning: O God, I ask You for the goodness of this wind, the good that is in it, and the good that You send with it. And I take refuge in You from this evil of the wind, the evil that is in it, and the evil that You send with it), "I said softly.

"The lights I turned off, didn't I?" Wirda asked.

" Yes Wir please, "i replied.

Cetekk..,

Wirda's voice turned off the lights.

my dark eyes are becoming more and more pitch black .Everything suddenly became quiet and gloomy .There was only the sound of the heavy and heavy rain.

My heart momentarily felt a sense of uneasiness and a sense of erratic huffiness .I slowly took the prayer beads that were still in my right hand and placed them on my chest while praising the greatness of Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala.

However, for a moment somehow my mind went to Kak Roy. My heart felt a sense of unease and anxiety towards Kak Roy. But I don't know if that is.

O Allah, may you protect and guard Brother Roy wherever he is from bad things and those who intend evil to him, I said in my heart.

Ughhhh....

I took a slow breath and tried to close my eyes. But I don't feel sleepy and my eyes don't want to be closed. My mind and my heart became riled up again and again flashed the shadow of Kak Roy who had burst into rotation in my heart and mind at this time.

Brother Roy, may you be well and nothing bad happen to you, I said again in my heart trying to calm my heart that was troubled by his circumstances.

Cold air ambushed my body instantly .I felt a shiver running through my body lying on the bed.

I pulled the blanket over me slowly to cover my body and tried to shut down. But once again my efforts failed and were in vain. My mind floated back to remember Kak Roy who continued to disturb my sleep.