God's Choice of Mate

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"Why Ma'am Riska just shut up," I asked quietly.

"Akhh.emmm.emmm," replied Mrs Riska gago.

"Rani knows that Rani's request may be heavy and difficult for Mbak Riska to respond.But Rani wants Mbak Riska to try to understand Rani's current position.Rani only needs time to understand every event that occurs in Rani's life.All it feels so fast and changes mbak.Sometimes Rani thinks whether this is real or just a nightmare.But when all the faint shadows become real it feels so bitter and sick.So it feels chest even if just for sighed for a moment," I said as I took a slow breath.

Ma'am Riska and Wirda just silently looked at me without saying.I also began to rise from my sleep, trying to fight my weak body to sit.Wirda who saw me so forced herself was approaching with worry and anxiety, and worried,

"Ran, do not be forced.Made to sleep first so that Rani's body immediately recovered as usual," said Wirda trying to persuade me.

But I remained stubborn in disregarding Wirda's advice,

"No Wir, God I'm okay" I assured Wirda.

I slowly began to sit with my body still weak,even the help of Mbak Riska and Wirda also I refuse.I am tired if I have to rely on others.I want to be strong organize and live my life.And again I do not want my life to be an engineering test of a deception again.It has been enough of this suffering, it has been enough of this pain and tears.Because it is time I rise to be a new me.I am strong and not weak to be taken advantage of by anyone.

Mbak Riska just silently silent without daring to look at me.Look at the bitterness that is clearly illustrated in the look of his face.Actually my heart was touched to see Mbak Riska,but once again I tried to turn away from the pity that plagued my heart.Slowly I pulled the infusion hose that stuck in my hand.Wirda who had seen me was screaming hysterically,

"O Allah Rani, what are you doing.Your body is still weak Ran," he said while holding me.

Ma'am Riska who was still down was quickly turned towards me.And how surprised Mbak Riska saw my actions.

I still do not care.Slowly with the rest of the energy I have got off the bed.Mbak Riska and Wirda who tried to stop me was not concerned.I continued to walk with limp despite the voices of Wirda and Mbak Riska called me.Once again I still do not care.I just want to know how the condition of the mother.Yah only mother one of my biggest reasons to be able to survive.

Slowly I opened the door of the ICU room.Some sisters stopped my steps.But I did not rub it.Kulangkannya my legs slowly.Ked my eyes looked directly at the sight of a figure who did not want to see.Kak Reno looked at me surprised.He immediately approached me in panic, he immediately approached me,

"Ran..where are you going?you haven't improved very well," he said attentively.

But I was indifferent.Kak Reno tried to hold my hand.But Mbak Riska gave a signal in the form of a bundle of his head to not hold my hand.But Brother Reno does not care he still holds my hand.

"Where are you going Ran?let's take brother, yes" said Brother Reno slowly.

I glared at Brother Reno.She should understand if I do not like to see him in front of me.More his attitude is full of pretense.Teruh I've been very fed up with him.

"Please get away from me!" I said.

"I said stay away from me.Did you not hear!," I snapped.

Brother Reno just smiled wryly, "I won't stay away even if Rani asks for it a million times" Reno said softly.

"What do you really want?" I asked.

"Sorry from you" replied Brother Reno.

"Oh sorry, meaning if I forgive you then you'll stay away from my life forever right?" I said annoyed.

"But I don't want to get away from you Ran" said Brother Reno slowly.

Not long after, Kak Roy came.He was panicked and surprised to see me outside.By rushing he approached me quickly and said, "Rani, why are you outside.Rani is not well right Ran.And if something happens to Rani how?,"said Roy panicked.

I turned to look at Kak Roy,"Rani is fine brother.Kak Roy does not have to worry.Rani wants to go to the place of the mother.What Kak Roy can take Rani there? if Rani can't get there by herself," I said.

Seeing my stubborn attitude Kak Roy finally melted.Despite the worry emanated clearly from the look of his face.But no matter how hard he tried to explain to me.It seems Kak Roy understood very well if at this time I will not listen to anyone.And with my brother Roy's heavy heart granted my request.

After he borrowed a wheelchair from the nurse slowly with care Kak Roy and Wirda helped me sit.Merinya Kak Reno still forced to help me as well but Kak Roy immediately obstructed his intention.I was relieved to get away from Kak Reno after Roy took my wheelchair away from her.

Arriving in front of the mother's room.Grandfather,Mr. Sugeng and Ms. Sri look surprised to see my condition.They want to immediately approach me.But Kak Roy apparently understand me who is not wanting to dialogue with them.Finally, Kak Roy approached them and explained all the events that happened to me the story of Kak Roy looks like their faces are so shocked and saddened.But grandfather still met me, "Nak you are okay right?,"ask full of panic.

I also looked at Grandpa with my face.The sea of his face was so full of regret and sadness looked at me.I really could not bear to see it, he said,after all, grandfather has been very good to me.Kasih unfortunately so sincere I feel.With slowly I hold his fingers and give my small smile to treat his sadness,"Rani is nothing kek.Kakek don't need to worry," said I tried to convince him.

But my words made his tears spill in his sobs.His hands clasped my fingers firmly as if a great regret in his life to obtain forgiveness from me.My heart is pity and does not have the heart to see his condition like that.I may indeed be upset and but my heart is not that cruel to not care about old men like him.

I returned his grasp gently and spoke softly to him, "Sir, do not cry yes kek.Nanti Rani also sad if grandfather continues to cry like this."

Grandfather who heard my words also raised his eyes to me.His eyes were increasingly teary and increasingly sad,"I'm sorry grandfather son.I'm sorry for everything that has happened," he said in sobs.

"Grandpa is not wrong kek.And should not be apologizing like this for mistakes that grandfather never did," I said softly.

But the grandfather kept crying.Pak Sugeng, Bu Sri, Kak Roy, and,Wirda and Mbak Riska and Kak Reno who just arrived also witnessed a scene that was so emotionally draining.All dissolved in silence in the melody of sadness gramps tears grandfather.And without feeling my tears were dripping slowly to decipher the pain that keeps looming over me.I and everyone dissolve into the sadness that is connected in the red thread of the game of destiny of life.