Hold on or let go!

The Eps 61

Azan dawn reverberating. I was getting ready to get out of my bed. But Aa's hand is still possessively coiled in my stomach.

"A, wake. Fajr prayer first huh?", I said softly. Alby just mumbled slowly.

Again, I tried to wake him up.

"A, wake! Later after the prayer could sleep again!", I patted his cheeks slowly.

"Eum.ya neng."

Finally he got up and opened his eyes.

"I'm first A!"

A few moments later, he followed me to the bathroom to make ablution.

Finally.we can pray together again at this dawn. Thank God, I unconsciously shed my tears.

Alby turned back to kiss the top of my head. After that, he took both my hands and held them.

I looked at his bead that looked shady.

"Why is Aa suddenly here?", I asked. Alby helped me to release my face. Then he slipped my hair between my ears.

We sat facing each other crossing our legs.

"Aa kangen is just as neng."

Hufft.I heard him take a deep breath. Right now his face was like storing something extremely heavy. There's probably something heavy he'll tell me.

I didn't mention his kangen expression to me. Alby kept wiping my head lovingly. As if he wanted to say that he didn't want me to stay away from him.

"No one wants Aa to say, Bia wants to go to kitchen A."

I fold my face and I'll get up off the floor. Alby also got up like me.

"It's still too early. Don't cook first. I want both of them to be the same."

He holds both my shoulders. Whatdoes thatmean? Is he talking about his 'rights' to me?

I took Alby's hand off my shoulder slowly.

"Today I received a catering order with a considerable amount. Looks like I'm gonna be busy. So better get some rest."

Just turned my body and stepped, but Alby grabbed me from behind. He kissed my neck slowly.

"Aa kangen neng!", he whispered. I put my head up to the roof. I pushed him slowly. And indeed, he immediately let go of his embrace. But he made me face him again.

Our eyes clashed with each other. I know, he misses me. I realized he wanted me. But.. Am I selfish if I don't want it right now?

"Neng rejected Aa?", she asked slowly but I knew from her tone she was disappointed. It's the first time I've resisted her touch during our marriage. Usually, even though I was in trouble, but he asked for his right, I always gave my best service. In my way. But, I don't know this time I really feel reluctant.

"Sorry A! But instead of Aa getting it from Silvy?", I looked into her eyes with my own eyes. Yeah, my mouth's good at asking that. But my mind feels claustrophobic.

"Did I want Bia wrong? Aa's own wife?", asked Alby still in her gentle tone.

I shook weakly.

"It's not wrong. I was wrong!", I said, trying to get away from her but again she grabbed my body. Suddenly, he took me and took me to our room. Inevitably I put my hand around her neck, I was afraid of falling and impacting my womb.

"What the hell!", I said a little annoyed.

Alby didn't tell me to sit me in our bed. He locked the door of our room.

Alby sat next to me.

"What do you think, that body connection is just a vent of lust?", Alby asked in front of my face.

"Yes. The proof is that Aa can do it with Silvy even though Aa says a thousand times if Aa just love Bia."

Alby sighed in frustration then squeezed his own hair which now began to lengthen.

"Bia knows, she's got the same rights as rich Bia. Bia also often said and was aware of it. But every time I think about it.I'm a. This chest feels pain! It hurts!", I said slowly.

"Don't you think she's tormented like this? Neng always cornered Aa. Says Aa enjoys the role of Aa as a male with two wives? If Aa could choose, Aa would prefer our mediocre life like before!"

I am the same A! My inner.

We were both silent and dissolved in our thoughts. Am I being selfish if I refuse to give my husband an inner living? Do I deserve to show my gloomy face in front of my husband but I am haha-hihi ria in front of other men?

I finally gave up on my ego. I grabbed my husband's handsome face. Our faces face each other. I hugged him right away. I lay my head on his chest. He grabbed me and grabbed my head.

"Sorry!", I said. Alby nodded slowly. Even I realized his jakun was up and down.

Alby let go of his embrace and then slowly brought his face closer to me. Then he recited the prayer on my crown, then kissed it. I closed my eyes. I finally felt a whisper in my ear.

"Can you?", asked Alby still beside my ear. Although slowly, I also nodded faintly. And after that.again and again.we enjoy our rights and obligations until the sun begins to turn.

Maybe for the first time, we did this on such a bright morning.

Alby rubbed my still flat stomach.

"Neng, when is there a check schedule? Aa want to join nemenin neng check to the doctor or midwife."

"Not yet to know A. But, today Bia has a rice box order from the doctor. Ask to be taken to the hospital."

Alby looked at me with an inexplicable look!

"Doctor Sakti still calls neng? Is he just the same mode so he can deketin neng?"

"What the hell is A. Don't suudzon so!", I said softly as I put some more warm tea on the dinner table.

"Why should he send you a message? There are many restaurants near the hospital. Why do you have to bother and send messages to you? What do you want to take your clothes there?", cerocos Alby.

I sighed to me.

Alby doesn't comment anymore.

"Do not, let Aa take neng. All of you later check the contents. Aa want to see our son, can USG all you guys right?"

Instead of being complicated, I just say what he says.

Tok.dok...

"Eh, the rich is Wak euis chicken nganterin tea. Just a little A."

"Udah, Aa aja who ambushed her chicken. Have you paid yet?"

"Yesterday dp later most in told about its shortcomings."

Alby also opened the back door that was knocked wa Euis. It turns out that the delivery is not Wak euis, but his son. Alby paid the rest of my chicken bills.

"How much less A?", I asked.

"Udah, I've paid for it."

"It's not A. He wants it to count the ones that go in and out."

I also executed a lot of chickens.

"A lot of orders neng?", asked Alby behind me.

"Alhamdulillah. This is also an order from Koramil's office."

"Febri?", asked Alby.

I'm shaking.

"No, miss Cecep and his friends. Mas Febri's in mutation to Kodim's Deket same hospital."

"So, the house is empty?"

"It was only a few days ago that she moved. But he said he comes here occasionally. He took the rent a long time ago."

"Don't you want the same mode?", asked Alby with a glance.

"You're jealous I'm close to Febri?Though you know what I look like A!", I put down my knife.

He's jealous of Febri, but he doesn't think I'm jealous when he's with Silvy in town?

"Sorry neng!", Alby rubbed my arm.

"You don't have Febri, which means you're really alone Neng."

Alby's dipping my shoulder. I went back to filtering my chickens.

"I'm used to it myself. Just relax."

Alby held his arms around me. Sometimes he kissed my shoulder.

"Did they treat Mak well there A?", I asked. Alby nodded slowly.

"So far, yes."

I let out a breath. Until we realized that there was Salamah tea and my neighbor typed the kitchen door.

"Assalamualaikum Bia!", greet Mamah and her friend.

"Walaikumsalam tea, bik. Coming in!", I asked. Alby let go of his embrace.

"Eh, alby. Iraha back in the village?", asked Mamah tea.

"Body tea!", said Alby. Salamah tea does not mince words anymore.

"Sir, what aunt?"

"Eum, nyuci rice yes bik. It's Bia a readyin."

The aunt nodded, she headed straight for our dirty kitchen. Salamah tea followed him.

"It's just rest."

Alby did not refuse or agree.

"Later if I need help, I'll call Aa."

After being persuaded like that, Alby obeyed me and went to the room. I stepped my foot into the kitchen. I faintly heard the chatter of the Lord and the aunt.

"Oh, mun urang mah alim Mah. Salaki costs Alby, heuh! In my ridicule!", said the aunt.

(I don't want Mah. My husband is rich Alby, heuh. In the same teasing as me)

"Sstt. Ngke the Bia ngadenge kumaha?"

(Don't make it. Later if the Bia hear how)

"Check of naon Mah tea. Salaki kasep mah not calm" said the aunt again.

"The chance to find another one is getting bigger!" continued the aunt.

"Udah bik's. Don't talk about Alby. We want to doain aja may Bia same Alby tea durable keep the household."

Salamah Tea advises the aunt.

"Neither nggeus oruh!"

The two adult women began to get busy with her work in the back kitchen. Apparently, almost everyone knows what happened to my household.