God's Choice of Mate

Look back.

Ummah and the Ustad Fariz family took good care of me, likewise with Bik Siti who was always beside me tirelessly and complained a lot.At the Imandar family home I was like a princess who was always cared for and prioritized. Sometimes the unpleasant feeling of being troublesome gets in my heart and mind, but Ummah repeatedly tells me to throw away that feeling. Ummah always made me feel comfort and calm when he was nearby, he always faithfully accompanied me to go back and forth control to the hospital to check the condition of my eyes. And he was also the first person who would be so hysterical full of happiness knowing my eye condition continued to gradually improve. The words of gratitude and warm embrace from him continued to flow incessantly he gave me. I was an orphan and had no one else including a brother or family to accompany me. All this time I only relied on Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala in living the solitude and loneliness of the life I lived. But God's plan is so good and beautiful. In my solitude God sends good and caring people to me. As in the letter of Ar Rahman verse 13 which reads: Fa bi'ayyi ala'i rabbikuma tukazziban.

Meaning: Which is the blessing of your Lord that you deny?.

Dear God, I deeply feel how God has never been absent in giving me endless favors.

And this time I was neat by wearing the syar'i robe that Ummah chose for me.

"MasyaAllah Tabarakallah, the pastel color robe that Rani wears makes Rani look beautiful, polite and elegant, and impressed simple, simple, plus the long dusty pink hijab further creates the appearance of princess Ummah more sholeh and cool in view, " praise Ummah while holding my cheeks soft.

"MasyaAllah Tabarakallah, Jazakillah Khair Ummah, "my reply is a little timid.

Ummah has always been good at raising and making my heart happy. Sometimes I think that Ummah is like a duplicate of my old house. With him I can treat my longing for you, and still your position will remain number one in my heart.

After getting ready, Bik Siti went into the room and called me and Ummah to hurry down because Pak Budi, Ustad Fariz and Enjid were waiting. So after Bik Siti told and called, me and Ummah immediately rushed to get down. As usual Ummah and Bik Siti led me down the stairs.

Upon arrival in the dining room, Ummah invited myself and Bik Siti to breakfast first with other Ummah family members and including Mr. Budi. I heard a little boisterous sound of eating utensils and small talk among all the men at the dinner table.And made me a little uncomfortable to join in eating food together.

"Ummah, Rani will eat it later. It's better if Ummah has breakfast first, and Rani will wait in the garden next to the house while sitting down to enjoy the morning air and sunbathing, "I said.

Ummah clasped my finger, "Rani breakfast is also with Ummah, just a little bit, son. So that Rani's stomach is not empty and strong later undergo an eye examination, " Ummah's pinta.

I was silent for a moment and tried to reject it, but all the other members of the Ummah family insisted and asked me with hope and supplication. So that I have no power to refuse.

Ummah then helped me sit in the dining chair and he chose an empty seat right in front of Ustad Fariz while Bik Siti and Ummah flanked myself on each side of the left and right side of me sitting. As usual, Bik Siti ate with a voraciously and quickly finished first, after which she made some warm chocolate milk for me and got some side dishes and vegetables on my dinner plate.

"Bik Siti, don't take too much food for Rani, "my door while holding Bik Siti's arm.

Sounded by me Bik Siti smiled a little.

"Yes Nak Rani. Much is also okay so that Nak Rani body more contained a little, "sahut Bik Siti then catapulted his words to Ustad Fariz. "Not Nak Fariz, what did you tell Nak Rani for?. "

Bik Siti looked at Ustad Fariz's face which looked slightly flushed as Bik Siti tried to tease him.

While lowering his gaze Ustad Fariz nodded his head and said, "Yes Bik Siti, right. But let Dek Rani eat as you wish and follow the hunger signal so that the food eaten by Dek Rani can be spent and not wasted or redundant. "

"Siapp Nak Fariz, " said Bik Siti while laughing.

Everyone in the dining room stared at me, Bik Siti and Ustad Fariz.

Ustad Fariz greeted me by asking about my situation this morning. The smiles and teasing sounds of Kak Rafa and Pak Budi made Ustad Fariz blush a little shyly hiding the red hue from her radiant white face.

I casually answered a question from Ustad Fariz before I started eating breakfast. "Alhamdulillah Rani's condition is good Ustad Fariz, "I said slowly. And in the awkward feeling felt by Ustad Fariz, he replied to me with the word hamdalah without adding any words or sentences.

Allahumma baarik lanaa fiimaa rozaqtanaa wa qinaa 'adzaa bannaar.Yes Allah, bless us in the sustenance that You have given us and guard us from the torment of hellfire, I said softly reading the do'a after that I started to enjoy my breakfast with other Imandar family members.

After finishing breakfast Ummah and Bik Siti immediately rushed to take myself to the car in the parking lot which was being heated by the car engine by Mr. Budi.

"Not everything is ready, right?, " asked Ummah to Ustad Fariz who walked closer to Mr. Budi.

"Alhamdulillah is Ummah, " replied Ustad Fariz.

Ummah smiled with relief and then led me into the car, to the hospital to open my bandage.

" You go first Enjid will finish the work of Enjid with Rafa and his ashes. God willing If the work we do is done we will all follow to the hospital to find out Rani's condition. But if our work and business is not finished, it is likely that we will meet again at home, son, "the Enjid told Ustad Fariz.

Ustad Fariz nodded, then immediately said goodbye to Enjid, Abinya and Kak Rafa as well as Ummah who also said goodbye. Not long after that the car driven by Mr. Budi drove away from the residence of Imandar house and headed to the hospital.

At the hospital Wirda was already there and waiting for our arrival.He kept pacing while waiting for my arrival and others. His eyes continued to look around outside the hospital building, to see Ustad Fariz's car, whether it had entered the hospital area or not. And finally what he was looking for he could find with his big smile Wirda immediately rushed to our car which had been stopped in the hospital parking lot. As usual Ustad Fariz got off first, then opened the car door for Ummah. And Ummah got out of the car and grabbed my fingers and led me out. While Wirda has welcomed us with a smile that is so marekah and can not wait for the process of removing the bandage in my eyes opened.

Now I've been in the eye poli and the doctor checked the state and condition of my eyes. Ummah and Wirda accompanied me while Mr. Budi, Ustad Fariz and Bik Siti waited outside because it was not allowed many people to enter the examination room. My heart skipped a beat in the anxiety debate mixed with worry that so seized my feelings. In the anxiety I felt I continued to pray for forgiveness from Allah, so as to ease my affairs and lift up my illness. I can't wait to see and see my new steps in my next life. Akh, it felt as God tested me with the loss of my sight, this is where I realized so many favors that I never had to be grateful for the grace of Him. It felt so lacking to me that the gift of the sense of sight that God gave me was a marvelous thing that would never be replaced. My realization in the process of traveling through the test of my life awakened me, that no matter how small the gifts and graces that God gives, we should always be grateful and practice in terms of goodness that can bring a lot of good for us and others.

My feelings continued to dive into my thoughts mixed in a sense of tension.

I heard the doctor put down some of the tools he used to check my eyes. There was a sound of relief from his breath. "Alhamdulillah the results are good, so far the cornea graft on Nak Rani's eyes no irritation or inflammation. After this I will have Nak Rani look at the screen in front of Nak Rani, "ask the doctor to me.

"Yes doc, "I replied with great pleasure after hearing the doctor's words.

The bandage that closed my eyes had been opened, after the doctor checked me, then the doctor applied eye drops to both eyes. It was only after that that I was ordered to look at the big screen in front of me.

Tense and fear were mixed up, I really felt stiff in anxiety. And with the direction of the doctor slowly I opened my originally closed eyes and directed them to the big screen in front of me. Vaguer... Frosted.. Slightly opaque.. Getting clearer... Evidently... And very clear and clear. My sense of sight has been able to see images and writing on screen very well. My face is bright with a big smile.

The doctor looked at me and also Ummah, the nurse and Wirda.

" What is Nak Rani feeling and how is Nak Rani's vision now?" asked the Doctor.

I smiled but did not look at the doctor. " Thank God my doc can see the writing and pictures on the screen very clear and so clear, "I replied with a smile.

And the doctor thanked me for hearing my words until I saw a device that checked the accuracy of my visual senses.

The doctor's smile again widened, after he saw the sharpness of my eyes showed 100% both left and right, then slowly the doctor told me to look at him ,towards the nurse and looking at the state of the room around me and lastly looking towards Ummah and also Wirda who were standing a bit away from where I was.

"How about Rani?, "asked the doctor, wrinkling his forehead.

I looked at the doctor's tense face and then smiled a little at him. "Alhamdulillah my doc can see everything very clearly, "I replied.

Hearing my words the doctor then smiled happily as well as the nurses who helped me they both looked full of happiness and gratitude because the transplantation process of my eyes managed to restore my vision as before. And from a distance I also saw the look on the face of Ummah and Wirda who were so very happy. Ummah and Wirda hugged each other to hear the happy news because my vision Indra was back as usual.And just contact Ummah and Wirda who felt so happy and very happy to know my vision was back to how it was, immediately walked up to me and hugged me tightly without caring about the doctors and nurses who were near me. The doctors and nurses were just like him. They could only see the beautiful sight before them, and I saw the doctors and nurses occasionally shed tears on their cheeks. While I was so slightly surprised to see the face of Ummah which is almost so similar to my round house. I was a little bit stunned as if in disbelief when my eyes met with both Ummah eyes. Where we stared at each other for a long time and stuck in the feeling of haru.Wajah Ummah is so familiar to me, my heart seems to have been very familiar with him.

A happy cry drenched Ummah's face so shady looking at me, then Ummah hugged me again.MasyaAllah, his resolve so calmed my soul and my heart.His soft caress that rubbed my head made peace in my heart. Ummah landed his kiss on my forehead, holding my fingers again and he really felt a great happiness from being able to see me again.

Ummah continued to say hamdalah and incessantly offered prayers to Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala.

" Allaahummaftah lanaa min khazaa-ini rahika laa tu'adz-dzibnaa ba'dahaa abadan fid-dukaa wal aakhirati, wa min fadlikal waasi'i rizqan halaalan thayyiban, wa laa tufqirnaa ba'dahu ilaa ahadin shivaaka abadan, tazidunaa laka bihaa syukran wa ilaika faaqatan wa faqran, wa bika 'amman siwaaka ghinan wa ta'affufan.

O Allah, open (the door of Your mercy) from Your storehouses of grace to us, and do not torment us forever after we have obtained that grace in this world or in the Hereafter. And from Your Most Widespread bounty, a good and sound provision for us. After that, do not make us need of anyone other than You forever, for Your grace and grace make us more grateful to You, and more in need of You, and increasingly need no one but You, O Allah, "say the Ummah in the recitation of his prayer.

Wirda then rushed out to tell the happy news to Ustad Fariz, Pak Budi and Bik Siti.

While I who was still in the warm embrace Ummah felt relief and happiness so great. Holding Ummah's hand I closed my eyes slowly and recited my thanks to Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala.

"Allaahumma maa ashbaha bii min ni'matin au bi-ahadin min khalqika fa minka wahdaka laa syariika laka fa lakal hamdu wa lakasy syukru.

O God, whatever favors I have in the morning or whatever is in every Thy being, all are of Thee alone, no ally to Thee, praise be to You and thank You."

My heart is full of relief and happiness.