God's Choice of Mate

Ikhtiar the Helper.

The night is getting late.

The cold night air seems to make the feathers goosebumps.

There was no dog howling, nor the sound of an owl working at night.

The sky looks dark and gloomy, without any constellation paintings that give color to the night blanket.

The world and the world,

It feels empty and empty.

Occasionally only small footsteps were heard whose voices echoed in the calm of the night.

The night Bayu went nowhere, he went without exhaling himself.

But why does the air feel frozen even though the baby is gone.

The view felt faint then blurry and blackened.

There is pain and pain that runs slowly.

However, it gradually filled every cell cavity that filled this rigid body.

At a glance within the inability of the range of the sense of sight, faintly black shadows seemed to approach in the dazzling reflection of the white sparkle.

It still feels heavy and stiff, but my heart is trying to fight self-compassion.

I tried again, again and again but the results were still nil.

Do I have to stand on my hands or pretend to give up?

To get a sense of pity or a helping hand that can help me support this weak body.

But, I think up to when I depend on others.

Is not God with me, and that is more than enough for me.

My mouth trembled to get my body up.

There is no giving up, I must be strong my inner turmoil saying so.

Bismillah O Allah, help me to move my weak body.

My eyes opened and looked around.

All white, white and white.

Am I gone? ask me to myself.

My heart pounded instantly, the longer it grew stronger the erratic.

Then my breath felt tight and stingy.

I started to feel fear.

God how can I go so fast.

Where all the problems I have been facing have not been resolved properly.

I questioned this state of being.

Until my finger moved slowly touching something that surprised me.

"Dek Rani is awake?" asked a woman's voice calling out to me.

Slowly in the still unstable clouding of my eyes. I looked at him deeply and deeply to try to recognize who he was beside me at this moment.

The woman with my inner shar'i hijab in my heart.

Oh, God, thank you I'm grateful.

I am alive and not yet gone.

My lips smiled a little for a moment.

"Dek Rani is it okay?" asked the woman beside me again.

However, my tongue felt faint to answer his question.

And with all my might I tried to open my eyes wide.

To reach out and see clearly the woman who called my name.

Faint and faint in my view and still blurry.

"What does Dek Rani feel?" asked the woman near me.

Oh my God, why does my tongue feel so heavy to speak and my eyes still blur to look around, I said in my heart.

It wasn't long before the women near me walked away from me. From his voice he called the nurse and the doctor to see my condition.

"Dok, please try to see the condition and state of Dek Rani .I have called him three times but there has been no response from Dek Rani. Even though his eyes had already seen but he still remained silent. Is there something going on with Dek Rani doc?" asked the woman standing near me.

"For a while my mother checked the state of the patient" said the doctor to the woman who called me.

The doctor and nurse saw my condition.

The doctor immediately conducted an examination and treatment of me.

"It seems likely that the blurred vision of the patient due to the vibration of the impact of objects or something hard and up to the patient's head causing trauma that indirectly affects the brain for that next after this a CT scan will be performed to see in the patient's head whether there is brain bleeding or not. And for the eyes of patients who are blurred or have not been able to respond later we will refer to by doing a special examination of the eye using an ophthalmoscope or slitlamp. Later we will see if the patient has a shift due to blunt force trauma or not but if there are dangerous indications .It is likely that we as paramedics will suggest surgery based on the disease suffered by the patient" said the doctor who examined my condition.

Hearing what the doctor told the woman beside me my heart felt a little chaotic and fearful. Oh Allah, may nothing bad happen to me, I said in my heart.

"Good doc thanks for the analysis. So for now how's Dek Rani doing?" asked the woman who called my name back.

"For now I can't be sure. Because in the next few hours until tomorrow the patient is still in monitoring and in our observation period. So for a while we let the patient rest .And if there is a dangerous indication or pain that continues then you can go directly to the caretaker or nurse who will immediately evaluate and give action to the patient. In the meantime, we have given the patient the drug, so we wait for how the effect of the drug reaction works or not to the patient," said the doctor who applied to the woman beside me.

"Well, thank you doc, for the explanation" said the woman beside me to the doctor.

After checking my condition and condition the doctor and nurse left me and the woman at the side.

Her voice seemed familiar to me and I had heard her voice.But where I had forgotten.

However, his presence made me feel very calm and comfortable.

If only my tongue were not this tight, I could ask who he was.

But I don't want to think too much.

Because what I'm thinking about now is how my vision can recover and I can speak as usual.

And I really couldn't imagine it if my vision couldn't recover and I couldn't speak. How can I survive?

But, once again I believe in the decision of Allah Subhanahu Wa ta'ala against me.

Shortly before I closed my eyes and wanted to fall asleep because of the influence of the medicine the doctor gave me.

I heard the beautiful voice of the woman beside me.

He recited the holy verse of the Quran which made me calmer and feel very lucky.

O Allah thank you for being behind my every difficulty.You always help me by presenting good people who are sholeh and sholehah , where their presence always reminds me of Your greatness. So that I will always be grateful without ever doubting You.

I watched with solemnity the woman beside me reciting the Qur'an.

"Kullu nafsin za'iqatul-maut, wa nablukum bisy-syarri wal-khairi slander, wa ilaina turja’un.

(That is: Every soul will feel dead. We will test you with ugliness and kindness as trials (the real ones). And to Us you are returned)".

"Al-Qur'an Surat Al-Anbiya verse 35," he said.

My heart is peaceful and I feel calm.

My eyes feel heavy and tight.

I was so sleepy and asleep.

 

Seeing me fall asleep, the woman beside me finished reading the Quran.

He stood up slowly so as not to wake me up.

Then he walked towards the nurse and the guard doctor who were on guard.

"My mother dropped a patient named Rani for a while. I want to go out for a while," said the woman beside me to the nurse.

"Yes ma'am," The nurse's answer to the woman.

Not long after, the woman waiting for me came out of the ER room.

His eyes looked around as if looking for something he wanted to meet.

His smile grew slightly when he found what he was looking for.

Then he walked closer towards his vision which became his goal.

"Afwan, I'm disturbing ustad" said the woman.

Ustad Fariz who was sitting with Mr. Budi was a little surprised by the presence of the woman.

"Astagfirullah .Yes, what is the case for Aisyah?," asked Ustaz Faris to a woman named Aisyah.

"Begini ustad, I want to say that earlier in the Deck Rani was awake and aware. His eyes were indeed open and looking but he looked like he was stiff and still weak. I tried to call him three times and ask about his situation, but Dek Rani did not respond and just remained silent with open eyes but did not focus on looking at me" said the woman named Aisyah.

"Then have you called your doctor or nurse to check on Dek Rani?" asked Ustad Fariz to Ukhti Aisyah.

"Alhamdulillah I have done ustad," replied Ukhti Aisyah.

"Then what did the doctor say Nak Aisyah?," said Mr. Budi who interrupted the conversation between Ustad Faris and Ukhti Aisyah.

Ukhti Aisyah was silent for a moment she tried to recall what the doctor had told her and tried to copy the paste what the doctor had said to ustad Fariz and Pak Budi.

"Bismillah, as I recall and based on my memory if it is not wrong the doctor said like this:

"It seems likely that the blurred vision of the patient due to the vibration of the impact of objects or something hard and up to the patient's head causing trauma that indirectly affects the brain for that next after this a CT scan will be performed to see in the patient's head whether there is brain bleeding or not. And for the eyes of patients who are blurred or have not been able to respond later we will refer to by doing a special examination of the eye using an ophthalmoscope or slitlamp. Later we will see if the patient has a shift due to blunt force trauma or not but if there are dangerous indications .It is likely that we as paramedics will suggest surgery based on the disease suffered by the patient".

Ukhti Aisyah recited what the doctor said to her, then relayed it back to ustad Fariz and Pak Budi.

"Hopefully the state of Nak Rani is not to severe. You are really worried about the state of Rani son," said Mr. Budi with a sad face.

"We pray a lot to Allah Subhanahu Wa ta'ala ya sir.May Dek Rani immediately removed his illness and immediately healthy as usual," said the author of Fariz who tried to make Pak Budi feel calm.

"Then now how is the situation of Nak Rani," asked Mr. Budi in Aisyah ukhti.

At this time, Rani's deck is sleeping soundly, sir, after the doctor gave the medicine. Looks like the medicine given by the doctor has a drowsiness effect sir.

After the doctor examined and analyzed the condition and condition of Dek Rani. For a time doctors said they had not been able to fully conclude the state of Dek Rani. Because Dek Rani is still under observation and in the monitoring of doctors. We are told to wait until tomorrow if there are complaints or pain suffered by this area is getting worse or pain then action will be taken to Dek Rani. So the point is now Dek Rani must rest more first Sir," said ukhti Aisyah who explained at length to Pak Budi who looks very worried.

"So now the son of Rani can not be seen the situation nak Aisyah?," asked Pak Budi to Ukhti Aisyah.

"For the time being Dek Rani let rest first Sir, so that the healing process is fast. So Dek Rani does not need to do a big action such as surgery.Especially this is already night sir, so that the healing process is fast, at once Mr and ustad Fariz also rested. And I also have permission to go inside again to accompany Dek Rani," said Ukhti Aisyah.

"True Pak Budi what Aisyah ukhti said. Now we better rest too. So that tomorrow we are also better and fresh to prepare the next steps and actions that we will take and take for the healing of the Deck of Rani," said Ustad Fariz to Mr. Budi.

"Yes nak Fariz and thank you also nak Aisyah for wanting to keep and accompany nak Rani," said Pak Budi to ustad Fariz and Ukhti Aisyah.

"Alright Mr. Budi then we also go inside to accompany Roy his friend Dek Rani. Oh yes, does Mr Budi not have his family phone number Dek Roy who can be contacted to inform the condition and condition of Deck Roy now?" asked ustad Fariz to Mr. Budi.

"Father does not have his family's phone number nak Roy, nak Fariz," replied Mr. Budi briefly.

"Oh yes sir then. We'll wait until tomorrow when Roy wakes up. Now let's go inside to accompany Dek Roy, "tajak ustad Fariz to Pak Budi.

Mr. Budi also nodded his head to sign that he agreed with the advice given by Ustad Fariz to him.

Then the three of them went into the ER house.

Where Ukhti Aisyah accompanied and took care of me.

While Ustad Fariz and Pak Budi next to my room were, they accompanied and took care of Kak Roy who was also asleep due to the influence of drugs given to him by the doctor.