God's Choice of Mate

Love Ustad Fariz.

Abi and Enjid had first entered their respective rooms to rest. While Ummah and Bik Siti are still near me.

Ummah rubbed my head slowly, "It's already night baby. Come Ummah and Bik Siti take to the room. "

For a moment I was silent listening to the words of Ummah. The tense and confused face seemed to be clearly drawn from my face.

Ustadz Faris, who looked at me as if he knew the feeling of anxiety and worry in my heart, and then shortly afterwards Ustad Fariz walked closer to me and Ummah. "Ummah and Bik Siti rest first, let Dek Rani and I will follow later, " said Ustad Fariz trying to explain to Ummah.

However, Ummah who heard the words of Ustad Fariz slightly scrunched his forehead, he seemed unsure of the words of Ustad Fariz, "No son, no son, Ummah wants to take Rani to your room and Ummah wants to make sure you really rest .again Rani looks tired after a long day of procession. So you two don't have to talk anymore, and just take a break in the room."

Ummah then looked towards me

and slowly pulled my hand to stand up, "Let's go baby!."

While Ustad Fariz looked silent as he looked at me, "It's okay Ummah, later after Fariz and Dek Rani are sleepy we will definitely go to the room and rest. Ummah did not have to worry yes, "the request of Ustad Fariz to Ummah but Ummah still refused the request of Ustad Fariz.

I also just kept quiet while looking at Ummah and occasionally glanced at Ustad Fariz, where my heart was pounding and unsettled, but no matter how hard Ustad Fariz tried to help me out of discomfort. However, still Ummah continued to impose his desire so that me and Ustad Fariz immediately went into the room, and finally we both could only obey what was asked by Ummah. After a long drama pull I also relented and resigned.

In my footsteps following the footsteps of Ummah, he led me up to the room of Ustad Fariz. From my eyes, the faces of Ummah and Bik Siti smiled like they were coding and signaling something I didn't understand. But I just kept quiet while continuing to dissolve in my uncomfortable feelings and was very anxious, because it was so very tense. While Ustad Fariz just followed the footsteps of the three of us from behind, and slowly as we continued walking, not long ago we all arrived in front of Ustad Fariz's room which looked a little different from the flower decoration on her doorstep. From the front of Ustad Fariz's room. My sense of smell can already smell the scent of a flower so sharp pierced my nose.I also slightly rubbed my nose with my fingers and occasionally pressed my cheek to eliminate the tension so very high enveloped me. Ummah then gently rubbed my shoulders gently, "Darling from today your room is here with Fariz.And all the belongings Rani has been moved here all.Hopefully tonight the daughter of Ummah sleeps soundly and does not think about anything else that not useful, dear. "

I can only smile a little while nodding my head a little. While Ummah looked very bright looking at me, his hand opened the door to Ustad Fariz's room and led me into the room, followed by the footsteps of Bik Siti and Ustad Fariz.

I looked around Ustad Fariz's room, which had been conjured up with dim lighting decorations and a sprinkling of roses on the bed. With pillowcase, ivory white bolster combined with soft pink color. Then there is a bouquet of heart-shaped flowers that adorn the wall on the bed.

Apparently when myself and Ustad Fariz came down, Ummah must have Bik Siti, Pak Budi and his other assistants prepare all this, my mind in my heart.

After me and Ustad Fariz went into the room. Ummah then pulled Bik Siti's hand to immediately get out of the room and closed the door Ustad Fariz.Seeing the actions of Ummah and Bik Siti.I could only be silent while looking at the departure of Ummah and Bik Siti from the room these. And in my silence the voice of Ustad Fariz broke my silence, "Dek Rani please take ablution first, after this we pray together two raka'at," Ustad Fariz pinta to me .

I just nodded slowly, then walked to the bathroom to immediately take ablution, and after finishing Ustad Fariz took turns to take ablution water after myself. While waiting for Ustad Fariz to finish taking the water. I also looked for a prayer and prayer mat in the closet. With such an astonished look I saw all of my clothes and items neatly arranged in the closet in such a quick time that I could only shake my head, while continuing to look for prayer equipment that I can finally meet as well. So I slowly put on the mukena and put the sarong cloth on the bed so that it can be used by Ustad Fariz. After that, I spread out two tables facing towards the Qibla.

I have sat on the prayer mat wearing my white face decorated with full gold embroidery.

Not long after that Ustad Fariz came out, and as I thought. He also immediately put on the sarongs and squats that I had prepared, with his slow steps .He also went to my place, and immediately invited me to perform the prayer of two rakaat.I also without saying much directly obey his orders and become his makmum.In the silence of the silent night and the atmosphere is so shady full of silence, and, indeed making our worship more solemn coupled with the chanting of sacred verses from a long letter read by Ustad Fariz adds to the pleasure of my solemnity bowing before the Creator.

After I finished praying, I kissed Ustad Fariz's hand slowly, and Ustad Fariz rubbed my head. Where for a moment our eyes meet at one point of eye gaze, which makes our feelings become intertwined in the silence of the night so touching. My feeling was thumping even more as his fingers touched my face-covered head. My blood flow felt warm flowing in a tightness that made my tongue feel weak to speak. And this is the first time that the eyes of my eyes and the eyes of Ustad Fariz are resting at such a close distance, that every breath I can feel so softly upon my face. However, sometimes his breath felt quick to touch my cheek, and in the tension created between me and Ustad Fariz, suddenly her thin little lips smiled broadly at me as her fingers gently rubbed my head. I seemed to be fixated and so amazed to see his face that was so soothing and beautiful.Paras who had been trying for me to submit his gaze and I avoided his gaze when looking at me. But now the face and the eyes have been lifted full staring at my face without shame and doubt.

Ustad Fariz said to myself, "I'm sorry Dek Rani, because before marrying Dek Rani.I once felt in love with a girl and where the first time I met her. I already had the intention of wanting to marry her and to this day I still love her.Even my feelings towards the girl deepened."

My heart was so jolted at the words from Ustad Fariz's lips. There was a sudden feeling of pain lodged in my heart.The words I didn't want to hear at all from him. My eyes also glazed over with confused thoughts wandering through my mind. Feelings of fear emerged suddenly.The fear of failure and bitterness in wading through the household heresy began to be imagined and crossed my mind.

O Allah, whether my decision to accept the proposal of Ustad Fariz is wrong, my mind while slightly lowering my eyes to hide my sadness and shock after hearing the words of Ustad Fariz to me. And Ustad Fariz was silent, looking down at me who was drowning, whose fingers were still holding my head.

It felt like my neck was suffocating and unable to speak, but I gathered the courage to ask Ustad Fariz.

I wiped my tears floating at the end of the corner of my eyes, after which I raised my bowed head slowly looking at the face of Ustad Fariz who was also looking at me seriously. "If Ustad loves another girl, then why did Ustad Fariz ask me? Did Ustad Fariz ask me to be Ustad Fariz's wife just out of pity and at Ummah's insistence?. "

My tears were back in tears with a tightness that enveloped my heart getting more pain and pain.

But Ustad Fariz just kept quiet and looked at me seriously and deeply, as if he didn't want to take his eyes off me.

And with a trembling voice, I asked Ustad Fariz again, "Why does Ustad Fariz want to marry Rani and not marry the girl Ustad Fariz loves? And does Ustad Fariz regret having married Rani?. "

Without me noticing my tears streaming down my cheeks, I slowly tried to remove the fingers of Ustad Fariz he had placed on my head. However, the moment I removed Ustad Fariz's fingers from my head and was already in a downhill position before me.

Ustad Fariz's fingers clasped my fingers firmly.

DEG..

The feeling of palpitations grew stronger and more disturbing to me.

Then, I looked at the smiling face of Ustad Fariz looking at me.

Where one of her right hand fingers held my fingers, and one of her other fingers wiped my tears. I wanted to dodge it because of the hurt feelings I felt, but the power was not able to fight. With slowly Ustad Fariz brought himself closer to me, where the distance of our faces was so close that I was able to smell the fragrance of his body. And her fingers gently rubbed my cheeks and said, "The girl I love is you Deck

Rani's. "

I was surprised to hear his words. Ustad Fariz smiled and kissed me gently and affectionately.

I was unable to speak at the words of Ustad Fariz, until the fingers of his hand pulled me slowly to be in his arms.

Subhanallah, Most Holy of God.

I truly feel the incredible love of Ustad Fariz for me. Where all this time the secrecy of his love for me was so awake in his attitude, expression, and words, until finally Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala united his love in silence with myself in a holy and great marriage bond. So secret Ustad Fariz kept his love for me, even all this time I never realized it at all.