God's Choice of Mate

Talk to Ummah.

"What does Rani think?" asked Ummah to me as she gently rubbed my head covered with a veil.

" Rani only remembered the late Mother, ummah, "I replied with a slightly sad face.

" Why did Rani suddenly remember the late Mother?" asked the ummah slowly and gently.

"When talking to Ummah.Rani felt a soft touch of the ummah like the touch that Mother did to Rani. Similarly, the soft words of Ummah are almost the same as the words of the late Mother, "talk myself slowly.

Ummah rubbed back my head slowly. She seemed to think of me as her own daughter. Whether it's just my feelings or it's true. But I really felt the warmth of every touch Ummah gave me. And from the figure of himself I also felt the presence of Mother who was beside me.

"Alhamdulillah ummah was glad to hear it. If the presence of the ummah reminds Rani of the Mother Rani. And that is a sign that the presence of the ummah benefits Rani. It's okay to miss someone who has left us. That sign in our hearts there is still affection and love for people who have left us.And that means the late Mother Rani has a position or a very special and special place in the heart of Rani ,"ummah said slowly.

" Yes ummah during this late Mother is everything for Rani. Many things Rani learned from him both from his rigor, sincerity, strength to face every test and even his extraordinary patience. And in every test that Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala gave to the late Mother not even though Mother complained never even she did not express gratitude for all the favors that Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala gave the destiny God set for him was painful and painful. But Mother always taught Rani. How to be a sincere servant and accept everything God gives. Because in fact, we are God's and God is the most entitled to determine anything against us. That's what Mother always said to Rani .So when Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala called Mother to his side. Rani is really so devastated. And that was the lowest and weakest point in Rani's life .However, once again all the advice that the late Mother said made Rani sincerely accept the destiny that God gave to Rani. Although sometimes when the ordeal comes Rani feels very weak and longs for the caress and embrace of Mother's affection. But Rani realized all that would not be possible and was recovered. For now the Mother is happy and calm in the protection and care of God. Then when Rani met with the ummah the longing came back to the surface of Rani's heart. There was a tightness that stuck in the recesses of Rani's heart.Dan was eager to hug the mother and spill all the fatigue, disappointment, sadness for all the things that constantly stuck and whack, "I said with teary eyes.

" I'm sorry Rani ya ummah. Rni instead shared Rani's heart with Ummah. Though we have just met but Rani instead troubles Ummah, "my word is slow.

"It's okay Rani," said the ummah slowly while holding my fingers. "Ummah does not mind if Rani wants to consider the ummah as the mother of Rani herself .Honestly when Ummah first saw Rani for the first time. Ummah also felt like there was a special bond in the heart of Ummah to Rani .And perhaps it was a feeling that God placed in Ummah's heart against Rani. So anytime when Rani misses the late Bundanya Rani. So Rani can come to Ummah to spill all the complaints of Rani. And Ummah will be ready to listen to everything. Because Ummah has considered Rani also like the daughter of the ummah itself, "saying the ummah by pulling my body slowly and hugging me.

Ummah's hands so gently rubbed my head.

And I heard the soft voice of Ummah praying for me;

“Allahumma Bariklii Fii ‘Aulaazdii Waahfathhum Wa Laa Tathurra Hum Waarzukna Birrohum".

“O Allah, bestow much good upon the sons of the servants, guard them and do not woe to them. Give us their obedience, " said Ummah in a clear voice.

I closed my eyes to enjoy the warmth of the affection of the ummah in the chant of his prayer which I so sincerely felt. And I did not feel my tears flowing down my cheeks slowly. It was so soft and quiet that I felt .It is as if the Mother is present in the figure of the ummah and gives an abundance of love and affection to me.

" Aamin ya robbal alamin.Syukran 'alaa kulli syai'in (Thank you for everything) ummah, "my word softly while wiping my tears.

" Yes dear, equally, " replied Ummah.

" How does Rani feel now is it better?, "ask the ummah to me.

"Alhamdulillah ummah Rani feel better and feel the peace of Ummah's heart. All this is thanks to the ummah, "I replied slowly.

"No dear all is not a blessing of the ummah. But all because Allah is subhanahu wa ta'ala. Allah is the One Who gives peace of heart and life. God is the ruler of the entire universe and the master of every heart of His being. As in the Qur'an Surat Al-Fath 48: Verse 4 which reads:

"Huwal-lazi anzalas-sakinata fi qulubil-mu'minina liyazdadu imanamihim, wa lillahi junudus-samawati wal-ard(i), wa kanananallahu ‘aliman hakima(n).

It means: It is He who has lowered the serenity into the hearts of believers to increase the faith in their faith (which already exists). To Allah belong the armies of the heavens and the earth, and Allah is All-Knowing, All-Wise.

"Masya Allah ummah the sound of the holy verse that the ummah chanted is so sweet and peaceful to hear it, "my speech.

" Allah, tabarakallah. Yes Rani. Alhamdulillah, that whatever our conditions and circumstances as humans are both happy and difficult we must be obliged to remember and all that is remembered is Allah Ta’ala, "said ummah.

"Yes ummah" I said.

" Would Rani want to rest now?" asked my ummah.

" Ummah Rani still wants to sit here and talk with the ummah, "I replied to the ummah.

"Well if that is Rani's wish then the ummah will be here accompanying Rani and we while talking, "reply to me.

"Thank you very much, ummah. Because you want to accompany Rani here, "my words.

" Kak Fariz and Kak Rafa are certainly very lucky to have a mother like the ummah, "i said.

" Thank you for the compliment, son. But the ummah is still in the process of learning to be a good mother for the two sons of the ummah, "ujar ummah low.

" Masha Allah tabarakallah Ummah indeed Rani must learn a lot to be a patient and tough woman like the ummah. Especially later if later Rani was given by God permission to be a mother. So Rani wants to be a mother like the ummah who can educate her children. Being children who are obedient, devoted, virtuous, obedient to God and happy to help others, "my words with pride to the ummah.

"Wafiika barakallah, and may Allah bless you too son, "said ummah to me.

"Ummah believes later if God allows Rani to be a mother. So Rani will certainly be the figure of a mother who is sholehah, loving, gentle and very loving to her children. Being a mother is hard but delicious. The importance of the role of a mother .Even more there are many pleasures that can only be felt by a mother such as the pleasure of warmth when the baby is breastfeeding, the pleasure of looking at the clarity of the baby's eyeballs when breastfeeding, the pleasure of hearing the word "Mother" when the child begins to be able to talk and there are many other pleasures Ran, God willing you will feel it too. Being a mother is the greatest and greatest gift of the Creator. Therefore, the ummah is proud and happy to be a mother to the two sons of the ummah namely Fariz and Rafa, "talk the ummah again to me.

" Aaamin, robbal alamin, "my name.

While I and the ummah were talking then suddenly the sound of footsteps quickly walked towards us. Ummah then turned to look for the source of the sound of footsteps that quickly walked towards us.

" MasyAllah Nak Wirda apparently, "talk ummah with a soft voice and sound relieved.

"Hehehe Yes Ummah. Sorry Wirda surprised the ummah yes" said Wirda grimacing.

"It was a little bit of a surprise .Ummah guess who walks like running in such a hurry. Oh, my son Wirda, have you come home? Is the search with Rafa over?," asked Ummah to Wirda.

So I heard Wirda walking closer and he sat down beside me. Then I heard Wirda take a short breath and heard again by me his irregular breath. Probably because of the hurry .

"Alhamdulillah Ummah is made easy by Allah . Wirda and Kak Rafa have discovered the existence of a lawyer who used to work at the residence of his late grandfather Rani and currently a lawyer named Mr. Gondrong Widodo has been here with us .And want to meet with Rani," Wirda said in a very excited and very happy tone of voice.

" Thank God. Allah eases our affairs, O Wirda, "said the ummah with gratitude.

Then Ummah rubbed my head again. "Alhamdulillah yes nak.Usaha done by Rafa and Wirda is not in vain. Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala answered all your prayers during this time .At least now there is a little way to make it easier to solve your problems, baby. After this God willing all your problems will be solved one by one Ya Rani, "said the ummah to me.

"Aamiin, "I replied.

" Thank you very much Wir for all that you did to me and for all your efforts that you have not stopped doing. What you and Rafa are doing today means a lot to Wirda. And only Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala will repay the kindness of you two" I said to Wirda.

"It's Ran don't you keep saying thank you. I'm happy to be able to help you and you don't know how happy I am. After Rafa and I were able to successfully find the whereabouts of Mr. Gondrong Widodob and can directly bring him here to meet you .I'm so happy Ran, though, at least what I and Rafa do has opened the way little by little to rid yourself of the problems that hold you.Hopefully after this I hope you will be free as soon as possible from the shackles of the Suprapto family. And when that day comes that you are truly free from the Suprapto family. I'll be the first to be very happy with Ran.And I can't wait for that day to come, "Wirda said to me as she clasped my fingers.

" Yes fine then. Let's end our conversation soon. And immediately meet Mr. Gondrong to immediately resolve the issue of his inheritance rights Rani. So that we can determine the next step. Come on boy!, "take the ummah to me and Wirda .

I nodded slowly, "Yes good ummah.

Then the ummah rose to its feet slowly followed by Wirda. Then the two of them led me up to my feet and stepped slowly towards the living room where Mr. Gondrong was waiting and waiting for my arrival.

In my small steps I felt a new beginning waiting in my long and gloomy journey. The fingers of Wirda and Ummah strengthened me in their strong grasp.I never felt alone even though I lived alone as an orphan and an orphan. But my solitude does not make me weak and fragile in undergoing all the trials that Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala has given.

All because of the upbringing of the late Mother who always taught me to always be patient, rely and never complain for every thing that God destined and gave me.

at first it all felt so heavy that sometimes when I imagine it I feel difficult to get through it. But Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala never let me alone and never let myself far in His arms of love. It is God who guides my every step in the darkness of my vision today.

Verily, because Allah is Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala all this time, I have been strong and strong through every test He has given me.

Now my steps are not wavering ,my heart will not tremble and my soul will be strong enough to try to break free from the shackles of Reno's family.In the small steps of my heart accompanied by Wirda and Ummah beside my left and right sides, I will be able to, I became strong. Now with full hopes to meet Mr. Gondrong as the late grandfather's lawyer. There is a kind of feeling a little happy and blue and began to appear to the surface of my heart.

O Allah remain with me, guide me, strengthen me and my duty to remain in Your way in Your care, my mind as I continue to walk towards the living room.