God's Choice of Mate

The departure of Roy.

Still imprint in my first meeting with Kak Roy. He is the guardian angel that God sent me into the world. The care and affection he showed me and poured out on me flowed sincerely from his tender heart. And now the precious person in my life has gone forever without having the chance to say the last word to him.

My steps felt careless and helpless entering the courtyard of Kak Roy's house. There was the chanting of holy verses reverberating which added to the heart's grief.

Wirda, Bik Siti, Bik Inah and Ummah stood by me. Every now and then I heard the loud screams of a woman shrill and disappeared amid the frenzied clamor of mourners coming.

"Rooooyyyy!, " shouted that voice repeatedly.

I who heard that voice was so trembling and could not hold my sorrow.

" Wir ,ayo as soon as we go inside. It seemed to be the voice of Aunt Desi, "my words to Wirda who was beside me led me.

" Yes Ran, "sohut Wirda.

So Wirda and I quickly walked inside to meet Aunt Desi. While Ustad Fariz, Pak Budi and Kak Rafa prepared everything to pray the body to the deceased Kak Roy.Sedika Ummah ,Bik Siti and Bik Inah followed my footsteps and Wirda from behind.

Wirda and Ummah helped me get close to Aunt Desi who was sitting against the wall with tears in her eyes. Then when Aunt Desi saw my arrival she immediately hugged me tightly while rubbing my head so depressed and so bitter.

" Huhuhuhu.... Rani.... Roy, there is no Ran.... Huhuhuhuhu, "say Aunt Desi with sobbing.

My heart was so broken and felt so tight to hear the crying of Aunt Desi who was so heartbreaking and so hurt about the departure of Kak Roy.

In her loud and tight sobs hugged my body. I whispered softly into Aunt Desi's ear, "INNAA LILLAHI WA INNAA ILAIHI ROOJI’UN. ALLOHUMMA’JURNII FII MUSHIBATII WA AKHLIF LII KHOIRON MINHAA .Everything belongs to God and will come back to Him. O Allah, reward me for the misfortune that befalls me and reward me for the better), and Allah will reward him in his misfortune and replace him with the better.”

Ahsanallahu azaaka wa jabara mushabaka wa ghafara limayyitika wa rahatahu wa khalafahu fii aqibihi bikhair. May Allah give Aunt Desi a good solace, give good to your calamity, forgive the mayyit, bestow grace and replace it with a better one.

Verily, Allah will give solace to all that is lost and substitute for all that is lost, to Allah, fear Allah, return (to Allah) because the one who is stricken with misfortune can be prevented from being rewarded".My words seek to motivate Aunt Desi to be patient and to be pleased with the decree of Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala And to convince her because after the calamity Allah will give abundant reward and reward for the calamity that occurred.

Hearing what I said Aunt Desi hugged me tightly and I returned her arms. While making Aunt Desi feel comfortable and calm.By slowly Aunt Desi called me slowly,"Ran There is an important thing that you want to convey to your aunt and this is about Roy's will to you".

I felt a little surprised by what Aunt Desi said about Kak Roy's will to me, "What did Aunt say? Why did Brother Roy leave a will for me auntie?".

Sounded by me Aunt Desi sighed and then rubbed my head slowly and softly.And still heard by me a little sobbing her bated cry but trying to press to be able to say the important thing she wanted to convey to me.

" Ran before Roy left us actually Roy kept one secret that he had been hiding from you all this time. Roy already has acute leukemia stage 4 disease and doctors say he will not survive long. But when he met you his hope for life came back and he did not give up on his illness" said Aunt Desi as she breathed in and wiped her still flowing tears.

" What did auntie say? Why did Aunt and Kak Roy hide everything from Rani? Means that Kak Roy has been enduring the pain of aunt?," I asked Aunt Desi with tears flowing.

" Yes Ran," said Aunt Desi with a trembling voice.

" Astagfirullah O Allah...Hix...Hiks,"pronounce while crying.

Aunty Desi then clasped my fingers and tried to make me focus on the words she wanted to say to me, "Rani. Roy hid all this so that he would not be pitied and become weak in front of everyone, especially in front of you. And before Roy left us, Roy donated his eyes to be passed down to you, son.

He wants to restore your eyesight again.Roy wants to see you happy. Although actually his dream is to make you happy by living with him.

But God does not allow what is his hope and he must leave before what he wants can be achieved, Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu." said Aunt Desi and then cried again.

What kind of person are you, Roy? Why is your heart so noble and why should you go this way. And so quickly without a single bit I once gave happiness to you, my inner being in the heart.

When I began to dissolve my feelings for Kak Roy.Tante Desi also continued his words to me, "You know Ran. The accident experienced by Roy made his face badly damaged and difficult to identify.Even Aunt herself was unable to recognize the son of Aunt Roy. However, his eye condition is still very good, especially his corneas still remain clear so that officers from the eye bank immediately took Roy's eyeball no less after 6 hours of Roy died and performed a small operation to lift the ball his eyes and save it.Ball

those eyes Roy has given you and auntie beg you to accept them to meet the last wishes of Son of Aunt Roy. For he wants to see that you can see again as before, son".

Hearing what Aunt Desi said my heart was so filled and touched. I really didn't expect that Brother Roy had thought about all this for me. My tears kept flowing down my cheeks. While Wirda, Ummah, Bik Siti and Bik Inah fell silent in a new atmosphere listening to the conversation between myself and Aunt Desi.

In the tears of Aunt Desi who continued to flow. Wirda who was sitting not far from me exactly beside me could not hold back his curiosity.See what happened to Kak Roy actually, "Sorry Aunt Desi. What exactly caused Roy to have an accident like this ?because before, Roy still had time to contact Wirda and Rani. And Kak Roy wanted to meet with Rani but indeed when we made a phone call Kak Roy's voice sounded raucous and sad. He felt depressed and frustrated. It was as if something made him feel very sad. Isn't that so Rani," Wirda said and asked me .

I nodded, "Yes, "I replied slowly.

"And on the phone, Kak Roy kept crying auntie. Indeed Rani has felt something strange and undue to Kak Roy. But Kak Roy seemed to cover up and was reluctant to meet with Rani .And Roy kept crying. Really at that time Rani was so very unsettled and kept thinking about Kak Roy's situation.But Rani did not know what to do because Rani did not know the whereabouts of Kak Roy, "I said slowly.

" Yes Ran, indeed after leaving the house Roy did seem so very depressed and sad after the events that happened to him. And it's all because of Rere. Auntie is very sorry about that. If Rere does not impose his desire on Roy, of course, Roy is still with us. Hix.. Hikss, "aunty Desi's crying broke again.

I who heard the words of Aunt Desi was confused because of the accident and frustration experienced by Kak Roy related to Rere.In my slow cry I tried to think while curling my forehead thinking about the words of Aunt Desi, "What is the relationship between Rere and the accident that happened to Kak Roy?, "quote.

It sounded to me that Aunt Desi was trying to wipe her breath and exhale repeatedly to make herself feel comfortable before answering my question.

" After aunt and Rere were informed that Roy had a terrible accident. Rere was in a state of shock, hysterical and so devastated that he immediately told all the events he had done to Roy. And you know what he has done to Roy ,Ran.It has indirectly destroyed his self-esteem, his feelings, his purity and also his love for you Ran, Hiks..., "said Aunt Desi and cried again.

Wirda who had also listened to the words of Aunt Desi could not help his curiosity about what Rere did to Kak Roy so that made Kak Roy so depressed and immersed in sadness. " What's Rere aunty doing?, "asked Wirda.

There was another sound of Aunt Desi pushing her breath away and much into her tears.

" It turns out that Rere at Riska's persuasion His older sister Reno has given Roy a mindfulness drug and trapped Roy to have a marital relationship with the aim of binding and making Roy hers. Rere hoped that if it happened Roy would not divorce her and become her whole possession. However, Rere did not realize that it had made Roy so devastated and injured. Rere was very sorry about that. And he did not imagine if his actions produced this fate that could take Roy's life. Because it continues to be frustrating for the actions Rere creates for Roy. It turns out Roy was so unable to accept everything. He was so angry, sad and upset with himself. For his heart, soul, and body are allotted to Rani. Because Rani is the only woman he loves and he is very eager to be his wife. However, due to Rere's selfishness, the aunt must lose the aunt's son. Huhuhuhuhu.

Ummah immediately embraced Aunt Desi and calmed her down, "Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un, wa inna ila rabbina lamunqalibun, allahummaktubhu 'akaa fil muhsinin, waj'al kitabahu fi 'illiyyiin, wakhlufhu fi ahlihi fil ghabirin, and others, wa la tahrimnaa ajrahu wala taftinna ba'dahu.Surely we belong to Allah and to Him we return. And to our Lord we shall return. O Allah, write him with You among the good. Make notes in 'illiyyin. Replace him in his family from those who leave. Do not forbid for us his reward, and do not slander us afterwards."

Aunt Desi kept crying back hysterically in the arms of Ummah.

Me and Wirda were speechless. After hearing the explanation from Aunt Desi then I realized .Why is Roy so hurt and crying incessantly .It turned out that he was so badly injured that he was unable to meet me. Oh God, apparently Brother Roy was very depressed about the events that had happened to him.The actions Rere did so broke his heart and made him so humiliated to meet me. I could not help but keep my tears flowing. I can't imagine how devastated Brother Roy was. How do you feel Kak Roy without anyone beside him to comfort him or make him not feel sad about events that he never wanted. He was completely alone in his mind and heart that was deeply broken back then .And really my tears kept flowing thinking about what Kak Roy felt at that moment .Because he was completely alone in the lowest phase of his life.

My lips twitched in my heart to pray for Kak Roy who has now gone far away from me, Allaahummaghfir lahu warham hu wa'aafi hii wa'fu anhu wa akrim nuzula hu wa wassi' madkhola hu waghsil hu bilmaai wats-tsalji walbarodi wanaqqi hi minal khothooyaa kamaa yunaqqots tsaubul abyadlu minaddanasi wa abdil hu daaron khoiron min daari hi wawahlan khoiron min hy member wazaujan khoiron min zaoji hi wa adkhil hul jannata wa 'aidz hu min 'adzaabil qobri wa fitnati hi wa min 'adzaabin naar.

O Allah, forgive, be merciful, set free and deliver him. And glorify his dwelling place, spread him out. And glorify his dwelling place, widen his way, wash him with clear, cool water, and cleanse him from all wrongs like a white garment clean of filth, and his house with a better house than he left, and a better family, than he left behind, and a better wife than he left behind. Put him into heaven, and protect him from his torment his grave and his slander, and from the torment of the fires of hell."

Tests... Tests... Tests...

My tears continued to flow along with the sobs of Aunt Desi's increasingly violent sobbing filled the room with an outpouring of sadness that was so heartbreaking to everyone.

Not long after that, Ustad Fariz immediately invited all the male mourners to immediately perform the funeral prayer of Kak Roy and Ustad Fariz became his priest.

And when the body of Kak Roy will be buried Aunt Desi was not able to hold him. Aunt Desi was drowning unconscious while holding my fingers.