God's Choice of Mate

Subduedness.

Kak Aisyah's gaze was blank, her heart filled with fear and disappointment. He was so frustrated with himself after what he did to me, while walking slowly with a puffy face he grabbed a photo of Ustad Fariz that Kak Aisyah deliberately displayed in the picture figura. He took a candid photograph of Ustad Fariz, unbeknownst to Ustad Fariz.

While carrying a picture figura Ustad Fariz made of wood and glass. Aisyah walked slowly towards the sofa by her bed window, then she threw her body into the sofa while looking at the picture of Ustad Fariz. Her tears continued to flow profusely to vent her heart that was so deeply wounded. In her cries, her lips quivered in a groan calling the name Ustad Fariz.

"Why Ustad? You are not aware of the love I am showing you? Why do you not understand the sincerity and magnitude of my love for you. What is special about Rani to you, so that not even my feelings and attention are reciprocated. Huhuhuhu... Huhuhuhu.... I can't live without you Ustad Fariz, I love you so much. Hix... Hix.. Hix... You do not know how I have crossed the boundaries of all norms just for your sake and only to reach for your love, but you still do not care about the feelings I have. Then why am I here in this world, if you refuse my existence and my love. Huhuhuhu... ".

PYARRRR....

Aisyah's sister slammed the Ustad Fariz photo figura onto the floor. Glass shards from figura covers splattered everywhere. In the sight of his pushy eyes, he continued to look at the scattered shards of glass. Aisyah was so fragile that she got up from her seat, ignoring the pain in her body. Aisyah's sister just walked on the shards of her feet that were not covered with any pedestal. As a result, blood flowed from both feet. Brother Aisyah was still like a person who lost consciousness of himself, and suddenly he immediately threw down his body and sat on the broken glass from the picture figura.

His gaze was so empty and lethargic.

" If I can't have you completely, then why should I see you happy with another woman... "

Aisyah's sister who kept crying because of her heartbreak, and without thinking long on purpose she continued to injure her wrist with broken glass. The pain of his wounded body does not make him pain compared to the pain of heartbreak due to his love of clapping one hand. Aisyah's sister grew limp, with blood continuing to flow from her wrist.

"Ustad Fariz, I love you so much. If I cannot have it, I am powerless to live this life. "

BRuuukkk.....

Aisyah's sister fell unconscious, with blood continuing to flow.

Kak Aisyah's mother who heard a noise from Kak Aisyah's room, immediately rushed to Kak Aisyah's room.

"Aisha... Ayesha!, "call the mother a little shouting.

But there was no reply from Aisha, which made her mother even more curious and quickly accelerated her footsteps.

Geck.. Geck.. Geck...

Sister Aisyah's mother knocked on Aisyah's bedroom door.

"Assalamu'alaikum Aisyah., "call the mother.

"Aisha, this is my mother" said the mother again.

However, there was still no answer until the mother took the initiative to move the doorknob of Kak Aisyah's room.

Techs..

Easily the doorknob can be swayed.

" Oh, it turns out that Aisyah's room door was not locked apparently. Is he sleeping so as not to answer my call, "murm the mother of Kak Aisyah.

Because Kak Aisyah's mother already knew that the door of Kak Aisyah's room was not locked, then she immediately pushed the door of Kak Aisyah's room that put her foot in.

DRAGGOS..

Door opens.

Kak Aisyah's mother continued to call Aisyah, until her eyes were surprised at her daughter's body lying unconscious with many blood stains while holding a photo of Ustad Fariz.

" Aisha!, "pekik the mother loudly.

Kak Aisyah's mother immediately ran over to Aisyah and raised her daughter's body, shouting for help to call the father and the people at home so that they could immediately help Aisyah.

Kak Aisyah's mother cried hysterically and made all the other members of her family come to Kak Aisyah's room.

Not long after that Kak Aisyah's father immediately lifted the body of Kak Aisyah to immediately be rushed to the nearest hospital, so as to get help.

***

At Reno's place where he was detained. His mind kept wandering thinking of his unshakeable feelings for me.

The longing that was buried in the bottom of his heart, a sense of belonging to the full that he could not embrace even if it was only limited in wishful thinking.

His longing heart can only be endured in the hope that the miracle of the Power will bring its longing to my heart.

The anxiety in his heart was not as severe as before, after Mr. Warden gave a lot of advice for him about managing his feelings. While sitting looking at other prisoners who are on the move. Brother Reno stared at the bright blue sky that stretched out. His thin lips occasionally developed a small smile as his illusion produced a mirage of me smilingly staring at him.

"Astaghfirullah, "he said slowly roused himself from the hallucinations.

Brother Reno rubbed his face with his right palm while exhaling his breath slowly.

"Although all I see is illusion, it looks real and can slightly treat my longing for you Dek Rani. Now I sincerely lillahi Ta'ala of all the fates of love that God will set for me and you, " said Brother Reno, closing his eyes.

The words of Mr. Warden always crossed his mind, that is, the soul mate will not be exchanged and will return to his soul mate despite the distance, time, time, kak Reno resigned and let Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala who will take care of the heart and feelings of prospective life partners later. Whether it's me or not even in her heart, Reno wishes that I was the mate God chose for her. But now he really entrusts it to Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala. Now he just continues to focus on improving himself so that he can become a good Muslim.As the words of Mr. Warden told him. Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala promised that good people will be betrothed to good people. And the bad will be met with the bad.Kebelief is what now makes him to continue to try to improve himself until he hopes to be properly juxtaposed with myself with the permission of Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala of course.

"Son Reno... Nak Reno.!, "call Mr. Warden a little scream.

Brother Reno who was pensive quickly turned to look at the Warden who was walking towards the place where Brother Reno was sitting.

"What's the matter, sir?, "asked Brother Reno.

Huhhhhh... Huh... Huhhhh..

The voice of the Warden gasped for breath while stretching out his right palm to tell Brother Reno to wait quietly for a while. Then the Warden sat beside Brother Reno while adjusting his breathing pattern that was still wheezing.

Brother Reno was silent while waiting for the Warden to become calmer.

"What makes you like this? Is there something important you want to say?, "asked Kak Reno back.

The warden nodded his head.

Brother Reno while thinking about the important things that will be conveyed by the warden to him.

After waiting for a while, finally the Warden was ready to say important news to Kak Reno.

The warden's left hand patted Kak Reno's shoulder softly as he said

"Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rojiun.Allahummaghfirlaha warhama wa ‘afiha wa’fu ‘anha. Also grieve deeply Nak Reno. May the house of your sister named Riska be forgiven all her sins and accepted all her acts of worship by Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala. "

Reno was fixated and speechless, as if she had been struck by something that made her truly like a person who lost control of herself and her mind.

His tears flowed without him noticing, once again he had to be destroyed and injured to receive the departure of one by one family member.

"You are patient, my son. I got this information from the mental hospital that took care of your sister. Almarhumah was so depressed and continued to hurt himself continuously which resulted in him having to lose his life. "

The Warden with his mother's gaze explained about the situation that happened to Ms. Riska to Reno.

Brother Reno did not budge in the slightest until the Warden who left him did not realize and Gubris Reno. His heart was already so deeply broken accepting the trials that it was ceaselessly testing him.

***

Ummah was not sitting next to me. I don't know why Ummah is so restless and doesn't want to be far from me.

"It feels like Ummah can't wait to want you to get married to Fariz soon. "

I smiled looking at Ummah's face.

"If Ummah could want this second also Fariz said the qabul ijab to make Rani as his wife. "

"Please Miss Princess, there will be a process. Besides, we already know if Nak Fariz and Nak Rani are ready to get married, then why Miss Putri is nervous" said Bik Siti.

Ummah again showed her face of anxiety.

"Don't know why Bik, I feel it would be much better if Fariz and Rani get married right now, "reply Ummah.

However, Bik Siti and myself have not yet responded to the words of Ummah.

Ustad Fariz, who had been sitting back, suddenly walked quickly to my place.

Ustad Fariz's face became increasingly tense after receiving a call.

We all looked at the face of Ustad Fariz who looked increasingly panicked.

"What's the matter, son?, "asked Ummah who couldn't stand the curiosity of his year.

Ustad Fariz lowered his head slightly.

"I had to get word from the hospital where Dek Reno's older sister was being treated. "

"I mean Ustad Fariz is Ma'am Riska.

Ustad Fariz nodded his head.

"What's wrong with Nak Riska? Son Fariz?, "ask Bik Siti curious.

"The sister of Dek Reno has died, because she continues to hurt herself and cannot be helped immediately. "

"Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rojiun, "sayku, Ummah and Bik Siti simultaneously.

I was so jolted and my mind immediately recalled Brother Reno and worried about his situation.

What will happen to Reno, I thought.

Brother Reno continues to get a trial that is not ceaseless, hopefully this does not further make it worse and more desperate, my mind.

Ummah saw the anxiety in my face.

"Rani, are you okay?, "asked Ummah looking at my heart.

"Yes Ummah, "I answered while nodding my head slowly.

But still Ummah seemed unsure of my answer, he was afraid that this sad news would spark my sympathy for Brother Reno.

Ummah quickly shifted our conversation about my wedding with Ustad Fariz which will be held soon after I returned from this hospital.

"Oh, yes dear how if now we choose a dress or clothing that Rani will wear during the procession ijab qabul later, so that everything can be prepared from now on, so that everything can be prepared from now on, so when wearing clothes or clothes when Rani and Fariz's akad are comfortable, how dear?, "ask Ummah.

I looked at Ummah's face and knew that Ummah's question was deliberately posed to me, so that I would not worry about Reno and stop relating to her family or Reno's life.

"How about Ran?, "ask Ummah again.

I woke up from my daydream.

"Akh, it's up to Ummah. Rani follows Ummah which is important her clothes are comfortable when used and not excessive and cover the aura of course. "

"It's up to Ummah, baby. "

Ummah rubbed my head, then turned his gaze towards Ustad Fariz.

"If Fariz how?" asked Ummah.

However, before Ustad Fariz answered questions from Ummah. Ustad Fariz's cell phone rings back.

Ustad Fariz quickly picked him up after seeing from the screen who called in who called him.

DEG...

My heart is pounding, is this the phone from the hospital where Ms Riska is being treated. Is there any more information, I thought silently as I looked at Ustad Fariz who was seriously taking the call.

Meanwhile, Ummah also continued to invite me to speak so that I would not focus on the news of Ms. Riska's death.

Until suddenly, Ustad Fariz said a little loud Istighfar which made my focus, Ummah and Bik Siti back to Ustad Fariz.

"What else son?, "ask Ummah who can not hide his curiosity.

Soon Ustad Fariz hung up and put the phone back in his shirt pocket. With a slightly tense and surprised face Ustad Fariz looked at Ummah's face.

"Barusan Fariz got a call from his mother Ukhti Aisyah, Ummah."

"Well what else did Aisyah have her mother call you son?, "asked Ummah with a face that was thin and did not like.

Ustad Fariz looks lethargic.

"His mother Ukhti Aisyah told Fariz that Ukhti Aisyah is currently hospitalized for intentionally injuring herself. "

"Astagfirullah, "said Ummah in surprise.

" O God, "say Bik Siti.

And I was just as surprised to hear this news.

" It must have been Ayesha's ruse or subterfuge to draw your sympathies to Nak, and she didn't want to be blamed for her actions against Rani. However, you should not see her until you are officially married to Rani, "say Ummah firmly.

Ustad Fariz and I fell silent.

We both thought about Ukhti Aisyah's situation, especially me who was worried about Kak Aisyah. Regardless of what he did that hurt me.

I got lost in my feelings and thought about what I should do next.