Hold on or let go!

The Eps 93

[Aa return to Jakarta. Take good care of yourself. Aa will solve everything. We'll go back to what we used to be, neng.]

As soon as the contents of Alby's chat sent ten minutes ago.

I'm still in my room, at Lek Sarman's. Both of my lek are back at the stall, going home later at dinner time.

Already past the magrib, I chose to sit in the living room. I occasionally play my phone. I opened my IG account I don't know when I last opened it. There are some DMs from friends who do follow me. Suddenly, my followers are so many. I didn't know what the initial reason was until someone asked me about William. Because of my photo that William uploaded, my friends who follow me so many ask about the truth. If only the detergents knew, there would be many things that happened in the world. If they could think positively, could William and I have met by accident? And reality is like that.

William really troubles me! Rather than adding to the burden of my mind, I would rather close the purple application.

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Days have gone by, Alby still intensely sends me a chat. I don't know why all of a sudden I want to smell my husband's body. I rubbed my stomach still flat. And a fetus that may have just been a piece of corn or more, I talked to.

"Son, did you miss your father? Don't ya baby!", I slowly rubbed my stomach which I think a little hardened and raised at the bottom, but not too obvious.

"Sir!", suddenly Lek Dar called me.

"Let's go, Lek."

"In front there is Mba Asih. Meet there!", pinta lek Dar. I sighed to me. Ever since hearing their explanation, the feelings had been a little shaky. Will I forgive them? Regardless of whether they were right or wrong, my sense of trauma had already formed since I was young. And until any moment will not be forgotten.

"Come, come out!", take Lek Dar again.

With a bit of laziness, I also came out of my room. I'll just brush my hair as long as I can. I haven't had a shower yet, and there are no exit plans.

I approached the woman who was seven or eighteen years apart from me.

"Nduk!", greetings.

"Yes, what's wrong?", I asked flatly.

"Yesterday, son Alby had time to meet mother!", said Asih while looking at his eldest son.

"Gapain Alby's been there?"

"Son, I know. Maybe I'm getting too involved in your household affairs. But son, parting is not easy, son. There's a lot you have to think about."

"I've thought of everything."

Asih moved to sit next to his daughter who had grown up without him.

I was in the position before. I let the woman who gave birth sit beside me. Suddenly he hugged me so tightly. A warm hug I've never felt in years. Without feeling it, my tears just melted. I don't want to return his embrace.

"You know nduk. I love you so much!", Asih rubbed his daughter's head.

"Yes, of course I know you love me! And almost every night before you were around, I saw you cry. It must be because of his disappointment at being betrayed."

Asih shook her head, wiping her tears.

"Sir, I swear to whatever mother never betrays you. What you see is not always what you have in mind. Yes, the one you saw that your father used to cry in the middle of the night for a third of the night. Not because he betrayed his mother. Not son...."

A little bit of memory given his past.

"Father often asked mother to leave father. Because the father feels already unable to give a living the same inner mother."

My heart is breaking, just because of that???

"For mom, I never bothered her. But not with your father. Your father thought about the happiness and needs of the mother. I just want to be with you and Dad."

I wiped my tears.

"Son, forgive the mother who made you sad like this. I just wanted to say, you still have God, son. He won't burden you beyond your means. I can feel your disappointment. But I can also see what Alby's love is like you."

My eyes were staring at the floor I was on. I confirmed my mother's words, but of course the polygamy Alby had done was unacceptable. I'm a selfish woman who doesn't want to share my man with anyone.

"But I don't like sharing Mom. Even now Silvy is pregnant with her son Alby bu. My heartache Mom, it hurts!", I ended up hugging my mother.

Asih returned his daughter's embrace. There was a glimmer of happiness sneaking in his heart. Her eldest daughter has already called her mother back.

"I'm sorry, if I'm outrageous, son." He wiped away her daughter's tears. I'm nodding.

Did I forgive my mother ???

"By the big problems you face, there is gratitude in the heart of the mother with other circumstances. You're back with mom, you trust me after all these years of misunderstanding, son. Thank you!", my mother kissed me lovingly. And I just nodded in his arms.

"Don't avoid trouble, son. Show the world you are not a weak woman. You proved that you're the owner of Alby's real son. God willing, God will always be with you, guard your heart."

Again, I nodded again.

"So, what should I do, ma'am?"

"Go back to the place where you have to go home. Your husband is your home!"

I'm shaking.

"My house is occupied by a stranger, Mom!"

Hadehhh...pake kalbu base like....????

"The stranger is like a guest, and you are his host. Make sure you are more powerful than the guest. Don't leave your house!"

I don't know what term you're using. But enough in my opinion.

"Even if you want to ask for a thousand divorces from Alby, it won't have any effect, son. But if that word comes out of Alby's mouth. There's just been a consequence. Moreover, cheerful is not easy, son. You already know the requirements and documents needed to file a lawsuit, right? And you can't complete it???"

I'm speechless.

"Sir, giving a second chance doesn't mean we're stupid. But we're just trying to get stuck in the chest."

"I love Alby Mom, love Alby. Then I want to release Alby ma'am. I don't want to be a cruel husband to me or Silvy. It's not fair to us, ma'am!"

"Follow your conscience. You know what it's like to live and grow up in an incomplete family. Do you want your child to feel the same way? Think of it!"

"Mother never intended to leave you in the slightest, but you yourself who already hated the mother and did not want to listen to the mother's explanation before. Mumpung not already, try to fix everything."

Aahhhhh...my mother made me worry again 😔😔😔padahat I was determined to give up.

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