God's Choice of Mate

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I hastened my steps to see the doctor.With my body slightly staggered I almost fell."Ran, you're okay," asked Kak Roy who approached me worriedly.I nodded at him and rushed to see the doctor.Kak Roy also followed me.Not long ago the doctor said, "Who's family from Bu Tari Puspitasari".I immediately replied, "I'm his son."The doctor looked at me, "In addition to you son, is your family mature enough."But suddenly Mr. Sugeng and Ms. Sri came."I am the representative of his family sir," replied Mr. Sugeng.Doctor then took Mr. sugeng, Bu Sri and myself to his room to discuss important issues.All I was not allowed to participate, but Mr. Sugeng explained to the doctor,then I was allowed.On the way to the room doctor Ma'am Siska hugged me for a while.After that Ms. Sri took my hand like her own daughter.

Upon arrival in the doctor's room.I,Pak Sugeng and Bu Tari are welcome to sit.Doctor looks at me inside, he said,he assured me that I must be strong to tell about the condition of the mother's health.I nodded a sign of agreement.Anxiety and tension seeped into my body.Everyone looked at me who looked very tense.Bu Sri was not ceaselessly looking and stroking my shoulder.Doctor he opened the report file and explained, "Dancing Mother has colorectal cancer...".Not yet had the doctor finish his words I immediately cried, "Astagfirullah O Allah, mother,"my mind has imagined strange things.Doctor looks at me who continues to cry,"Son, are you strong to hear it?can I go on again?,"asked me.Bu Sri immediately grabbed me and whispered softly,"Rani strong.We first heard the explanation from the doctor yes son."I nodded and wiped my tears with the tissue given by Ms Sri.

The doctor continued his words, "Based on the examination we did Miss Tari Suffering from colorectal cancer which is colon cancer,must be done surgically or surgically by cutting.Before cancer cells stick to all parts.After surgery or new surgery we can determine the stage of the cancer.But for that surgery must be done immediately.Therefore we ask approval from the family."

Mr. Sugeng looked at me and then he spoke to the doctor, "Good doc, let us discuss deciding this."

"Alright, but not too long sir.Please patient if you have to wait."

"Okay doc, we'll talk for a while" said Mr. Sugeng as he took me and Ms. Sri out of the doctor's room.

Outside Mbak Riska, Kak Roy and Kak Reno wait.They all stared at me who bowed lethargic.Mbak Riska then came over,"How the reward?",rush Mr. Sugeng and Ms. Sri invite me to another place to talk, "After Ris, you have to talk about a very important issue with Rani."

"What problem pa?" asked Sister Riska worriedly.

"Later ya papa explain, now papa and mama should talk to Rani first.Let's Ran,"while holding my shoulder.

I, Pak Sugeng and Bu Sri also walked away from Mbak Riska.Pak Sugeng and Bu Sri invited me to sit next to the hospital park.Satanganya shady and no one so comfortable if talking there.

Ms Sri held my head covered in a pink veil gently, "How did Rani decide?", taking a look at me.

I looked back at her face, "Rani was confused Mom If you are not immediately in surgery will be very dangerous for your health.However if you have to do surgery Rani is confused by the cost."I still look lethargic and weak.

Then Mr. Sugeng and Bu Sri looked at each other nodding.They were like they were making sign contact.After a long time Mr. Sugeng also said,"Nak Rani about the cost do not think about.Let all the costs of the responsible father.Nak Rani just focus on the healing of Bu Tari."

I who looked limp became flabbergasted, "But sir, the contribution is not small.How will I replace it?", I asked slowly.

This time it was Madam Sri who answered my question, "Rani did not need to replace it.Enough with Rani qualified from us". The look on Ms Sri's face looked more serious.With a confused face I asked again, "Terms?what condition is ma'am?", I'm curious.

Mr. Sugeng and Ms. Sri looked at each other again.This time Mr. Sugeng who spoke,"Before I hope that Rani will not misunderstand the conditions that you will convey.Bapak knows this is not the right moment, but you will not be able to do it,but this may be the way from God that Rani's son approves our advice".Mr. Sugeng fell silent, and Bu Sri continued the conversation,

"The condition we put forward is for Rani to be willing to marry our son Reno."

"Please son Rani do not misunderstand.It is our hope, especially my father Pak Sukiman who wants Rani to be part of our big family," explained Mr. Sugeng gently.

"But sir, I'm still in school and I don't deserve to be the criteria for your son-in-law.In addition, marriage is not a game sir" I explained.

"Yes, my father understands.But this is a choice of life.We both benefit not.Nak Rani can finance the cost of Bu Tari's treatment and we can have Rani's son-in-law as a son-in-law," explained Mr. Sugen in earnest.

I fell silent, wavering in my heart.On the one hand I need the cost of mother's treatment and on the other hand I have to sacrifice? my life is married to that haughty kid.

"Ran, mother knows this is very heavy for you.Because we are also in the same position as Rani.Diamana Rani need the opposite cost we need Rani for the recovery of Grandpa Reno,"Bu Sri continues to hold my hand gently.

"Give me a minute to think, Ma'am, because this is a tough decision that I have to make" I said to Mr. Sugeng and his wife.

"Alright Ran, but do not for long.Your mother must immediately get treatment.If it will not be very influential on his survival," said Bu Sri then he continued his speech again,"If later Rani agrees to marry Reno.You will be married betih first.After graduating from school or graduating new college will be inaugurated your marriage officially, that is legal according to state regulations.And Reno's problem is a responsibility answered us as his parents.Rani does not need to think about it".

"Yes ma'am, let me perform the prayer of istikharah first before I decide my choice".

"Alright son, please," said Bu Sri.

I also walked to the musala in the hospital.Slow footsteps I away from them.My heart is worried about the difficult decisions that I will take.That I am in musala,hurry I took the wudu.Butiran wudu water cools my body.Then I went into the musala to perform prayers istikharah.After completion of prayers I also recite and pray,

"Bismilahbornrahmanirrahim.Allahumma inni as-alukal Huda was sadaad.That is to say: By calling the name of Allah the Most Merciful, the Most Merciful.Yes Allah, I ask You for guidance and truth.Aamiin".

My tears poured down my veins, I was helpless and I laid down my life on Allah.

Laa Hawla wa Laa Quwwata Illa Billah, There is no power and effort except by the power of Allah the Most High, the Most Great, I said.

Kulipkan mukena and prayer mat.Lalu stepped out of the musala.Kebali back to the original place decided the choice I would take.

Bismillah, guide me O God.

I stepped up too......