God's Choice of Mate

Decisions

The next day all the Suprapto family got together except for Brother Reno.

They hugged me one by one and expressed their condolences for the mother's departure.

Grandpa rubbed my head wrapped in mucus that I had not yet removed.

His eyes are soft and watery.

Seen a fret on his face.

He looked at me for a long time to start a conversation, but he seemed to be thinking hard.

He grabbed my hand slowly and then he put both hands together while holding both hands.

His lips trembled and his countenance turned increasingly murky.

"Ran..I'm sorry grandfather and the entire grandfather's family for everything that happened in your life.yes.nak," her tears dripped.

My heart trembled at his sadness.

My eyes continued to look at him stunned.

"Grandfather please Rani can forgive us all and grandfather beg Rani not to leave this house, grandfather please son," his hand held my hand tightly and lowered his head.

I feel sorry to see him cry like that.

"Sir..already cake...don't cry,"my cheek.

"No son this is the overflow of all grandfather's sorrows,"still bowed.

I clasped his hand to stop his crying.

"Ran, you are part of this family.Rani is also grandfather's granddaughter.

Grandpa loves you, son.Rani.....Ka. kek...mo....Rani.....stay live here.For the sake of grandfather yes son, please, "please ask with compassion and raucous voice.

My tears and everyone started to fall watching grandfather cry as he squealed to me.

Ughhhhhhhh.

Hufffhhhhh.

I looked at the grandfather who was still crying and occasionally I saw Bu Sri, Pak Sugeng and Mbak Riska wiping his tears that continued to flow.

I closed my eyes for a moment to strengthen myself by confirming the words I was about to say.

My lips said that I expected guidance from God that what I chose was the best path for all.

“Bismilbornrahmannirrahiim.” Which means: “By mentioning the name of Allah the Most Merciful, the Most Merciful.”

Huffhhh...

I breath back.

“Ya muqollibal qulub tsabbit qolbi ‘alaa diinik (Revelation of the Most Reversing Heart, strengthen my heart above Your religion).”

I looked at Grandpa's face and they all stared at me.

I gathered all my courage and strength to say what I wanted to say.

"Grandfather...,"my voice restrained.

Grandfather looked at me in waiting for me to continue my words.

"Kakek,Pak Sugeng, Bu Sri and Mbak Riska before him Rani thanked him for helping Rani and my late mother a lot," I said.

"Don't say thank you son, it's our duty.Mama and all those who should be grateful to Rani a lot," Bu Sri said as she approached me and grabbed my shoulder.

I looked at him and tried to keep my words back.

"Everything feels heavy and painful, but Rani tries to summarize everything that happens in all of Rani's life.

But Rani learns to forgive and accept all these destinies Lillah because of Allah ta'ala.

Grandpa and all Rani ask not to grieve ya," while glancing one by one their collars and wiping the tears of grandfather.

"Bismillah, in shaytah....Rani forgave all the cakes."

Everyone smiled in surprise.

I nodded in convincing him.

Grandpa's face turned brighter.

"Then Rani will stay here, right?" asked the hesitant grandfather.

Long time I was silent to answer grandfather's question.My memory again remembered the words of Bu Sri at dawn.

He caressed my two tender cheeks full of affection.I feel sincere like caress the late mother.

"Ran," he said softly.

I just stared at him and waited for the words to come out of his mouth.

"Mama knows you must be very hit with the departure of your bundle son.Mama wants Rani to think of mama like your own bundle yes son," she asked in tears.

I could only cry and listen to her words.

"Mama understands all this is not easy for Rani.But if you may ask Rani to stay here as a daughter-in-law and daughter of mama yes son," her voice felt heavy accompanied by sobs.

It felt heavy the words that I heard were sharpened in my heart that was sore and hurt but I was unable to say anything at this time.

"For Ran's grandfather, by, consider this a mother's request to her child even though mama knows it is inappropriate mama asks anything from you son.Mama is afraid of something happening to grandfather if Rani ends this all.Indeed seems selfish but believe me Ran, Ran,mama just wanted everything to be good,"he paused for a moment to continue her words.

I was stunned to hear his words.

"Mama did not force Rani, but if possible if Rani considered everything before Rani made up her mind and about Reno." took a look into my eyes.

"He is very sorry and feels very guilty to you son.Since Rani in the hospital not a second he left you.Maybe all this time his attitude to Rani is not good but believe Reno is actually a very good child.Mama wants us to start all from the beginning with a good thing, son.Mama wants to devote all the affection of mama to Rani.And mama also wants Rani happy,"he explained long.

But once again I was silent.

"Ran..,"call grandpa.

I flinched from my daydream.

"Rani will stay here, won't she?" asked Grandpa again.

I was still silent for a moment looking at the tense look on Grandfather's face hearing my answer.

Slowly I took a short breath to solidify my options.

"Bismillah.iya cake. In shay Allah Rani will stay here."

Grandfather and everyone were smiling happily.Bu Sri hugged me tightly and whispered a little in my ear.

"Thank you Ran," while kissing my forehead.

Grandpa grasped my hand and lost the tension in his aging face.Pak Sugeng rubbed my head gently.

While Mbak Riska immediately ran happy to hug me.

"Love you Ran" said Mrs Riska.

I just smiled knot.The choice that is difficult for me to take.But for the sake of grandfather's health and the happiness of this family I was willing to put aside all the disappointment, anger, sadness and hate.

As you always teach me to always sincerely forgive the mistakes of others.Indeed not easy but if we intend to expect ridho from Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala in shay Allah all will be easy.

Fa inna ma'al - 'usri yusra.

Meaning: For after the trouble there is ease.

Inna ma'al-'usri.

That is, after the difficulty there is ease.

The Qur'an Surat Al - Inshirah Verses 5-6.

"Alhamdulillah O Allah," said the pleased grandfather.

"Yuk.now we have breakfast first yes.Rani must also take medicine to be healthy soon,"timpal Mbak Riska.

Everyone smiled at the decision I had made.I then let God rule everything.

Ms. Sri and Ms. Riska helped me down to eat together.

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