God's Choice of Mate

My silence.

Wirda and Bik Siti helped me stand up to get back on the patient's bed.

"Oh Allah, Son Rani why did it fall?, " said Bik Siti with a very anxious face.

"Ran, how do you feel?, "wirda asked worriedly as she fixed my veil.

But I was still silent and did not respond to Bik Siti or Wirda's words.

My heart feels empty after my vision now. Everything feels black and lonely.

"Son Rani is fine right?, "Sela Pak Budi.

"Roman... Rani..!, " cried Wirda quietly while breaking my daydream.

"Son Rani.!, "call Bik Siti to me.

"Astaghfirullah's... Son Rani why keep quiet, son, " said Mr. Budi.

"Dek Rani's... Dek Rani, " said Ustad Fariz calling my name.

But all the calls from Wirda, Bik Siti, Pak Budi and Ustad Fariz did not make me realize from my mind and heart that began to feel lonely and empty for a moment. I was alone in a dimension that limited me to all of them. It feels like my heart is so tight and so painful .But somehow the pain did not make my tears flow and spill. Is it possible that the truth I received was so painful that the sorrow that was manifested from my tears could not come out and drip to express the shock and stricken of the destiny that God gave me.

What should I do and do now. I felt really alone, and to whom else I had to hang my despair and my life. If I had no one else in the world. Ukh, it feels very heavy if in my current situation I have to continue to ask for mercy to Wirda, Bik Siti ,Pak Budi and Ustad Fariz. Then it must be until when I depend on the help of all of them. Hadn't I been troubling them all this time. And with my current situation I will add even more to their distress and fatigue. All of those were questions that kept popping up filled my mind.

My heart continued to churn and brawl with thoughts that I was questioning myself. Wirda, Bik Siti , Pak Budi and Ustad Fariz repeatedly called out to me so that I would respond immediately to their words. Stifled and petrified wandered in despair that gnawed at me slowly. They were so close to me but for a moment I felt very far away from them. And again I continued to dissolve in fear of the fruits of my own mind.

I slowly felt Wirda holding both of my cheeks while repeatedly calling my name . "samma ...Rani!," said Wirda with a slight loud shout. However, I remained silent with my blank look. Wirda who saw my situation increasingly could not help his sadness. Until he kept shouting many times saying my name ."Rani's....Rani.Answer Ran! you don't shut up like this. Please say something. If you keep quiet like this, I'm getting scared and worried about your situation. Huhuhuhuhuhu..hiks....., "said Wirda with anxiety and sobbing.

Wirda hugged me very tightly. It was as if he wanted to show me that he existed and was by my side to strengthen me in my worst state right now. Then Wirda clasped my hand crying and said, "Huhuhuhuhuhu..Ran you don't be like this I'm really not strong and can bear to see you sad like this. You're not alone. There is me, Bik Siti, Pak Budi and Ustaz Faris who will always support and help you in every difficulty you get. Hiks..hiks..hiks," said Wirda quietly as he continued to cry. "And one more thing, where was the Rani I knew first. Rani is tough and strong and always patient in facing every disaster that always falls on her. He never trembled or was afraid. Though God repeatedly gave him great trials and trials. Then why did the Rani I know now become weak like this ?Hicks..hiks..,.hiks...I beg you to speak Ran something and do not be silent like this, "Wirda said again holding my cheek.

" Yes Nak Rani Bik Siti Please, Nak Rani do not just shut up. Say something son Rani.Bibi is also very worried about the situation of Nak Rani. Does Nak Rani not want to talk anymore with Bik Siti?" asked Bik Siti while looking at my face and rubbing my head gently.

In my silence and daydreams I actually vaguely heard all the words of Wirda and Bik Siti. But still my heart seemed frozen and my tongue was reluctant to say anything. The truth that I had heard instantly had torn down the foundation of my strength and the conviction that I had built that I would soon recover and soon have my vision returned.But in fact Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala wanted another destiny for me. If I can, I want to shout as loud and loud as possible to vent my distress. I feel so tired and tired of continuing to be at the lowest and even the darkest point of my life. At least now if I can see. I can fight to defend myself in the face of all the trials and tribulations I must endure. But now I have no focus and no strength. I can't see. I have lost my sight and I have become blind.

Tess.... Tesss... Tesss...

My tears drip slowly and then flow down my cheeks.

"Ran..!, "call Wirda to me while wiping my tears and hugging me back.

Huhuhuhu..... Huhuhuhu.... Hix... Hix..

Wirda's tears spilled. And she cried out loud.

Likewise with Bik Siti who can not resist her sadness.

"Huhuhuhu... Hix... Oalah Nak Rani, hiks... hiks.., "he said softly with his tears.

Mr. Budi, ustad Fariz and Kak Rafa were touched to see our tears.

All swept away in the emotional outpouring of sadness.

"For a while 'we let Dek Rani rest easy first. Let Deck Rani herself to prepare her sincerity to accept the truth that she must know sooner or later. And maybe now Dek Rani is still in a state of shock and shocked to hear our conversation earlier. But God willing I am sure very soon the Deck of Rani will return as usual. She is a strong tough girl and did not give up easily in the knowledge that I knew Dek Rani in this short time. And for that, and,let us all make room for Dek Rani so that she receives what God has destined for her.Although in our understanding as ordinary human beings the trials that Dek Rani faces are something very painful and painful it feels unfair .But we do not know what God has designed and planned for the next life of the Deck of Rani, "say ustad Fariz to all who are in the room where I am cared.

" Yes Fariz, "well Wirda, wiping her tears.

"Well then so that Dek Rani a little calmer should Dek Wirda and Bik Siti take Dek Rani walk in the hospital park and I will participate, " said Ustad Fariz.

"Betul Nak Fariz, I agree, " said Bik Siti who had wiped her tears.

"Alright but before that it's good we consult a doctor first to see the condition of the Deck Ranisenow.Sekalagus ask permission to the doctor whether Dek Rani may we take out to the park in this hospital, "say ustad Fariz to Wirda and Bik Siti.

" Then let Mr. Budi call the doctor and nurse here, "sahut Pak Budi.

"Alright Mr. Budi please," said Ustad Fariz to Mr. Budi.

Then not long after that Mr. Budi came out to call the doctor and the nurse checked my condition.

And not long after that the doctor and nurse came with Mr. Budi and saw my condition which was still pensive and silent.

" How is Nak Rani doing?, "asked Bik Siti worried.

"The current state of Alhamdulillah patients is good and there are no serious problems. It is likely that the patient is still in a state of shock or surprise to hear something that makes him feel tense that triggers a high sense of panic in him. But slowly the patient can return to normal after he feels relaxed or lost from his distress, "the doctor explained to everyone.

"Oh yes Doc, then can Dek Rani be taken for a walk in the hospital garden to breathe fresh air to make it more fresh and relaxed" Ustad Fariz asked the doctor.

"Oh certainly can be.Since it is very good for the mental development, mind and heart of the patient at this time. After all, the patient is already in a state of improvement and God willing tomorrow the patient can be brought home. Because at this time the patient needs the support of family and those closest to him to restore confidence, strength and confidence to accept his present condition .While waiting we get an eye donor for the patient. Therefore it is very important the role of the people closest to him motivate patients. So that it increases the spirit of his life to move as usual ", explained the doctor again in detail .

"Well doc, thanks for the explanation, "talk Ustad Fariz to the doctor .

"Yes to Faris .Then if you excuse me first and later I will make a prescription that must be taken Dek Rani to treat the nerves in his head due to injury.Let's Nak Fariz penetrate it in the pharmacy tomorrow Deck Rani's coming home, "take the doctor again.

"Good dock thank you, "right Ustad Fariz.

Not long after, the doctor came out of the room where I was treated. Although everyone was still in a hue of sadness, but there was still happiness tucked away that was to hear that my condition was fine and that I could immediately go home from the Hospital where I was treated.

Slowly assisted by Mr. Budi, Bik Siti and Wirda.

" Mr. Budi, Dek Wirda and Bik Siti please take Dek Rani to the park at the hospital first. Meanwhile my brother Rafa and I will complete the administration of the payment in the hospital and redeem the prescription of the medicine that the doctor gave me. So that tomorrow we can immediately bring Dek Rani to go home, "say ustad Fariz to Wirda, Bik Siti and Pak Budi who nodded together.

"Later after all the administration and taking of the drug has been completed. Me and my sister Rafa will soon follow Mr. Budi, Dek Wirda and Bik Siti in the hospital park, "take Ustaz Fariz again.

And not long after that Ustad Fariz with his sister Rafa went to the place of administrative payment of hospital fees while Pak Budi, Wirda and Bik Siti took me to the park which was in the hospital.

We went down and walked in different directions.

When I arrived, Wirda Bik Siti and Pak Budi at the hospital park. In silence I can feel the gentle caress of the breeze.Taste the breeze blowing sweeps me by scattering the fragrant smell of flowers that disturb my silence.

Nature seemed to tempt me to wake up from my sadness and play enjoying this shady atmosphere.

"Sir Wirda and Bik Siti. Mr. Budi went there for a while, yes, " said Mr. Budi while pointing at the canteen at the hospital. "Boy wants to buy a warm drink. Does Nak Wirda or Bik Siti want to take something?" asked Mr. Budi to Wirda and Bik Siti.

"No sir, " replied Wirda.

" Bik Siti?, "asked Mr. Budi.

" I'm not Sir, already full was the meal that Nak Fariz bought, "answered Bik Siti.

" Yes if so, I went there first, "said Mr. Budi.

Wirda and Bik Siti nodded at the same time.

While Mr. Budi went to the canteen.

Wirda and Ms. Siti kept me company.

The two of them sat on the long chairs in the garden. I was in a wheelchair in front of them.

" Ran, are you feeling better now?, "asked Wirda while gently holding my shoulder.

Then I nodded slowly and Wirda smiled happily to see me respond to her question.

" Rani!, "yelling someone calling my name.

It was heard by my sense of hearing her footsteps as she ran quickly towards me.

" But Roy, "wirda was surprised.

" What is my brother doing here? And is sister well?, "asked Wirda again.

However, Brother Roy remained silent and continued to stare at me.

A BRugggg...

Brother Roy fell down in front of me while looking at my face.

Wirda and Bik Siti were a little confused and anxious to see Kak Roy's behavior like that.

" What's wrong with Roy?, "asked Bik Siti.

But he kept silent and kept looking at my face.

" Kat Roy why?, "wanted Wirda worried.

Roy didn't answer Wirda's question, he kept quiet and didn't stop looking at me until his tears flowed down his cheeks.

" Ran!, "said Brother Roy inside while continuing to cry.

But I also remained silent.

" Kid Roy why are you crying?, "asked Bik Siti.

Brother Roy lowered his head and grew sobbing even more.

Huhuhuhu.... Hix.... Hix... Hix..

Wirda and Bik Siti were confused by Kak Roy's strange attitude.

Wuzzz....

The wind was blowing a little.

Slowly, Roy lifted his head and looked at me again.

" Ran's... Forgive the brother who could not protect you, so that now you lose your sight.... Hix... Hiks..., "said Brother Roy sobbing with regret.

Wirda and Bik Siti were surprised to hear Kak Roy say that.

From where Kak Roy knows if Rani lost her sight, Wirda said in her heart while looking at Kak Roy's face.

Meanwhile from a distance Rere looked towards us with a cynical look.