God's Choice of Mate

Phone connection.

"Who called Wir?" I asked Wirda.

"Oh, Rere's calling Ran," Wirda replied as she leaned next to me on the bed.

"Why did Rere call you, Wir?,"you want to know.

"Because Rere wants to know Kak Roy's whereabouts right now," replied Wirda.

" Is it true that Rere and Aunt Desi are not aware of Kak Roy's whereabouts?" he told Wirda.

"Rere and Aunt Desi did not know the whereabouts of Kak Roy now Ran.At the time of calling myself Rere said that Kak Roy came out of the house in a very sad and very depressed state. Until now Kak Roy can not be contacted Ran.Hal that's what makes Aunt Desi so very worried and very worried about the situation Kak Roy. So is Rere," Wirda explained to me.

" Yes Wir, you should try to contact Kak Roy now or try to send a message to Kak Roy. Who knows, Roy replied to a message or a phone call from you" I asked Wirda.

" Yes Ran, I try now yes," replied Wirda.

I sat down waiting for Wirda who was trying to contact Roy and sent a message to Roy. For a moment I also felt anxious and worried about Kak Roy's situation because last time I wanted to talk to him. Roy didn't answer my words and switched off his phone. I don't know what happened to Roy. My angry feelings again arose thinking about his situation. May Roy be well, O God, I ask in my heart. While taking a slow breath to calm my heart so as not to dissolve in excessive anxiety to think about the existence of Kak Roy now.

"The number is Kak Roy can not be reached Ran.Out of range," Wirda told me.

" Is it possible that Roy turned off his phone ?or the battery power runs out, Wir?" I told Wirda trying to guess the situation of Kak Roy.

"Maybe Ran.But why is Roy acting so strangely like this Ran?" Wirda asked me.

"I don't know Wir.What really makes Kak Roy depressed.Honestly I was very worried about his condition Wir.During this Kak Roy never let myself feel sadness.However, I was very worried about his condition,now I can't do anything to comfort her even to accompany her in her sad state as she is today" I said anxiously.

" Yes Ran, I know how you feel. I'm also worried about Kak Roy but you don't think too much about Kak Roy's situation. You have to focus on thinking about your situation first Ran. Because I'm afraid that if you think too much about something that will affect your health, "ask Wirda to me while holding my hand.

I listened to what Wirda said.

"Wirda, try to send Kak Roy a message . Who knows if now Brother Roy does not pick up his phone.Kak Roy can read a message from you," I suggested to Wirda.

" Yes Ran I'll try it for a minute huh," replied Wirda.

Then Wirda again picked up his cell phone which he put on the mattress and began sending messages to Roy

Where is Roy? Please contact Wirda immediately if you read a message from Wirda.

" Already Ran, we just wait for Brother Roy to reply to a message from me. And hopefully he really reads it and replies to it .Yes already then you rest first yes and do not think of anything that can interfere with his health" Wirda pinta told me.

" Yes Wir" I answered, laying my body into the bed.

"I also want to fall Ran.Banku it feels tired and sore.Ughhhhhh." said Wirda as he stretched his body and joined the bed beside me.

" Oh yes Ran this is my cell phone.Just put it on the table next to your bed.

Who knows when Roy calls me and I fall asleep so I can't hear him and Rani can pick him up" Wirda said, handing her phone to my hand.

" Yes Wir.Yes you have also slept first" I said to Vinda.

"Ughhhhh...Yes Ran I was very sleepy once," replied Winda.

And not long after that there was a little snoring from the sound of Wirda who had fallen asleep. I smiled at her .It turned out that he was really very exhausted and exhausted.

And when I want to put Wirda's cell phone next to my bed table. Suddenly Wirda's cell phone rang.

Because I don't want Wirda who has fallen asleep disturbed by the sound of her cell phone. So I immediately picked up someone who was calling Wirda.

" Hello assalamualaikum," said a person from a telephone line whose voice was a little familiar to me.

" Waalaikumsalam Warahmatullahi Westarakatuh .Sorry who is this?" I asked slowly to find out who was calling Wirda.

" This is Roy. Wir," replied Roy from a phone call.

DEG...

My heart was pounding at once hearing Kak Roy's voice and after finding out if the one who called was him.

From the voice I heard, Brother Roy seemed to have cried very loudly .Because his voice was so raucous and heavy that it was not like Kak Roy's usual voice.

I'm still waiting for Roy to say something. I'm afraid if I talk he'll hang up. I don't know why he did that to me. I felt like Brother Roy wanted to avoid me and it made me feel very uncomfortable and a little sad about his attitude. Whether Brother Roy is angry with me or he is upset with me I thought in my heart. I really don't understand the strange attitude that Roy's suddenly shown like this.

And as I fell silent and dissolved in my mind thinking of Roy.

Suddenly, Roy spoke again from the phone connection we did.

" Wirda why are you silent and not talking? Sorry the last time you called .Brother immediately turned off the phone from you.As Rani spoke to brother. The older brother felt very nervous and could not say a word to Rani, Wir .And it felt like brother was unable to speak to her, even to meet her. Oh yes Wir, there was a brother to your house but no one at all and empty. Where are you now?" asked Roy.

Hearing the words of Roy .I was confused what to say too. If he hears my voice and knows that I am speaking, he will hang up. And I don't know why he did that and won't speak to me. I keep wondering in my heart. Did I hurt Roy so much that he was reluctant and could not say a single word to me and could not even meet me. Actually what was going on to him.So he behaved strangely like that .If I wake Wirda. I feel sorry for Wirda because he just fell asleep.Also Wirda was so exhausted and very tired. Then I was silent for a moment to think about what I should do.

"Hello.. hello Wirda why are you silent? Hello Wir!, "call Kak Roy from behind the phone.

Heard Brother Roy calling like that. I immediately replied to Kak Roy without thinking again whether he would hang up the phone or want to talk to me again.But at least I try to do the best I can.

" Yes, Brother Roy. This is Rani .And Rani hopes Roy doesn't turn off this phone. Rani was very pleading with Kak Roy," I said quietly and softly.

Suddenly, Roy's voice disappeared but the phone connection between myself and Roy was still connected.

" Sister Roy!, "call me slowly.

" Rani doesn't know why Kak Roy doesn't want to talk to Rani. If Kak Roy doesn't want to talk to Rani it's okay .Maybe Rani made a mistake or hurt Roy and for that Rani apologized to Kak Roy. Rani knows even though Roy doesn't want to talk to Rani. At this time, Roy heard what Rani said," I said softly with a short sigh.

"What mistake did Rani make, sister? until Kak Roy does not want to talk to Rani again.Even brother said if he can no longer talk to Rani and to meet Rani .Does Kak Roy already hate Rani even feel disgusted to meet Rani Kak? but that is all right, Roy. Rani can't force it. Rani is just worried about Kak Roy .Where is Roy now? is Brother Roy okay?, "meaning in a slow voice and wanting to cry.

" I'm sorry Rani ya..

because Rani cannot comfort you or accompany Kak Roy when Kak Roy feels very sad like now. Forgive Rani Roy..... Yes already if Roy does not want to talk to Rani.Rani just hang up this phone, "I said slowly and while wanting to press the button to turn off the phone.

But before I had time to press the switch off the phone.He heard the voice of Kak Roy softly and very slowly calling my name.With his speech so soft in his severe voice.

" Ran..!," said Brother Roy.

But I was silent to hear Brother Roy calling my name. It felt in his voice calling my name that a sense of burden was running through his heart. There was a bitterness and bitterness in his voice calling my name. And I can't believe it now that Brother Roy wants to talk to me again.

" Ran forgive brother who has made you worry Ran.I forgive brother who has acted like a child to you. You have done nothing wrong to Brother.And you have never hurt your brother even once. Brother just felt very upset, disgusted and angry towards himself brother .Brother feels very dirty and despicable Ran.I think you want to see you immediately, running and crying vanish all the sadness that holds in your heart right now. Then tell all the anger that you feel.But Brother is unable to tell you everything Ran. Brother's heart feels heavy, brother's mind feels chaotic. It feels so painful and so stifling big brother's chest, Ran.Hiks...Hix...Hiks..," said Roy to me and then he heard a crying voice.

After hearing what Kak Roy said and hearing Kak Roy cry like that. My heart felt slashed.What really happened to Kak Roy, my mind in the heart. I was so worried about him and afraid something bad would happen to him. Because right now he is alone, alone and in such a sad state.

" Boy.... Brother Roy listen to what Rani says!,"call me to Brother Roy.

Huhuhuhu.....Huhuhuhuhu .....Hix..Hix...

" Boy.... Brother Roy ...Brother Roy!. Please answer Rani !Brother Roy....!Please don't cry !Brother Roy .....Please answer Rani!," I asked Kak Roy by continuing to call his name with a sense of anxiety that is very painful at this time.

" Ran Forgive brother.... Ran. Sorry brother....Huhuhuhu.....Huhuhuhuhu .....Hix..Hiks..," said Brother Roy while crying.

I who heard Brother Roy crying while whimpering apologizing to me made my heart become more riled up and very worried about Kak Roy. What really happened to him that he became so depressed and sad as he is now, I thought inwardly.

" Roy's brother why Roy apologized if he didn't make a mistake. Rani asked Roy not to cry and be sad like now. Does Brother Roy also want to see Rani crying because Kak Roy is crying? Does Brother Roy also want to see Rani sad because he heard Kak Roy continues to cry incessantly like now?" I told Kak Roy.

" No Ran, big brother doesn't want to see you grieve. I don't want to see you cry. Brother does not want to see tears on your face that Ran. I just want to see you happy and always smile...Hix...Hiks," said Brother Roy still in a state of crying.

" So if Roy wants to see Rani smile.Kak Roy must stop crying because Rani's happiness is to see Kak Roy is also happy," I said softly answer the words of Kak Roy.

" Ran, brother feels very sinful .My sister felt very dirty .Big Brother really feels very disgusted with himself Big Brother, Hiks...Hix...Hiks," said Roy with his heavy voice, upset, full of anger and distress towards him.

" Why did Roy say that. What did you do that Roy hated himself so much?"I asked Roy. So hearing my question, Roy cried again and did not answer my question.

Huhuhuhu.....Huhuhuhuhu .....Hix..Hix...

Brother Roy broke again he seemed to feel very sick at heart and was so hit. I who hear the sobs of Kak Roy cannot stem my tears .I'm getting worried about him. I'm getting scared if Roy's why. I'm afraid he'll do something unexpected that could endanger himself.

"Sister Roy!, "call me crying and a little screaming.

Listen to my voice .Wirda was shocked and woke up from a deep sleep. Then he took my hand.

" Ran, why are you yelling for Brother Roy? what the hell's going on? and why are you crying like this?" Wirda asked, asking me questions.

"Hiks...Hix...Hix..Roy's brother who called Wir.And Roy's brother cried did not stop.I'm worried about his condition Wir.Hiks...Hix...Brother Roy is so depressed and frustrated Wir.I'm afraid that Kak Roy why-not," I tried to explain everything to Wirda.

" Oh Allah Ran. Yes where the phone is let me speak to Brother Roy. Who knows if he will tell me where he is now" Wirda said, wiping a tear in my face and taking the phone from my hand.

" Hello, Roy, this is Wirda. Where is Roy ?Please answer, Roy! Brother Roy do not be like this pity Rani also sad," Wirda told Kak Roy.

Huhuhuhu.....Huhuhuhuhu .....Hix..Hix...

Kak Roy's voice sounded louder crying from the loudspeaker that Wirda turned on from his mobile phone.

" If Kak Roy continues to grieve like this and Rani also grieves.Kak Roy indirectly has made Rani's health also disturbed .Does Kak Roy also want if Rani drops and falls ill again" snapped Wirda to Kak Roy.

So Kak Roy who heard Wirda's words then lowered the tempo of his sobs.

" Yes Wir.Excuse brother.Because brother is too carried away the feeling of pain that brother feels," said Kak Roy.

"Yes, Brother Roy. Wirda doesn't know what happened to Roy. But Wirda asked Roy not to act like this. Poor Rani saw him until crying like this.And Rani was very worried about the situation Kak Roy," said Wirda to Kak Roy.

" Yes Wir.I'm sorry brother," said Kak Roy with a regretful tone in his severe voice.

" Oh yeah now where's the big brother? Can we meet ?" Wirda asked Roy.

"Now where are Wirda and Rani?" said Kak Roy turned to ask Wirda.

"Wirda and Rani are at the residence of Fariz's sister, Kak Roy" replied Wirda.

" Why are you two at Fariz's house?" asked Kak Roy, with his voice still sober as a result of crying. "For Mbak Riska wants to try to take Rani with him by force, Kak. Wirda is afraid Mbak Riska will do bad things to Rani and hurt Rani back .For that Wirda immediately contacted Fariz and told him all the events. And Kak Fariz immediately brought Rani, Wirda, Bik Inah and Bik Siti to his residence Kak Fariz," said Winda to Kak Roy.

Roy was silent to what Wirda said.

" How about Brother Roy just go to Fariz's house and we can chat brother. After all, Rani also really wants to meet with Kak Roy. He was so worried about Roy. How is Brother Roy?," Wirda asked Kak Roy.

Roy has not responded to what Wirda said.

" Come, Brother Roy! better brother come here .At least Kak Roy can tell you what's stuck in Kak Roy's heart now. And Rani also so as not to worry about thinking about Roy. How's Brother?," asked Wirda.

For a moment Roy fell silent and did not answer Wirda's question. It is likely that Roy is thinking of accepting the invitation from Wirda or rejecting it. And Wirda was waiting for an answer from Kak Roy .While I was listening to their talk from the loudspeaker that Wirda turned on.

"Alright Wir.Then you send Kak Fariz's home address to brother yes," replied Roy.

Heard Roy answering Wirda's question and wanted to come to Ustad Fariz's house. I feel a little relieved and happy. At least Kak Roy if he comes here then there will be Pak Budi, Ustad Fariz, and Kak Rafa who can help him through the sadness he is experiencing now. And Kak Roy will not be more dissolved in the pain he feels because surrounded by people with good positive energy.

" Yes Kak Roy, after this Wirda will send his address Kak Fariz to Kak Roy. But remember Kak Roy must be careful and do not get carried away with the atmosphere of sadness.Please remember Rani he was very worried about Kak Roy," said Wirda reminded Kak Roy.

"Yes well Wirda.Kakak wait for you to send Kak Fariz home address," said Kak Roy with a much better tone now.

" Yes Kak, then yes it is.Wirda hang up his phone first and Kak Roy take good care of himself and be careful on the road.

Assalamualaikum ," said Wirda ended the phone call with Kak Roy.

"Waalaikumsalam Warahmatullahi Westarakatuh,"sahut Kak Roy returned his greetings from Vinda.

Tut's...Tut's...Tut's...

And the phone was cut off.

Then Wirda immediately sent Kak Fariz's home address share location to Kak Roy.

" Already Ran you don't grieve and I worry about Kak Roy. God willing, Brother Roy will be here soon .And we can ask him what caused him to be so distressed and sad like that" Wirdas said, holding my hand.

" Yes Wir, I hope so too .I hope that Roy is okay and he will tell him what really happened to him" I said to Wirda .

"Yes Ran, while waiting for Kak Roy you better rest first and I also want to lie down again because my body still feels tired," said Wirda who immediately buried his body in bed.

" Yes Wir please" I said.

And not long after that there was another soft snoring from the sound of Wirda who had fallen asleep again. It turned out that Wirda was really feeling tired and very sleepy. While I was still sitting leaning on the bed while thinking about Kak Roy's situation.

Hopefully, Roy will really want to go to the house of Ustad Fariz, I hope in my heart.

And I was still sitting quietly in my dark eyes and occasionally just saw little dots of light running through the blood circulation around my eyes.

I still think of Kak Roy and can't believe that Kak Roy has become so weak as he is today. As long as I knew Kak Roy he was a strong man and never showed his sadness to everyone. But this time he seemed to be devastated and so hurt by something that I myself did not know what caused it.

Kak Roy's crying voice was still echoing in my mind. Every now and then his voice spread to my heart and cut my pain to always think about his condition. I keep wondering to myself. What made Roy so devastated and frustrated like that.

Brother Roy hope you are okay, I said softly. While waiting for the presence of Kak Roy to the residence of Ustad Fariz house. I want to listen to Kak Roy's voice directly and make sure that he is in good condition.

I was so hopeful in the anxiety that gripped my heart at this moment.