God's Choice of Mate

Brother Roy and Rere's request.

"Where did Roy know about Rani's situation?" asked Wirda quietly.

Hix...Hix...Hix...

Roy continued to cry without replying to any questions from Wirda.

"Have Nak Roy.Nak Roy don't grieve like that,"Bik Siti asked Kak Roy.

"I'm sorry, Ran!Forgive the brother who can not take care of you and protect you.Hiks..hiks...please forgive brother Ran!Hiks..hiks..hiks.," said Kak Roy with so sadness and feeling full of guilt.

I originally wanted to keep quiet.

However, hearing Brother Roy cry bitterly like that my heart could not bear it.

There were already enough tears of sadness on his face because of me, I thought.

"Sister..Roy,"I said slowly.

Wirda, Bik Siti and Kak Roy were suddenly surprised to hear my voice.

"Bik..Bik Siti listen to Rani talk Bik," Wirda said a little shouting happily to Bik Siti.

"Yes nak Wirda.Bibi also heard.Alhamdulillah O Allah," said Bik Siti was happy while wiping my hood.

"Sister.. Roy.ti.dak wrong.And Kak Roy do not me..nangis," said me slowly and slightly laid out.

"But all this is wrong brother Ran.If only brother did not pursue you then Reno will not hurt you and cause yourself to lose sight.Hiks..hiks.....," said Kak Roy again while crying.

"It's all fate, brother," I said quietly and began smoothly.

"But it remains brother who is guilty for everything that happened to you Ran.Hiks.

"Sister Roy is not wrong and please don't be stubborn by blaming yourself brother," I said slowly.

"Ran..," said Brother Roy.

"Please listen to Rani, brother," I said cutting off Kak Roy's sentence.

Roy was silent while looking at me.

"At this time Rani can not see the face of Kak Roy.But Rani can hear that Kak Roy is so very sad and devastated over the calamity that befell Rani.What Rani received today is part of the destiny that is God has set for Rani kak.And for that Rani sincerely accept it.So Kak Roy stop to blame himself brother because this is not the fault of Kak Roy, "I said shirih.

"Ran," said Brother Roy in a soft voice and his tears kept flowing.

"So stunned to hear your words.How can you be this loud Ran, for all that has happened to you that you have to lose your sight.You are the man that Ran is made of?,"said Mr. Roy while crying.

"What must be the lattice of the feet.If all that I have has gone from me.I myself and become strong because God surrounds me with good people like Kak Roy, Wirda, Bik Siti, and I have,Mr. Budi and Ustad Fariz.Then how should I demand more to the God who has created me.I have resigned and rely completely on Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala sak,for all the things that happened to my life.And I trust Kak for whatever has been lost from me then God will replace it with something better than before.For that do not worry Rani, Sister Roy.

Rani please Kak Roy do not grieve and do not pity Rani.Kak Roy should start thinking about Kak Roy's own life from now on.Arrange everything from a new beginning with Kak Roy's wife, Rere, "tutukku softly.

"Why did Rani say that to sister?Does Rani know if Rani's words hurt big brother? Where maybe big brother does not grieve to see the situation and condition you like this Ran.Mana maybe big brother started the life of sister from the beginning with other women.If the beginning and end in the life of big brother is only you Ran.Hiks....Hix...Hiks.only you are the one your brother loves Ran..only you are..you are a..no Rere...Hix...Hix....Hiks... There is only Rani a.Huhuhuhuhuhuhu.

I couldn't hide my sadness at hearing him cry like that.

Tests...Tests....

My tears are flowing holding the pain.

"Don't say like that brother.Don't force your heart and mind to continue to love me.Sister Roy deserves to be happy, Brother Roy deserves a comfortable and full of laughter.But all that will not be your brother get on Rani kak,"I said shaking while holding back my tears.

"Is Kak Roy does not realize that we have been far at a distance that is difficult to find.There are boundaries that bind and force us to stay away from the brother of marriage.Sister Roy has been tied to Rere and so with Rani bound by Reno's sister," I said.

"But our marriage because of Ran's coercion, not at our will.In the marriage there is no love that strengthens him.Silver will immediately divorce Rere and take care of all the farewell letters.So will you Ran, who will not,you can file a divorce lawsuit against Reno.After we get out of the shackles of the forced marriage.We will start everything from the beginning Ran.Silver will marry you and spend the rest of his sister's life with you Ran.Together with the woman he loves...hiks...hiks.along with yourself Ran,"so Brother Roy with my face deep.

"Then what about Rere Kak Roy? Dan Rere is innocent in this case sis.His love is sincere for Kak Roy and he really loves big brother,"I said emotionally.

"Sister doesn't care about him Ran.Because all you love is you not Rere.Then until when we have to think about the feelings of others and get rid of our own feelings Ran," replied Kak Roy.

"Wouldn't that be a selfish choice, brother.Just because Kak Roy wants to be with Rani.Kak Roy could hurt the feelings of his own sister's wife.Love it brings happiness kak instead of hurting others and it's wrong.

Rere deserves a chance to have the love of Roy, "I said.

"Then what about your brother's love for you Ran?" asked Kak Roy.

"Forget it brother," I answered briefly.

"That's all you say Ran.Is there not the slightest bit in your heart of desire to love big brother?Please answer Ran's brother's question.

Does Rani love big brother?" asked Kak Roy with a very serious face.

I was silent to answer Kak Roy's question which was pressing me even more.

"Why are you just silent Ran?

Is it so hard for you to tell your true feelings to big brother?answer Ran.Your silence is part of your doubt to translate your heart," said Roy again.

"I am silent not because I doubt my brother.But my silence is part of my attitude to guard your heart.Without saying Kak Roy should understand and understand.The relationship of brother and Rere is more sacred and noble before God because it is bound marriage is lawful before God and in the eyes of men.

Rere's love for Kak Roy is halal and holy because there is a ridho from Allah.

"Your explanation does not answer the question of Ran's brother.You just go around in your words.Then what about Reno.Is he also fully entitled to you and your love Ran?Then why are you so hurt when he hits you?Then where lies the sanctity of love in a forced marriage that does not make yourself happy Ran. I know Ran, this is all part of the destiny that God has set for us. However, we also deserve to strive to get a dream marriage that is sakinah mawaddah and

warahmahs. Suffice it to always attach importance to the feelings of others Ran, by ignoring your own feelings and life. You also deserve to be happy Ran as well as brother. Brother, I think all the bitterness and fatigue we've experienced is enough here. It is time to make a choice about our lives from now on. And for that brother will not change the decision of brother.

Soon my brother will divorce Rere. Whatever the risks and impacts will be accepted. Because brother is no longer able to see you like this Ran. And for that please do not block the intention of brother, "said Kak Roy.

" But Brother Roy.., "my heart.

" Don't say anything more Ran, "so Brother Roy.

" Sister please take good care of yourself Ran. After the elder brother finished all the affairs of the elder brother and ended the marriage of the elder brother with Rere. I wish Rani would do the same as I do, "said Roy.

I was silent without any news to Brother Roy. Because it's hard to tell her in her circumstances like that.

" Wirda and Bik Siti please help her to take care of Rani, "ask Kak Roy.

" Of course, Brother Roy, "wirda replied.

" Yes to Roy, "sahut Bik Siti.

For a moment Kak Roy fell silent while looking at me deeply and for a long time without saying.

Then he left me with his silence.

While I was still silent and playing with my mind.

"Ran, are you okay?," asked Rani as she gently rubbed my shoulder.

"Yes Wir" I replied quietly with a blank look.

And not long after that we heard footsteps approaching us.

Tuk... Tuk.. Tuk...

The sound of footsteps being so snapped and felt hasty in my hearing.

"How are you doing now Ran?," said someone who greeted me in a tone of voice not very friendly to me.

I tried to recall a voice I once knew and was no stranger to me. However, before I could remember her, Wirda had greeted someone who called my name.

" What are you doing here Re?, "asked Wirda unhappily.

" Why are you saying that as if you don't like my presence here?, "asked Rere in a sullen tone.

Wirda with a visibly annoyed face also answered Rere's question cynically anyway ,"Yes, I do not like your presence here, because I know the purpose of your arrival here just to make Rani feel down and getting worse. Yeah right?" Wirda told Rere. "Wir, you don't have to interfere in my business. I have no need with you anyway. I'm here to talk to Rani .Not with you!," Rere said.

"If everything concerns Rani then I also have the right to know, " said Wirda ketus.

"Wirda you who wants to always meddle in Rani's affairs?," Rere replied with great care.

I heard Rere and Wirda talking to each other .Immediately I took the initiative to break up their conversation which began to spark conflict. "Easy

...you don't fight, '" I said slowly.

Wirda and Rere were silent at my words.

" My good news is Re.What do you want to say to me?," I asked Rere with a sour face and was upset because Wirda's previous words directly said to me,"Well Ran I'm not going to mince words and I'm going to tell you right away" Rere said, stopping thinking and then continuing his words ."I've heard your talk with Roy and to be honest I'm disappointed with the decision to be taken by Roy .If that happens to me, you are the cause of the destruction of my household with Brother Roy. And for that you are the one to blame and you are the root of the problems in my relationship with Roy. Then I will never forgive you until Brother Roy really wants to part from me, "rere said resentfully.

" Hey, what do your words mean like that to Rani?, "shouting Wirda who is emotionless hearing Rere's words.

" It's Wirda. Let Rere tell her I'm fine, "Your speech calms Wirda down.

" But Wirda, "disprove Wirda.

" It's Wir, "my mouth.

Rere continued to say it to me again.

" I don't want you to take advantage of your blindness to draw sympathy from Kak Roy and for that you should stay away from my life and also Kak Roy. I hope you understand .And honestly from my heart I don't really want to tell you any of this. But it is circumstances that force me .To have to tell you all this. Because the man I love so much prefers you over me as his wife. Please fulfill my request Ran, "re said.

Not long after that Rere left before me. I was still sitting in a wheelchair with Wirda and Bik Siti.

" You're okay, aren't you Ran?, "asked Wirda to make sure of my situation.

" Yes Wirda, "my mouth.

" Rere is so outrageous. He doesn't think about your current feelings and condition. I really don't like him much, Ran, "wirda said, shedding her frustration.

" It's Wir. Just let Rere say that. She also deserves to be angry at the decision that Kak Roy made because Rere is the wife of Kak Roy who has the opportunity and full rights to Kak Roy also in maintaining their household life, "my reply.

" Why are you still defending Rere and good to him with Rere's bad attitude like that Ran?, "wirda asked.

" For I have known Rere before Wir. He's my best friend too. Love makes it like this. Because all I know is that Rere is a nice, well-mannered girl, "my reply.

Wirda was silent at my words.

And I was still thinking about Rere's words that kept filling my mind.