God's Choice of Mate

Bad News.

Mr. Budi and Ustad Fariz came out of the doctor's room dealing with me with a lethargic and uninspired face.

Pak Budi's face was swollen and looks swollen because he did not stop crying since.

"Son Fariz we sit here for a while, "ask Mr. Budi to ustad Fariz.

" Good sir, "answer ustad Fariz agree to Pak Budi's request.

The two of them then sat in a waiting chair not far from the doctor's room they had been in before.

Mr. Budi sat down softly and said to Ustad Fariz.

" Kid Fariz how are we going to convey all this to Nak Rani? huhuhuhuhu.., "said Mr. Budi while crying and wiping his tears repeatedly.

Ustad Fariz was silent for a moment while thinking about something.

" What a Boy Fariz. I really don't imagine any of this happening to Nak Rani. Everything he had was lost and taken away by the Suprapto Family. And now he must accept his bad destiny back which is the loss of his sight. Huhuhuhuhuhuh.., "said Mr. Budi while crying bitterly.

Ustad Fariz tried to strengthen Mr. Budi while patting Mr. Budi's shoulder gently.

" Astagfirullah, O Allah, "said Mr. Budi with trembling lips.

" Budi must be strong and patient. This is all part of the test that Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala gave to all of us, especially to Dek Rani.

For that we must be stronger, stronger and patient in accepting the decree that Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala gave to the Deck of Rani. We are not as the closest people who must support the Rani Deck to be rigid and receive the results of the examination that Dek Rani has done. If we become weak then how will we help Dek Rani to be strong in accepting her destiny, "said Ustad Fariz slowly while advising Pak Budi to make her calm.

" Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala will not test his servant beyond his ability. Believe me Mr. Budi, God willing Dek Rani will be able to pass all the tests that God gave him. Because I believe Dek Rani is a strong woman, strong and patient and not weak as we imagine. For that Mr. Budi do not dissolve in sadness. Because the best we can think of is the survival of the next Dek Rani. How we try to help the healing of Dek Rani, in order to survive the test of God with the state of loss of the ability of the sense of sight in seeing. We have to make it strong and vibrant to live his life before Dek Rani gets an eye donor, "say ustad Fariz with a very serious face to Pak Budi.

Heard the words of Ustad Fariz. Pak Budi also seemed to agree with the thoughts conveyed by Ustad Fariz.

It was also quickly that Mr. Budi wiped his tears and stopped crying despite the sadness and pity enveloping his heart for my current condition.

" And how shall we convey this news to Nak Rani?, "asked Mr. Budi while looking at the face of Ustad Fariz and continued his words again, " I will not be able to afford Nak Fariz to pass this news to Nak Rani.".

"Sir don't worry. I'm the one who will tell the news from the doctor to Dek Rani. The sooner he finds out about his condition, the better it will be for Dek Rani to be sincere and adapt to accept his present condition?, "answered Fariz.

Mr. Budi nodded, "Alright Nak Fariz, let's now head to Nak Rani's room in the care, "take Mr. Budi to Ustad Fariz.

Ustad Fariz smiled slightly in response to a remark from Mr. Budi.

Then the two of them got up from their seats and walked towards the room where I was being treated.

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Right now some nurses have helped me back from the examination room. Accompanied by Bik Siti and Wirda and his younger brother Ustad Fariz, Kak Rafa.

The nurse put the infusion back on my right wrist.

"How are you doing now Rani?, "asked Wirda while holding my left hand.

"Ba. ik Wirda, "I replied slowly.

"Alhamdulilah if so Rani. I'm glad to hear it, " said Wirda.

"What about your tongue when you speak? Does it still feel stiff and moan Rani?, "asked Wirda again to me.

"Su. dah mu.. lai yuk un.. tuk ber. talk, "my answer slowly with still limited but I feel there has been progress.

"Thankful if so Rani, " said Wirda.

"Oh yes Sus. Can patients be invited to take a walk outside for example to the park in the hospital to breathe fresh air and sunbathe for example?, "asked Wirda to the nurse.

"May, but not for now. The doctor also advised after this the patient should rest to recover his energy after undergoing the examination. Tomorrow morning we take the patient for a walk

using a wheelchair, of course, "the nurse told Wirda.

Wirda nodded and smiled at the nurse.

"Yes Ran, you better rest now. So that you get healthy again soon, " said Wirda while rubbing my head.

"Then I and Bik Siti waited on the sofa waiting in front of ya Ran. Please sleep and rest, "Wirda said to me.

"Yes Ran, "reply me with a voice that is smoother than before.

I felt tired and very sleepy after the examination.

Both of my eyes were cupped slowly and it felt heavy to immediately close my eyes and fall asleep.

While I slept. Bik Siti and Wirda sat on the sofa waiting in the room where I was treated with Rafa.

Czechkkk....

The door opened slowly and saw Mr. Budi ustad Fariz entering simultaneously into the room where I was treated.

Wirda, Bik Siti and Kak Rafa looked towards Pak Budi and Ustad Fariz who looked a little lethargic and sad-faced.

I saw something strange coming from both of them. Wirda also spontaneously asked what made Pak Budi and Ustad Fariz look lethargic and sad like many thoughts.

"Is there something going on Mr Budi ?why do the faces of Pak Budi and Kak Fariz look so grim and sad like that?" Wirda asked curiously.

"Rani just fell asleep, Mr. Budi. Sister told Rani to rest a lot and maybe Rani was also exhausted from undergoing a series of examination procedures that drain her energy. Oh yes, Mr. Budi has not answered Wirda's question. Why does Mr Budi look so grim and sad?" Wirda asked again to Mr. Budi.

Mr. Budi looked at Wirda and then walked slowly and sat on the sofa near Fariz and Rafa which was located opposite Wirda and Bik Siti.

Wirda continued to look towards Pak Budi and Ustad Fariz who looked so strange with his attitude that was not as usual.

After sitting on the sofa Mr. Budi was silent for a while while looking at Ustad Fariz. He thought about explaining everything that happened to me to Wirda. But his lips were heavy to say. His chest felt back tightness and pain when thinking about the results of the examination I had undergone.

Ughhhh.....

Repeatedly Mr. Budi seemed to take a long and deep breath to really make his heart feel plong and relieved. However, it still seemed like he had no power to withstand the sorrow of the calamity that had befallen me at this time.

Tesss...Tesss...Tesss...

The tears of Mr. Budi also flowed without him knowing and wanting. Bi Siti and Wirda who saw Mr. Budi crying were surprised and increasingly wondered what really happened to make Mr. Budi look so agitated sad and very hit.

"But why?" asked Bik Siti with an anxious face.

However, Mr. Budi remains speechless .He bowed languidly while wiping his tears slowly.

Seeing Mr. Budi like that, Wirda was getting more curious. Then he got up from his seat and approached Pak Budi to ask what had made Pak Budi become sad like that.

Wirda sat next to Mr. Budi while holding Mr. Budi's arm and said, "Why is Mr. Budi sad like this?Does all this have anything to do with Rani?" asked Wirda with a look of anxiety and panic.

Mr. Budi was silent as he looked at Wirda's face with teary eyes.

"Sir Budi Wirda please say something. Don't make Wirda more curious and anxious. Did the doctor say anything about Rani when Mr. Budi and Ustad Pariz saw the doctor?" Wirda asked again.

Mr. Budi nodded slowly. He also wanted to try to say everything the doctor told him to Wirda. With his lips twitching he tried to tell Wirda about myself. But once again his tongue had no power to say all that and again his tears spilled.

"Ma.af right, Mr. Nak Wirda.Ba.pak can not convey everything to Nak Wirda?" said Mr. Budi with trembling lips.

"What's really going on, sir?"wirda was full of anxiety.

Ustad Fariz looked at Mr. Budi who continued to grieve despite trying to toughen up.Ustad Fariz understood the condition of Mr. Budi who was still shocked and surprised to accept my current situation.So Ustad Fariz even tried to explain everything Wirda asked Mr. Budi.

"Dek Wirda, let me answer all the questions of the Wirda Deck" Ustad Fariz said calmly.

Wirda who heard Fariz's words then turned to look towards Ustad Fariz.Soever with Pak Budi, Bik Siti, and Kak Rafa their views were all fixed on Ustad Fariz.

Wirda and Bik Siti looked so tense and anxious.

Ustad Fariz was soft and slow to read the do'a to facilitate his speech so as to convey to Wirda and others about my current condition.

"Robbis rohlii shodrii, wa yassirlii amrii, wahlul 'uqdatam mil lisaani yafqohu qoulii. (That means: "O my Lord, stretch out for me my bosom, and ease for me my business, and remove the rigidity from my tongue, that they may understand my words"). (QS. Thaha verses 25-28), "say Ustad Fariz slowly.

"Dek Wirda and Bik Siti before I will convey what you should indeed hear for that I beg Dek Wirda and Bik Siti not to be hysterical or getting late in the sadness,"ustad Fariz said slowly.

Wirda and Bik Siti became increasingly tense.

"After the last examination conducted by the doctor to Dek Rani then by looking at all the results attached from the results of the examination.Then the doctor concluded that Dek Rani was permanently blind and can only be cured if Deck Rani gets an eye donor" Ustad Fariz said.

Wirda who heard the words of Ustad Fariz immediately sat down limp and released his hand from Pak Budi's arm. Her tears flowed with empty eyes. And his lips trembled.He looked so very surprised and hit listening to the results of my self-examination conveyed by Ustad Fariz.

Likewise with Bik Siti who cried hysterically and could not resist her sadness.

"Astagfirullah O Allah Nak Rani.....Huhuhuhuhu....Huhuhuhuhuhuhu.!," shouted Bik Siti while crying.

"Bu Siti and Wirda I beg to calm down and can hold each other.I understand this is very important for all of us. But we must not be too drawn into grief. For we must be strong and strong in order to give spirit and support Dek Rani so that she can accept her condition and continue to live her life. For that I beg Bik Siti,Deck Wirda and Pak Budi together with me.We work hand in hand to help Dek Rani pass the test that Allah Subhanahu Wa ta'ala gave him.So that Deck Rani can sincerely patiently and confidently face the test from Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala. Insha Allah slowly for the sake of Allah will open a way out for the healing of Dek Rani," said Ustad Fariz trying to calm everyone.

"Yes Brother Fariz.Wirda agreed with the words of Brother Fariz,"sahut Wirda who had wiped his tears and tried to make himself rigid.

Then Wirda held Mr. Budi's arm and stared at Bik Siti.

"Pak Budi and Bik Siti also can not dissolve in sadness as has been conveyed by Ustad Fariz. We must be strong and firm for Rani and if we are weak how Rani will be strong to undergo her suffering alone" Wirda said slowly and softly.

Pak Budi and Bik Siti nodded slowly and wiped their tears at the same time.

they were trying to suppress the sadness in their hearts in order to make me strong and unharmed by the results of the examination that shocked me.

GEDUBRAK.....

everyone who was on the sofa waiting for me in the hospital room immediately turned their heads and rose from his seat towards the direction where I was lying on the patient bed.

And how surprised they were to see me who had been under the floor while bowing limp.

"Rani..!," cried Wirda hysterically.

"Why did Nak Rani fall like this?" asked Bik Siti while helping my body to get up.

"Son Rani O Allah" said Mr. Budi hysterically.

But I fell silent in my head bowed languidly.

How Ustad Fariz's words continue to echo in my mind, "Dek Rani is permanently blind and can only be cured if Dek Rani gets an eye donor".

My heart is so empty and empty.